radharani

Krsna sets up the dominos, I just let them fall into pattern.

Because I sometimes have 'body-memories'; it's hard to explain but in one life I think I must have been a soldier and had to have my legs amputated below the knees, because on a strange kind of subtle level, there is a kind of 'absence' of my legs below the knees that hasnt ever completely healed. And in another life that I'm pretty sure of, the girl was somewhat well known and was known to be cremated; I wondered if I was having 'body-memories' of this occuring to me after death in this most recent life, of being cut up before cremated; I'm not sure, but trying to remember helps to validate reincarnation for me, rather than just accepting it intellectually or out of reverence for the teachers of the past. [This message has been edited by radharani (edited 06-26-2002).]

he might turn around as a lion and bite me if i follow him, for being an annoying little flea

i kind of feel like a crap 'processor' a lot of days, krsna thinks it helps things (i think)kind of like a sponge, i absorb everything around me; it doesnt help for me to try to visualize white light because then i'm not aware of as much

does anyone know if there is a standard practice in cremation, at least in america, of 'compacting' the body first before burning it, maybe by making it into smaller pieces? i'm trying to remember some of my past lives and if i knew this it might help [This message has been edited by radharani (edited 06-25-2002).]

the schedule is every some thousand years or so (?), i think i've heard that, not sure. where could i read this part of the vedas

Because I should be out busy doing some kind of service, rather than enjoying his company. I think he might consider it greedy for me to be that close to him, too distracting for me maybe, to work that needs to be done. And, he might be playing, but he might not be.

just pondering . . .

I wonder if his dark side dominated during a lifetime or lifetimes in the medieval period, torture chambers, etc; also he was probably some of the kings of history

Maybe he was George Washington, and also had something to do with Shakespeare's writings

I wonder if anyone has ever tried to trace the incarnations of Krsna, assuming he comes around every time and just doesnt make it known. I'm guessing one was Jesus, and he probably also had something to do with the development of serious philosophy in Ancient Greece . . .he's probably written a lot of books under various pseudonyms in lifetime after lifetime

3rd dream: I was walking with Krsna in a Garden and then I was looking out through my chakras, like they were windows (about the size of ET's heartglow),(I dont usually have the ability to see them); first it was like looking through sunglasses with red lenses, then I was guided up and the 2nd window was like looking through orange lenses, before I got to the 3rd chakra I felt my eyes rolling way back in my head, it felt really strange. Immediately I was looking at a man on a stretcher being wheeled down a brightly lit hospital corridor, it was like I was standing behind him, except I'm not sure if I was standing or floating, I couldnt see myself. Then fairly quickly I was inside this man's head as someone said, "he's dead"; he heard them say it. He was dead, but he was still there, and he was trapped inside his mind, though he didnt feel any pain that I could tell. I was aware that he was going to stay here, in his mind, as observer only while whatever was done to his 'dead' body. For me, I think this would be terrifying, but he was calm and accepting of it, almost like he had experienced this as death before.

i forgot to say that in the dream, there didnt seem to be any way to make a fire, and no other available means for cooking, i think maybe that's part of the reason i was confused.

i dont know what 2m2 is

People who eat meat, etc: This is something I encounter in my search for spiritual life on nearly a daily basis. Feeling other people's problems; being in the same building with people who are hungover, etc, people who are largely overweight from excessive meat-eating . . .I feel myself processing these things from other people as if I had done them myself. Not Fair!! Is this common? Would this sensitivity be more bearable if I were to be officially initiated or would it be the same?

dream #2 I'm on a stage and Krsna is standing there on it with me. It is like a graduation ceremony (similar to the stage set up at my high school graduation). He waves his arm and everything turns into digital, like looking at an old-fashioned computer screen close up. Everything is red, yellow, blue (the primary colors), black, and white.(including me!) Whenever I thought something, it appeared as solid--for ex, I thought about someone standing over on the other side of the stage, and a mind-arm reached out to where this person was standing, kind of like a frog's tongue. I didnt have any thought, at all, that was not visible in this strange digital world. My thoughts were in black and white, and everything else was in the 5 colors. This was by far the weirdest dream I ever had. When everything switched to digital there was the strangest sound, like my consciousness was actually mutating into digital material.

Hmm . . .maybe you're right. I suppose now I should look for someone to submit to . . .

I know this may be somewhat outlandish, but is it mentioned in any of the Vedic texts that men came to earth from Mars (a long long time ago), and this is where evil originated, in another materialistic civilization such as this one (on Mars)? Then women were introduced to men to try to reduce/eliminate the evil? [This message has been edited by radharani (edited 06-22-2002).]

I thought if I became interested in spiritual life and became a devotee I wouldnt have to worry about money! HA! HA!HAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whatsa google

I'll try to try that, if I'm fortunate enough to have the same scenario occur; but I think he was trying to teach me something through my reluctance. He's really been after me about the widespread use of dairy. A vegan diet, I have found, is *far* more supportive of a spiritual life. When I eat dairy it makes me feel sluggish, uninspired, and my spirit clouded, in comparison to a totally vegan diet. Maybe that's what the groceries were all about, partly. The pavillion reminded me of one at New Goloka, where I ate once. But it also could have to do with my not being spiritually ready to leave behind the need for food, as I've heard some people have done, while still having or appearing to have a physical body.

I wonder what the portals look like, or what it feels like to be in one. I had the idea that the portals would just open up wherever you happen to be, kind of like looking into a diorama

I forgot to add about palmarosa, that it may have the effect of seeming to increase the depression at first, as natural remedies seek the cause and not to cover up symptoms. When working with the oils, many of them may initially seem to increase what you are working on, (if it is something to be overcome). Cinnamon helps to release and understand anger, and to discover its causes. The oil made from the bark to look at the anger, the oil made from the leaves for its release. I'm not sure if this is a known use or not. [This message has been edited by radharani (edited 06-21-2002).]

Ok, ok. I'll start. One of mine is seeing Krsna in a crowd, it is in a campground where there are lots of people staying, standing out of course in his physical form, appearing as a 15 yr old boy (or somewhere around that age). He leaves the crowd and goes through a gate. I walk up to the gate with my mind, but my body doesnt follow. I worry that I will only bother him or appear like a silly puppy if I follow him, so I dont. I walk around to where I see some groceries spread out on a table under an outdoor wooden canopy, like a pavillion, kind of. I'm thinking, what am I supposed to do with all these groceries?

Wouldnt it be great to hear about each other's dreams of Krsna? He usually appears to me as Teacher . . .every so often, maybe more if I start paying attention!