seamusjcarroll

please excuse pralad and the boy shiva in tapaysia all ways strike me alike one wild one soft , when my nerology is coking i cool my self by imagining the other day i imagined shiva in tapasaysia a lotus leaf opened and instead of shiva a very gentle boy apeared as pralad at which point the beast in me said he only speaks when he chooses and then forgets again and mind said slow what is that feeling i imagined again into everything to see if i could understand and the lotus leaf appeared with pralad again the beast said the same and forgot and mind said meditate on the feeling i also do pulsing on my self to feel the suptle change overs in my neroulogy and then cognition and recognition mind body same reflection but something watching soul paramatma i walk slow to speak so but interesting thread for me to weave thank you

i like this reference the english prabhupada know his job first amarica the sister nation and then england the old warrior she sucked hardest at her advent and then retreated with mostly benovalence we are historicaly liked and feared and england still runs the show prabhupada knew that awaiting in our midsts are demons who will do everything in there power to destroy the next soilders for krishna as demons and as frauds , and then your own intelegeence everything has already been protected from view so when you know you just do thank god for forgetfullness when something is new it soon becomes old as a thought which thoughts did i hear krishnas flute play and where was i the rest of the time gathered home gathered in as if to play and break and rebuild anew as you as you are but knowing what to do and how one step at a time some dark tunnels you have to hold krishna hand all the more dont be afraid or you will frighten the body and then the mind and you loose your grip and float of with a prayer of hope to be reunited again when you remember this emotion there is nothing but krishna lila everywhere including my bones and youres metachondria surfacing as a trait of character london character sublimed by prabhupada in other words he killed the moster i had to save the child always work to do and then to discover the child is opon the back of the beast completly unafraid in fact the oposite the beast takes more care of the boy than the boy knows and the child plays free unafected by what it can not see or know and screams hey look at me where you can not look that strikes me as unfaire but then there is know pleasure in knowing suprise before england chapions prabhupada as all of us as boss top boss krishna instead of 50 50 give one thing with love and it will be acepted we as devotees are ready first to throw our coin but wait for it to offer it self up tigling in your brain until you feel free and then it just popos out look at the words stop pick 3 words stop pick 3 more stop last three stop relax forget and at some point you will see if you can remember the order word for word , we all wish to see change as we change our words change until our words make change prabhupada is going to be well pleased soon by us all one thought at a time as prabhupada already took your hearts it only hurts because of the mind giving up its false independence as emotion runs to prabhupada thats how you know you are a devotee he saved my life for sure so i owe him my life and such a sublime message such as chaitanya and the othere five govswamis such a beuatiful gift for world at this time devottees pour out your love for prabhupada so that he may instruct us all and then our road will be clear jai prabhupada jai rahda

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im not an educated type mostly self taught i dont judge and try to be present as for my word and meaning which orthodox i spell bad andd play with structure while not realy knowing the rules and paased caring so i can stay spontaneeeous i have two cows in rahdakund a family take care of them as for the cows here die the quicker they go back good there are to many and it is difficult to feed and care for so many especially as there are so many spirit souls crying out for mercy while the cows choose to be born to give mercy spiritual doctrine feed the body feed the mind know emotion see soul krishna hold i dont like breaking things up and im slow so i give it a go i can be deciplined but i still dont know all the rules and some i dont care for otherwise free to choose , i keep looking at all your post ,you have a lot to say , what is your job with all these words,please tell me with very few words like your last post, if i were kali i would chop of every cows head now to see which one is shiva .

jai rahda one of the realities of kali yuga is intolrence biological pathological spiritual toxic overload ,deep in kali yuga ,it will be impossible to live here as we become more and more degraded , we are getting a taste of what is to come we should count our blessings , that we came to prabhupada and not some other school of thought even demons stay near to the truth, poison to necter poison krishna has his hand in the butter jar all the time ,as for me the vegan diet made me wet and weak although very fresh delicate and soft , but no power no rage , life has been a great chalenge and anger and confusion has mostly rienged ,as i raged at god and who did i get prabhupada rage at krishna give krishna everything , how , by pleasing prabhupada , prabhupada leads us all to krishna ,build your lives eat full prasad remain strong and agile and clean ,as best you can , soon this world will start to change it has been prdicted , we must be prepared at any moment fragile or strong for krishna to come prabhupada said never imagine that krishna is not real now use your intelegence and engage with krishna by pleasing me be a friend to all , a friend to your bones blood heart brain make no separation love everything vedic and apply the science to your self and soul and all the same no devision no high no low give krishna the pain and pray sing and slowly slowly it will lift away, do the work and sucess is garanteed, do the science and see,jai prabhupada jai rahda

thank you i read so much neural science humans are intelegent with krishnas science calcium rushing through vedic philosophy jai prabhupada jai rahda

a man of so many post an you use such tones why may i ask ? i do not talk loosly inquire with out agitation , when i saw people in india washing the dieties cloth with soup made from dead animals into mother gunga all western type products indian people lieing and geting rich while the children are born twisted by polution inside out in all quaters and you refute at what , golden age is just a moment like any other as you awaken slowly from sleep i grab the nearest comfort around milk feeds me as i weep and when i rest my bones and brain need to build so i can stand here without any fear a long time coming maybe i can fight with krishna as whaat arjuna or a foot soilder as a foot soilder i have skills and my mind is clear as to duty die without fear because im at krishnas side as paramatma resides in all seeds to life death life oh dear this one what this moment what to speak clean as if to enjoy to enquire spontaneously vaisnava ruels

dear prabhu is the cow not mercyfull by giving us milk are they not a higher birth than human does not shiva hide among the cows , vedic knowledge and then dry speculation , and then practice , i need my physical form to serve , thar includes my brain , did prabhupada tell us not to drink milk, he did tell us to protect cows, how and without a brain how , you make asumptions , milk is mercy , commercial is mans interferance , what to do , drink milk get strong and stop them the cows are mercyfull bhakti is mercy , im not a scientist , im trying to be a devotee, and i need mercy jai prabhupada jai rahda

at this time give him tulsi do not agitate his mind with speculations or yours but remain present while you internally chant and pay every attention to his needs without interfering gently sing to him and be glad of your service jai prabhupada

to take a bite of krishna is to loose all taste the promise being that your material life is over , as we develope bhakti we recieve mercy as knowledge or insight , until we are smashed to pieces, mercy that at times has made my mind crazy ,at these moments i have used bad language to everything , sat in my cave waiting for the shadow to lift ,as the shadows lift i often use explietives as afirmation to my jiva , to give up its foolish thoughts , how can i defeat prabhupada love can not be defeated but jiva must be quelled , to surrender , is to give up illusion , and look maya in the eye and see her as a goddess and offer her respect , the devotee is peacfull and fearless and always engaged in serving his guru , as for ofence this physical form roams covered by the material potencies ,all is krishna , we are in rahdas womb awaiting her mercy but not until prabhupada is pleased will this mercy come , everything unfolds as prabhupada wishes our job is only to please , these subjects and exchanges burn in the hearts of devotees , who has bhakti , do i you know what bhakti is , did prabhupada know , and is prabhupada guiding us now , do we feel his presence , do we hear his voice his instruction, our time here will cease, but prabhupadas mission can not fail , avatars are already born , preparing to show, as they complete there tasks , and wait for the call, krishna uviels us all, prabhupadas words call us all, to hear krishnas flute, as all lift rahda her child jiva atma paramatma prabhupada flies our souls home on celestial swans as krishna prepares for rahda to wake , we hold her fate as hearts for krishna show prabhupada love always holds the devotee, now is our time to grow , and as you know you will be shown , prabhupada will speake to us all ,as we meditate on the holy names , jai prabhupada jai rahde

for many years i went vegan because of my fears for the cows, now i realise that milk is quick calcium for the brain bhakti and milk go togeather just like syamsunder and the cows

nine words oh krishna im so sorry for leaving you alone( mahdahurya rasa prabhupaada) jai rahda madatmahurry

nine words oh krishna im so sorry for leaving you alone( mahdahurya rasa prabhupaada) jai rahda

in rahda kund they say he was two souls and others say three sat chit ananda seperate avatars in one form strugling to please krishna and then 5 single soul avatar apear beside him and then syamsunder would jump out of their skins and perception conigtion seenn until real prabhupada said never imagine krishna is not real save vrinda love rahda syamsunder coming when i am pleased he will speak

nine words emotion motion prabhupada close spoke only jocking krishna naughtyboy

as i think more i see mother turn in horror as she has no choice but to kill her child at this point rahda faints as krishna cries and vrinda holds rahda as she faints into kali yuge hence us prabhupada goal come true golden age rahda wood awoken in rahda kund begun prabhupadas wish fulfilled

in india i started singing tulasi krishna to the ground universal mother a godess at one with jaganath smileing as govida blinks vrinda sees tulsi devi please

these letters were with me in india i read them over and over until the words floated in my mind pure science spoke a moment a mellow to saviure with prabhupada his love for krishna as rahda hides lost consumed with despaire she rages to erath to set krishna free shiva says no not until he drinks milk at my feet kali screams as rahda dreams krishna will wake when prabhupada is pleased

big bang inside paramatma show as prabnupada is pleased

philosophy or truth , mythology, your life my life path took result gained where do you stand as a snake at shiva feet to drink milk or poison journey in journey out milk found at prabhupada feet is our gate

dear prabhu very nice , some itelegence ,as to instruction , if you were to percieve prabhupadas presence before you now what instruction do you think he would give choose nine words , when you decide the nine words , i will also right down nine words, the rules 1 at a time first last

sounds appocalyptic , what 50 years and where are we now , if mans fate is determined already , we all gonna die unless we can hide some where, or is it rapture that saves us , i like to think , that prabhupadas mercy in the west came to squeeze out the rascal who can save us all , where yoga maya wakes some one up , and a jesus or a bhuda or is it krishna, as syamsunder with some of arjuna's lot pop out , before we all burn , in rahda kund when you ask people what they are doing they say waiting for krishna to come , not doom

you make me smile" lunatics or demonic , what is the sulution , i live here to and see , what to do , somone must have some affective ideas , or are we doomed , that just can't be what about golden age 100000 years or just bubbling in the stew

im sat alone in front of a computer , thinking feeling and doing , we all think feel and do so many things , until we become aware , there is no question as to why , it just is , disturbed from our sleep , we ask why , and if you are lucky , krishna appears , like a friend we have forgot , the idea at first can be strange , but if you are intelligent you do not reject or accept you continue to enquire, krishna means the all attracting , and the only thing that is attractive in this world is love , krishna is the highest love and the highest goal for love , do you think love do you feel love and do you do love ,without the object of love being krishna , we attach our selves to illusion , the object is to attach our selves to krishna the process is bhakti good luck

"People lose faith not because bad things happen, but because they dont understand WHY they happen, or what to do in order to stop them from happening. You cant keep feeding people lies forever. Sooner or later they will wake up." dear prabhu my thoughts are that , in this world we have been dealt , some heavy lessons , iskon is like a hospital , there are so many movements , trying to convince us to take there medicine , for me the only one that makes sence is bhakti yoga , prabhupada cure is faultless, but we as patients are full of faults , but like any one who is sick , they usaully know if there are getting better , i can blame others for my life ,but it is off no use , time place and circumstance is the frame work of any moment, without prabhupada i would of never of overcome the demons of my childhood , so many iskon members have suffered at the hands of other sick patients of iskon , kama trauma , while being fortunate to hear krishnas name , my own kama trauma , was certainly going to kill me , and has killed many around me , mainly due to addiction and a deep routed death wish , now i see my traumatic childhood as good kama , mainly because i have learnt inpossible lessons ,and even though far from pure , i find my heart soft , because off prabhupadas instruction, as apposed to biter , because of the sence off great loss, what i have gained far out ways the trauma and loss, i see it all as a kind of training , so as to learn new skills that i can use in the world , this makes me think "where is the cure in iskon " not the fault , ei how have you advanced, and how , in what way , i would love to be able to go to one of iskon temples and have the choice to serve prabhupada , but instead , i come up against , who is your guru , and political in fighting , same with gaudiya math , these days im more inclined to think of prabhupada as my instructing guru wheather people agree or not , and the thought of accepting some other guru , the same as giving up my intelligience to lies and duplicity ,my wish is to be encouraged , but where do i go , i do not want to change doctors, but i don't like the hospital, where to find shelter , prabhupada and krishna and bhakti prem for sure , or here on this wide world web,posting my rambling thoughts, i'm reaching out for krishnas love , and i believe all of you are doing the same, at least i like to believe so , jai rahde