Since I am so sinful, I do not have any taste for the Holy Name. But for the past week, due to sickness, I haven't been able to chant even 1 round and I feel miserable. Chanting definitely helps the consciousness, I can see that now. Now, I am always getting cranky I feel worse than ever. Today I was more bored than ever, my parents went to a benefit dinner to help raise money for a new temple we are making but I can't go. I can barely talk and so I can't chant. I can chant in my mind, but we all know how canchal (unsteady) the mind is.