Hello Shrinivas,
Sorry to be blunt. I am of the opinion that spiritual practice is not for those who
want to run away from world because things are not as per their wishes. You may
choose to take path of brahmacharya or sanyas but will soon run away from that
also as you are trying to run now. Arjuna wanted to do same thing, but Krishna made
him fight. Take to any spiritual practice that you enjoy doing without running away.
Accept the world as it is and that itself becomes spiritual practice. There is no need to
search for God or Guru. When you become worthy of being a disciple, God will send a Guru
for you. Till then take name of the Lord and be in the company of saints and devotees.
