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Also, what about the mala..does it have to be a NEW mala? Can it be consecrated somehow? I only have a mala that I have used for other chantings on...how can I cleanse it to prepare for this?

Thank you soooo much for the details..sorry for the amount...but I have s ome questions... 1...For the Tarpan and Maarjam, do I place these onto the Shiva lingam? I read somewhere that I should put the water on my head for the Mritunjaya siddhi...or should I place it on the Lingam? 2. You also wrote..It is recommended to perform Havan, Tarpan & Maarjan after completion of Anusthaan. Please forgive my stupidity, but can you explain to me what this means? Should these then be completed at the END of the practice??? Is that what you mean? I apologize that I am confused as to WHEN to do this havan/Tarpan/Maarjan in the midst of my chanting? Also, if I do extra malas instead of Havan, does it go OVER the 40 days? Or do I take into consideration the extra 125 malas and add it in to total 40 days? When is this part completed during the course of the sadhana? 3. At start, to let the water flow to the ground after Sankalp, do you mean the floor of your home at yoru altar? Or the earth outside? 4. You wrote..Then, you should perform Panchopchaar poojan (worship) of the Sadhana Yantra & photo of deity with Snaan( bathe), Tilak (mark on forehead), Pushp (flowers), Dhoop (incense), deep (light) etc. 5.Can you tell me how to do the Panchopchaar pooja? 6. Also, what if I do not have a yantra for the deity? Does this matter? 7. How critical is it that women stop for the cycle? Can you explain why? I really do not want to do so! It really breaks up the flow...I know it is for "purity" reasons, but is it the end of the world to continue through it? It is my feeling that God is fully with me during the time of my cycle and that I open fully up to the heaven's. Please advise. Also, if the sadhana needs to be completed in 40 days, do I LOSE the 4 or 5 days of my cycle to chanting? In other words, do I have to take those 4 days of chanting, and fit them into other days in order for the whole sadhana to be complete in 40 days? Or can it extend to 44 days? Or will that not suffice? 8. How do you keep counting with your mala the amount of mantras AND make offerings at the same time for Tarpan and Maarjan??? Can you use your left hand for the offerings? I do not get it! We only have one right hand! 9. What kind of lamp should be lit for the Mritunjaya siddhi? Is there a special oil to use? This is what I can think of now. Thank you for your time...

Why are all these posts so old??? From 2004?? I ask because each time I look at this forum there are many people searching it. Yet, nobody posts anything!! I do not get it! Have a blessed day!!

I am very happy to hear that you are not suffering the other affflictions, because they are much more difficult to cure than what you are facing now! It is commendable that you wish to change your thoughts and behaviors at all...as most people have no desire to. So, you should feel very good about yourself for this. Your girlfriend would think it is beautiful. The thing that helps the most when battling the mind, I feel, is to simply PRAY. Since god is the driver of all of our thoughts, beings, and lives, the best one to help you get over this is GOD Himself/Herself. Do you have a Guru? Are you initiated into a mantra? It is at these times, that you should immediately try to STOP the thought, and recite the mantra. If necessary, you need to try to pull yourself AWAY from the situation until you are able to control it. As in excuse yourself...wakl away and recite your mantra....until it passes...And therefore, try to avoid any such situations, where you may find yourself likely to have these thoughts. Think of it..why do you think Swamis are separated from Women? Why do you think they are discouraged from speaking to a woman, or touching them? These sexual thoughts are huge for men, and must be tamed. Ammachi teaches that if a Swami or someone initiated has a sexual/lustful thought, that they should fast the following day. Maybe you may want to consider this. Behaviuor often changes when you give yourself a small punishment. It often works. Maybe it does not have to be fasting, but some kind of denial, which will make you want to change. And PRAY. Meditation is also highly suggested. Next time you pray or do a puja, when you bow, pray to God to ask you to remove it. And when those thoughts come, simply say, "This thought is not my True Self. It is illusionary. I surrender this to God. God, I surrender this to you, please take it." These few things should help you to move to a new direction. Do not be so hard on yourself...IT IS NORMAL!! Blessings...

I also found this.. It seems to be imperative to attain the Siddhi! I guess my 15 hours of searching has paid off somewhat! This is the most important line of what is written below, I feel. "Know this as certain, that the Mantra is futile without Yoga and the Yoga is futile without the Mantra." CHAPTER XXXV. On the Yoga and Mantra Siddhi 1. Himâlayâ said:--"O Mahes'varî! Now tell me the Yoga with all its Amgas (limbs) giving the knowledge of the Supreme Consciousness so that, I may realise my Self, when I practise according to those instruetions. 2-10. S'ri Devî said:--"The Yoga does not exist in the Heavens; nor does it exist on earth or in the nether regions (Pâtâla). Those who are skilled in the Yogas say that the realisation of the identity between the Jivâtma and the Paramâtmâ is "Yoga." O Sinless One! The enemies to this Yoga are six; and they are last, anger, greed, ignorance, vanity and jealousy. The Yogis attain the Yoga when they become able to destroy these six enemies by practising the accompaniments to Yoga. Yama, Niyama, Âsana, Prânâyâma, Pratyâhâra, Dhâranâ, Dhyâna, and Samâdhi, these are the eight limbs of Yoga. Yama includes Ahimsâ (non-injuring; non- killing); truthfulness; Asteyam (non-stealing by mind or deed) Brahmacharya (continence); Dayâ (mercy to all beings); Uprightness; forgiveness, steadiness; eating frugally, restrictedly and cleanliness (external and internal). These are ten in number. Niyama includes also ten qualities:--(1) Tapasyâ (austerities and penances); (2) contentment; (3) Âstikya (faith in the God and the Vedas, Devas, Dharma and Adharma) (4) Charity (in good causes); worship of God; hearing the Siddhântas (established sayings) of the Yedas; Hrî or modesty (not to do any irreligious or blameable acts); S'raddhâ (faith to go do good works that are sanctioned); (9) Japam (uttering silently the mantrams, Gâyatrîs or sayings of Purânas) and (10) Homam (offering oblations daily to the Sacred Fire). There are five kinds of Asanas (Postures) that are commendable: Padmâsan, Svastikâsan, Bhadrâsan, Vajrâsan and Vîrâsan. Padmâsan consists in crossing the legs and placing the fact on the opposite thighs (the right foot on the left thigh and the left foot on the right thigh) and catching by the right hand brought round the back, the toes of the right foot and catching by the left hand brought round the back the toes of the left foot; sitting then straight and with ease. This is recommended by the Yogis (and by this one can raise oneself in the air). N. B.--The hands, according to some, need not be carried round the back; both the hands are crossed and placed similarly on the thighs. 11-20. Place the soles of the feet completely under the thighs, keep p. 719 the body straight, and sit at ease. This is called the Svastikâsan. Bhadrâsan consists in placing well the two heels on the two sides of the two nerves of the testicle, near the anus and catching by the two hands the two heels at the lower part of the testicles and then sitting at ease. This is very much liked by the Yogis. Vajrâsan (diamond seat) consists in placing the feet on the two thighs respectively and placing the fingers below the thighs with the hands also there, and then sitting at ease. Vîrasan consists in sitting cross on the hams in placing the right foot under the right thigh and the left foot under the left thigh and sitting at ease with body straight. Taking in the breath by the Idâ (the left nostril) so long as we count "Om" sixteen, retaining it in the Susumnâ so long as we count "Om" sixty-four times and then exhaling it slowly by the Pingalâ nâdi (the right nostril) as long as we count "Om" thirty-two times. (The first process is called Pûraka, the second is called Kumbhaka, and the third is called Rechaka). This is called one Prânâyâma by those versed in the Yogas. Thus one should go on again and again with his Prânâyâma. At the very beginning, try with the number twelve, i. e., as we count "Om" twelve times and then increase the number gradually. to sixteen and so on. Prânâyâma is of two kinds:--Sagarbha and Vigarbha. It is called Sagarbha when Prânâyâma is performed with repeating the Ista Mantra and Japam and meditation. It is called Vigarbha Prânâyâma when "Om" is simply counted and no other Mantram. When this Prânâyâma is practised repeatedly, perspiration comes first when it is called of the lowest order; when the body begins to tremble, it is called middling; and when one rises up in the air, leaving the ground, it is called the best Prânâyâma. (Therefore one who practises Prânâyâma ought to continue it till he becomes able to rise in the air). 21-30. Now comes Pratyâhâra. The senses travel spontaneously towards their objects, as if they are without anyone tos check. To curb them perforce and to make them turn backwards from those objects is called "Pratyâhâra," To hold the Prâna Vâyu on toes, heels, knees, thighs, sacrum genital organs, navel, heart, neck, throat, the soft palate, nose, between the eyebrows, and on the top of the head, at these twelve places respectively is called the "Dhâranâ." Concentrate the mind on the consciousness inside and then meditate the Ista Devatâ within the Jîvâtmâ. This is the Dhyâna. Samâdhi is identifying always the Jîvâtmâ and Paramâtmâ. Thus the sages say,(Samâdhi is of two kinds (1) Samprajñâta, or Savikalpak and (2) Nirvikalpak. When the ideas p. 720 the Knower, Knowledge and the thing Known, rernain separate in the copsciousness and yet the mind feels the one Akhanda Sachchidânanda Brahma and his heart remains, there, that is called Samprajnâta Samâdhi; and when those three vanish away and the one Brahma remains, it is called Asamprajnâta Samâdhi). Thus I have described to you the Yoga with its eight limbs. O Mountain! This body composed of the five elements, and with Jîva endowed with the essence of the Sun the Moon, and the Fire and Brahma in it as one and the same, is denominated by the term "Vis'va." There are the 350,000 nâdis in this body of man; of these, the principal are ten. Out of the ten again, the three are most prominent. The foremost and first of these three is Susumnâ, of the nature of the Moon, Sun, and Fire, situated in the centre of the spinal cord (it extends from the sacral plexus below to the Brahmaradhra in the head at the top where it looks like a blown Dhustûra flower). On the left of this Susumnâ is the Idâ Nâdî, white and looking like Moon; this Nâdî is of the nature of Force, nectar-like. On the right side of the Susumnâ is the Pingalâ Nâdî of the nature of a male; it represents the Sun. The Susumnâ comprises the nature of the all the Tejas (fires) and it represents Fire. 31-41. The inmost of Susumnâ is Vichtrâ or Chitrinî Bhûlingam nâdî (of the form of a cobweb) in the middle of which resides the Ichchâ (will), Jñâna (knowledge) and Kriyâ (action) S'aktîs, and resplendent like the Millions of Suns. Above Him is situated Hrîm, the Mâyâ Vîja Harâtmâ with "Ha" and Chandravindu repesenting the Sound (Nâda). Above this is the Flame, Kula Kundalinî (the Serpent Fire) of a red colour, and as it were, intoxicated. Outside Her is the Âdhâra Lotus of a yellow colour having a dimension of four digits and Comprising the four letters "va", "s'a", "sa", and "sa". The Yogis meditate on this. In its centre is the hexâgonal space (Pîtham). This is called the Mûlâdhâra for it is the base and it supparts all the six lotuses. Above it is the Svâdhisthâna Chakra, fiery and emitting lustre like diamond and with six petals representing the six letters "ba", "bha", "ma", "ya", "ra", "la". The word "Sva" means "Param Lingam" (superior Male Symbol). Therefore the sages call this "Svâdhisthân Chakram. Above it is situated the "Manipura Chakram" of the colour of lightning in clouds and very fiery; it comprises the ten Petals, comprising the 10 letters da, dha, na, ta, tha, da, dha, na, pa, pha. The lotus resembles a full blown pearl; hence it is "Manipadma." Visnu dwells here. Meditation here leads to the sight of Visnu, Above it is "Anâhata" Padma with the twelve petals representing, the twelve letters Ka, Kha, Gha, m###, (cha), (chha), (Ja), (Jha,) Îya, ta, and tha. In the middle is Bânalingam, resplendent like p. 721 the Sun. This lotus emits the soutid S'abda Brabma, without being struck; therefore it is called the Anâhata Lotus. This is the source of joy. Here dwalls Rudra, the Highest Person." 42-43. Above it is situated the Vis'uddha Chakra of the sixteen petals, comprising the sixteen letters a, â, i, î, u, û, ri, ri, li, lri, e, ai, o, ar, am, ah. This is of a smoky colour, highly lustrous, and is situated in the throat. The Jîvâtmâ sees the Paramâtmâ (the Highest Self) here and it is purified; hence it is called Vis'uddha. This wonderful lotus is termed Âkâs'a. 44-45. Above that is situated betwixt the eyebrows the excedingly beautiful Ajñâ Chakra with two petals comprising the two letters "Ha," and Ksa. The Self resides in this lotus. When persons are stationed here, they can see everything and know of the present, past and future. There one gets the commands from the Highest Deity (e. g. now this is for you to do and so on); therefore it is called the Ajñâ Chakra. 46.47. Above that is the Kailâs'a Chakra; over it is the Rodhinî Chikra. O One of good vows! Thus I have described to you all about the Âdhâra Chakras. The prominent Yogis say that above that again, is the Vindu Sthân, the seat of the Supreme Deity with thousand petals. O Best of Mountains! Thus I declare the best of the paths leading to Yoga. 48. Now bear what is the next thing to do. First by the "Pûraka", Prânâyâma, fix the mind on the Mulâdhâra Lotus. Then contract and arouse the Kula Kundalinî S'aktî there, between the anus and the genital organs, by that Vâyu. 49. Pieme, then, the Lingams (the lustrous Svayambhu Âdi Lingam) in the several Chakras above-mentioned and transfer along with it the heart united with the S'akti to the Sahasrâra (the Thousand petalled Lotus). Then meditate the S'aktî united with S'ambhu there. 50-51. There is produced in the Vindu Chakra, out of the intercourse of S'iva and S'aktî, a kind of nectar-juice, resembling a sort of red-dye (lac). With that Nectar of Joy, the wise Yogis make the Mâyâ S'aktî, yielding successes in Yoga, drink; then pleasing all the Devas in the six Chakras with the offerings of that Nectar, the Yogi brings the S'aktî down again on tho Mûlâdhâra Lotus. p. 722 52. Thus by daily practising this, all the above mantras will no doubt, be made to come to complete success. 53-54. And one will be free from this Samsâra, filled with old age and death, etc. O Lord of Mountains! I am the World Mother; My devotee will get all My qualities; there is no doubt in this. O Child! I have thus described to you the excellent Yoga, holding the Vâyu (Pavana Dhârana Yoga). 55. Now hear from Me the Dhârânâ Yoga. To fix thoroughly one's heart on the Supremely Lustrous Force of Mine, pervading all the quarters, countries, and all time leads soon to the union of the Jîva and the Brahma. 56-58. If one does not quickly do this, owing to impurities of heart, then the Yogi ought to adopt what is called the "Avayava Yoga." O Chief of Mountains! The Sâdhaka should fix his heart on my gentle hands, feet and other limbs one by one and try to conquer each of these places. Thereby his heart would be purified. Then he should fix that purified heart on My Whole Body. 59-62. The practiser must practise with Japam and Homam the Mantram till his mind be not dissolved in Me, My Consciousness. By the practise of meditating on the Mantra, the thing to be known (Brahma) is transformed into knowledge. Know this as certain, that the Mantra is futile without Yoga and the Yoga is futile without the Mantra. The Mantra and the Yoga are the two infalliable means to realise Brahma. As the jar in a dark room is visible by a lamp, so this Jîvâtmâ, surrounded by Mâyâ is visible by means of Mantra to the Paramâtmâ (the Highest Self). O Best of Mountains! Thus I have described to you the Yogas with their Angas (limbs). You should receive instructions about them from the mouth of a Gura; else millions of S'âstras will never be able to give you a true realisation of the meanings of the yogas. Here ends the Thirty-fifth Chapter of the Seventh Book on the Yoga and the Mantra Siddhi in the Mahâ Purânam S'ri Mad Devî Bhâgavatam of 18,000 verses, by Maharsi Veda Vyâsa.

Sitting meditation cannot be stressed enough. The mantras do clear and open you, but sitting meditation assists in clearing out and calling the light down to "do it's job" so to speak. I suggest learning a certain meditation practice, if you are not doing one now. Also, if problems like this continue, then there are most likely psychic links that are attached to your energetic field. it is normal, and they are probably trying to clear out. My suggestion is to go into a deep state of sitting meditation and ask god to release and remove such sensations and to reveal to you what they are. You will be shown. Then surrender it to God. Hope that helps.

I just bought a Parad Shiva Lingam after painstaking research to find one that seemed authentic. Do you think this is a good source from which to buy it? I ask because in the "certificate of authenticity" it claims it is 70-75% mercury and that it will be empowered by a puja. Is this alright and proper per the Puranas??? Here is where I bought it...please tell me soon if you think this is ok, or if I should quickly cancel my order? Parada Shiva Linga If you click where it says See certificate example and conditions you can see more information. Please please, advise. Thanks

Well, It is an interesting story... She is the first "guru" I met...but is not my Guru. I feel that seeing her helped me to find my Guru. Years went by and I did not see her, for I found my Guru, Ammachi. Then, I had a desire that I wished to be initiated into the Mrityunajaya mantra. Sometime later, I was seeing this Guru again for the first time in about 6 or 7 years. During that visit, the group was informed that our darshan for that day included initiation into the Mrityunjaya mantra. I was ecstatic...for my prayer had gotten answered. Now here I am with a fleeting thought to do this sadhana, and suddenly someone is telling me to complete it. I feel it is something I need to do as soon as possible. Amma Sri Karunamayi Please tell me when is a good time to call.

YouTube - Maha Mrityunjaya Mantra, my 4 year old! Ommm It is soo cute!

This may sounds strange, but are you having any OTHER strange and dirty/evil thoughts? (Masturbation should not be considered as dirty or strange.) Often times there are entities that may be attached to us to make us do and think things that may not be good for us. In more serious spirit possession cases, such thoughts of sex are also accompanied by thoughts of killing pets, stealing, doing other unrighteous things. That say, a few years ago, you may not have thought to do. If you have OTHER obsessive and BIZARRE seemingly evil thoughts, it may not be only psychological, but a spiritual issue as well that needs addressing. Something to consider.

Duh! It was stupid of me to assume you were the same person! I figured the username sounds rare to me, so it must be the same person! Either way, I hope you get the help that you need! Blessings...

For those suffering from effects of evil and black magic, getting a mantra initiation is the last thing on their minds. Although initial Guru-disciple relationship is estabilshed through mantra initiation, surely not all people are going to get a mantra initiation each time they want to recite a mantra. If one has already obtained a SELF REALIZED GURU, there should be no harm in chanting mantras which they were not initiated with. The Pratyangira homa is said to be effective against even ancestor curses and all types of black magic and should be considered a first alternative with such cases.

Your last reply has brought me to tears. I would be so greatful if you could help me. I have so many problems in life. I dont know what to do anymore. I want so badly for this sadhana to fix my health problems at the very least. I strive for mental balance every day, and only sometimes achieve it. I am trying to find everywhere a Parad Shivaling to do this with, and yet, I do not have access to one. They can only ship from India, and it will take several weeks to get and I wish to start as soon as possible. I hope maybe I could start on August 5th, when the pandit will come to my home and do the ganesh/Rahu and Sani homa. But you will guide be best, I am sure. I would appreciate it if you would PM your number. I very much need direction on this to do the worship with perfection. I hope you will not be alarmed when the voice you hear is that of a woman. I will call you when it is convenient for you. So many blessings...

Darshans are similar as to how they are in Palakkad. However, it depends on how many people are there to see her! The more people that show up to see her, the faster your darshan! Yes, you can sit near her...you should also be able to be near her somewhat in Palakkad as well. You can always approach the stage and tell them you want to sit near Amma..hopefully they should let you. In the ashram you may certainly sit near her, but there is always someone there to monitor how long you will sit and will tell you to get up shortly. Somtimes people will simply start talking to Amma while she is giving darshan, if you can sit near her...but I feel you have to be brave for that! Everyone always enjoys it when others do that! You can always try to speak to her during your darshan as well...many people do this. You can only have 1 per day. Hope that helps!

I am not sure if you would be willing to explain...but is Muhurt like a day for selecting a wedding day? If you could tell me what it is, I would be interested to hear more.

Forgive me...I ask many questions to be sure that I understand. I have so many misunderstandings with people, and it is so common on the internet that asking questions to clarify, reduces misinterpretations my mind makes. Your advice is very interesting and noted. One more question, sorry-.....what is your defiinition of "normal"?? Do you mean a worldy person who has jobs and house? I am so deeply spiritual, how could it not be stressed? It is so ingrained in me. I do not believe I will ever be normal because of my deep rooted spirituality, nor am I sure that I am supposed to be a normal worldy type money earning person! Are you saying that I have a choice? I can choose spirituality OR materialism?? Is that even a choice? Of course, I choose spirituality! Thank you for your time so much...

Dearest DhruvBhura, Thank you so much for this advice. Words cannot express my gratitude! I spent so long trying to get this information. I have already been initiated to the mantra 2 years ago, and I was thinking of doing the sadhana just the other day and then someone suggested it to me. Now I feel God/Guru has instructed me to complete it. I hope you will forgive my ignorance when I explain to you that I am in fact a westerner, and I am not familiar with some details. Would it be ok to ask you some questions? I beg you to help me, since you seem to be knowledgeable. I apologize in advance for the amount of questions. Since I am unfamiliar with the details of performing a Ganesha and Guru puja. Would it be sufficient if I were to sing some hyms to Ganesha beforehand in front of a candle and some incense? Same with my guru? Do the offerings have to be done in a particular order? Do the FIRST 1250 have to be offered to the homa? Or can it be the last ones? Also, How does one offer to the ancestors? Can it be done mentally? What objects should be offered? When? Is it totally necessary to begin this sadhana in the early AM? Of course the meaning and importance of doing so is obvious. But I ask because I do have health issues and the doctor recommendation is to sleep well past 8AM so that my body metabolism can normailize. Many hours of sleep are necessary to recover now. What do you think about this situation? Is it possible to begin the recitations later in the morning? Can I split them up, say do a few hours between 10am and 12noon. And do the rest in the evening? (I know 10-12 is not such a good time) Please help me. Is the mantra to be used only Om Trayambakam Yajamahee...or must I use the FULL mantra? The other issue that seems to be preventing me from starting (in my mind) is the actual fire offering/homa. Is it after 12,500 recitations that I should prepare a pujari to perform some small ceremony for me since I am not familiar on my own? What type would be sufficient? What needs to be done with this? Is it the Maha Mritunjaya homa that needs to be done? Since I do not have a Shiva Lingam in my possession, is it ok to BORROW a shiva lingam from the temple, if they will allow it and then return it afterward? Or is this a bad idea? Also, where can I get a Madhuroopen Rudraksha? Are these malas VITAL to attain the siddhi? Can there be any exclusions? (I ask also because an astrologer in another post suggested that I do not spend a lot of money on elaborate things for puja and ritual and that I keep things really simple.) You also said that it should be started on any good Monday with siddh mahurat (Shravan Somvar is THE BEST) Could I trouble you to suggest to me when that would be and if it is coming up? )My birthday is May 1, 1975 Skokie Illinois, 23.22 daylight savings time, if you need that I do not know. I am having a Rahu puja and Sani puja in my home on August 5th on my birthstar day of Uttradam. That pujari has suggeted I chant 18,000 Rahu mantras along with 23,000 Sani mantras to alleviate my issues. If I were to take this sadhana instead, do you think that I would still need to perform the Rahu and Sani Santi pariharam's? Would this be a good day to take up the Sadhana? Yet it is a Wednesday. Of course, I want to complete this in the way that will provide the most benefit. I hope that you can please help this completely ignorant God lover to do the proper things in the proper way. Your time and attention is sacred to me. Blessings to You...

Thank you. I appreciate your time on that. However, it seems there is some portions that are missing from the practice on that page. For 12,500 are supposed to be offered to ancestors, some to the fire, and others to water. It is these portions that I am missing..the specifics of how to do it exactly. When to begin reciting, etc. Do you know how I may obtain informatino on these parts? Would an ordinary priest know the sadhana well?

I am sure there is nothing wrong with your query. I am not an astrologer so I hope I did not get yoru hopes up..I simply wanted to grant you a response!! I hope that you get the answer you are looking for. Blessings...

Blessings to you for this suggestion! I hope you did not think that I was implying that YOU would charge money. I literally spent 6.5 hours searching the computer today to find out this information, which I only found a book that contains the pracitce that costs $30.00...I was saying that so that someone would not suggest to me to buy a book for it! That is all.. I hope I did not offend you. I am simply soooooo excited to do this, I cannot tell you. Did you say I have to wait a whole week?? Oh that is soooo long! I wish to start immediately!! I understand it is not something easily obtained, and is only granted if Shiva wishes so. Besides, my desire to perform it is not so much to obtain anything from it, but I feel it will on its own release me from things that are harming me from the past, and hopefully can also destroy my desire for enlightenment, since this desire has already been harming me in order to teach me not to desire it. I feel it is the way to culminate my 9 years of saturating my mind with this mantra on the subconscious. So whatever kind of real and proper worship you can sugest to me, I would be eternally greatful!

My husband is in financial ruin. He is exhausted and his health is suffering and overworked in his Saturn return. We saw Amma in New York and he asked her about his money situation and if she would bring a miracle..and/or if he can change out of his profession. Amma said "Amma knows you are working so hard. Amma will say a special prayer for you." Since we have come home, he is in a panic. He is flipping out, and getting really depressed and is asking me if Amma did anything at all since it does not seem like anything is different. What does it mean when she says this? Is this just a way of her saying that Amma cannot help you? Please please tell me if Amma has ever told you this. And what you know about it, if anything.

I sent a PM..thank you.

I am not an astrologer, but I saw your name and recognized you from another forum. You helped me at mysticboard one time, and I wanted to say I am sorry that you are having these problems. I hope that things get better for you soon...

HUGE MISTAKE..you will be paying for it in many lives to come. Forget it. Stay with God. It takes huge practice to challenge some tantriks. You will wind up dead if you try to challenge them. God is who will save you. And those who work with the Light. NOTHING ELSE.

HUGE MISTAKE..you will be paying for it in many lives to come. Forget it. Stay with God. It takes huge practice to challenge some tantriks. You will wind up dead if you try to challenge them. God is who will save you. And those who work with the Light. NOTHING ELSE.