arasel

The future reserves what we expect for. So don't bother with astrology, kundi and other things like those. They are bullshits. Put in your mind what you want to do and realize. There is no other way for success. I hope you will find the right person but don't ask for others to look into your future, now, when you are emotionally disturbed. This karma is not a fixed thing. It can be changed now, in this life for sure. No need for another life with a bright future. The future is now and here. So wake up from the dream of being chained by karma. It is a bad joke. You are 27 years old. After your marriage or now, you are seeing another person. How can you ask for others opinion who don't ever know that person if he's the one or not? Make love, see other peoples, feel free. But do not ask for help. It is common to put your trust in the new one person because he makes you feel special. After a relation you feel now the passion again. I bet he is better in bed than previous man. But all those are bullshits. No need to run ahead in a new marriage right now. Just play your role in life and wait a while to make things clear. You need deep mind and sharp attention. Those are in my opinnion things to do.

Taking drugs and get possessed, what a pity story. If there aren’t any drugs involved, go and see a psychiatrist. Usually we want spiritual experiences. Fervently we fall under our mind hallucinations. This is the true about seeing Kali, Matangi before your eyes. It is simple mind game; the informal cannot go formal because from thousand millions of years every man could say he saw God. So calm down with imagination.

Peoples need dreams and visions? Nothing is real.

You can use the vishuddha chakra biija mantra, ham. There is the need to concentrate in anahatha and visuddha chakras before falling asleep.

There are not negative effects if you can’t do the mantra japa daily. I will tell you a true: if somebody tells you about bad effects and so on, there are 2 things to consider: 1. he is in a sect, and 2. he don't know what he is talking about. So repeat mantra as long as you want. You can also repeat the biija mantras for being always young: aum jum sah. More details upon request.

I am quite concerned about your ignorance, even if you're born in India. Take a look to Mantra Mahodadhi text and see the Hrii.m biija is not the Biija Mantra of Bagalamukhi, despite both hrii.m and hlii.m are often used. I found this mistake in other sections of this forum. You can read devanagari so it is not a problem to read original traditional texts.So take as an advice and don't tell people lies: Bagalamukhi biija mantra is hl.r.ii.m (or HLRIIM), yes to semivocals l. and r. and long I folllowed by bindu or anusvara (m). The Mantra Mahodadhi it is not the only text regarding Bagalamukhi biija mantra. See bellow an excerpt: "Atha pravakshyesatruunaam bhinii bagalamukhii pranavogaganam prithvii saamtibimduyutambaga laamusaakshogadiisarvadushtaanaamvaahaliimduyuk muhkampadamstambhayamtejnihvaamkii layavatnakaah buddhimvinashayaamtetubiijamtaarognisundagii shattrimsadaksharemantro naaradomunirrasyatu bagalamukhasvaruupam gadiikhah saakshad (t)yutahkhi sarvadushaanaamvaastraruupam induyukhakachim mukhampadamityaa disvaruupam biijam Hlriim taara aum agnisundariisvaahaa Aum hriim bagalamukhi sarvadushtaanaam vaacchammukhampadamstambhaya jihvaamkiilaya buddhimvinaashaaya Hlriim aum svaahetishattrishardnah asya shrii bagalamukhii mantrasyanaaradatrapih buuhatachitdah bagalamukhedevataamamaakhilaavaapteyajapeviniyogah" Note that others read Aum hlriim . Also you can check the Mantra Mahodadhi in my blog, the signature is bellow Hope this will answer others question for Bagalamukhi mantra through this forum.