I will tell you one more story Prathap . Once Someone went to Gautam Buddha & started yelling at him " you say that everyone can get moksha, everyone can be liberated, then why dosen't everyone get liberated...you lie"
Buddha asked him to go to the nearest town & write & bring back the names of all the people who want moksha. That man went to the town, kept wandering whole day, hungry & thirsty...returned back in the evening. Buddha smiled asked " did you bring ther names"...
He said nobody wants moksha, eeryone wants money, fame, sons, wifes...nobody wants moksha.
Buddha said "that's it..when you don't want anything then how will you get it. When your desire isn't strong enough to get something you will not get it.
There are 2 teams to every game but victory goes to the team which wants it more badly..
You decide what you want...want to live a normal healthy life or abnormal life...decision is yours.
The purpose of black magic mostly is to make your mind weak. Make your mind unhealthy. You will commit suicide because you will not derive happiness out of your living. I'm happy, my mind is happy & i want to live..yours is not. You are very bold & coureageous that you have been dealing with it for 5 years but your decision power is weak...make a decision.
You also say that nobody knows about this pooja "Mahadhaara". I don't believe its true.Even if nobody knows...it can be made known through "siddhis"...There are siddhis which will tell you which pooja to do for what purpose & also the procedures...So take the first bold step. You will have to travel. Nobody will come to your house. Send me your details at " artcorner at gmail dot com " , with a photo. I will try to find out what can be done..but you will have to travel...