Your obviously worthwhile service still does not give you the right to belittle or demean others, no matter how pathetic their little lives might appear to you. I'm sure many could find your personal experiences inspiring and I for one would greatly appreciate your sharing them here. I'm equally certain that, as a devotee, you give all glories to God and guru, not guns and politics.
My own wretched history and present fallen useless position has already been sufficiently exposed to ridicule on both VNN and Dharma-mela forums, so I see no need to debase myself any further here. Then again, I am not a devotee nor am I a disciple of any particular guru and do not expect to become one in this lifetime. I do feel strongly, however, that how those who are treat each other is extremely significant, both for themselves and Lord Caitanya's movement as a whole. Building one's self-esteem at the expense of others' is definitely not the way to go, in my humble opinion. If there were a little more empathy and understanding between the devotees of all camps, they might reveal their own stories and accomplishments to the benefit of all. Sorry for taking this thread off topic, prabhus. JAI SRI RADHE!