Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 It was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip. The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother. Paranams Kali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 oh kaliananda, everything will work out. i just know it. i am so glad this ordeal is over. yes! now you are free! i love you for sharing this. steve , "kaliananda_saraswati" <kaliananda_saraswati> wrote: > It was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. > The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work > assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was > planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a > couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job > and cancelled the trip. > > The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year > work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or > holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for > me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I > realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger > so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. > > In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being > angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do > you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an > ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked > away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not > receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of > one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is > in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" > while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. > > Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is > that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on > that tour as promised. > > I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) > learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – > Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother. > > Paranams > Kali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded. I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote:kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati ]To: Date: Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali------------------------ Sponsor ------------------- --~-->Buy Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. Free s/h on orders $50 or more to the US & Canada.http://www.c1tracking.com/l.asp?cid=5511http://us.click./mOAaAA/3exGAA/qnsNAA/XUWolB/TM---~-> Groups Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:<*> Your use of Groups is subject to:No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding.Introducing My Way - http://www.myway.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 Your post about life's lessons inspires. It is kind of you to present it for the benefit of other people. Such messages keep me focused. Thank you. Best wishes and warmest regards, Karen - kaliananda_saraswati 3/18/2004 7:49:01 AM Life's Lessons It was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 Dear Brian, Kali and List, Thanks, Brian and Kali for your "life's lessons" posts. I was really struck by that sense of "karmic inevitability" in your post, Brian, especially when you mentioned that the driver in the taxicab that ran into you was Indian. I think for the first 15 years or so of my long time doing practices, I thought that, somehow, because I was so in love with God, so committed to my practices and so focused on "that", that I could slide away from the World and just live in my bliss cocoon. I seemed to forget that living in the world is not only a process of seeing, more and more clearly, that the world IS God but it is also the working out of all of your karmas. And there is no escaping the fact that we are embodied and here to learn lessons that might be difficult at times. Those of us who have a deep spiritual committment are so incredibly fortunate as it can provide a profound and clear way of understanding these seemingly "random" things that come out of nowhere into our lives when we least expect them. One thing that I have thought about lately is that I shouldn't take my karma "personally"...it's just what has to happen to this particular embodied one in this particular lifetime. There is also the experience of karma frequently "speeding up" around times like Navaratri or Shivaratri. "I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form....Kali" Kali, this story touched me so profoundly. I have had many similar experiences...the most recent being a situation where I rented a house with my husband on the Ocean for the Winter. Three weeks after we were settled, a N'orEaster hit and the entire 2nd floor was destroyed (due to neglect on the part of the landlord.) My studio with 35 years worth of equipment, 15 years of paintings, my research library, taped interviews with Indian saints (no longer in the body) and alot of other things were washed away. The only thing I managed to rescue before the waves hit were my cats, murtis and yantras. As if this were not enough, we had to then meet with lawyers and other people who sound like your old employers and try to find a way of replacing some of what we had lost and be "sujected to" really unpleasant cross-examinations etc.. I kept saying to my husband, "what does it matter? It's only things. I can make more paintings etc." but what I discovered is that every time I walked away from confronting the situation, it simply cropped up somewhere else. Kali (not you but the Mother who had come in with such force the night of the storm) insisted that I face what was happening,stand up for what was dharmic and not simply walk away and allow people to do this sort of thing...first to me and then to the others who would follow me. My impulse is almost always to walk away from the sight of Maya, not to want to see how people can treat each other, just to say..."let it go", especially if I am really the only one who has been affected by what has happened. But my husband and I contemplated what had happened and we found a way of dealing with the situation that was simply very clear, dharmic and matter-of- fact.At one point, I remember thinking to myself, "if this same thing had happened to my daughter, what would I advise her to do?". That was when I realized I had to do for my own Self what I would want to do for someone else. I hope this doesn't seem as though I am suggesting you should do ANYTHING other than what you have done in your case. Each situation is very different and sometimes the best thing to do is simply to walk away. But I thought it might be interesting for you to hear of my experience. Best luck to you. PS: Thanks to everyone who so generously made it possible to read the transcipts for the Live Chandi Class. I was so sorry to have missed it and SO HAPPY to find the transcripts on line. Many many thanks. PSS: we should think about making a puja addition to the website so we can all see each other's pujas...I am kind of not too literate, computer-wise, but my husband is pretty good at it. Wouldn't it be great to see where we worship? best regrds, sadhvi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 Whoops! Dear Brian, I was so wrapped up in my own response to your post that I totally forgot to say...."I'm so glad you are ok!!! Thank goodness you were not hurt very seriously". DUH! Sorry....best love to you and best wishes for recovering from any lingering aches and pains. love, sadhvi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 Sadhvi, I hear you when you say we should stand up for our rights and not try to escape from Maya. I try to remember the serenity prayer "God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, and wisdom to know the difference." Love Latha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 this i believe to be something that makes shree maa unique. she is able to integrate the personal and spiritual life perfectly seamlessly. there is no differentiation. duality is honored ... but the worship goes to the divine unity, not a trace to mundane separation. very, very, rare. steve , "Latha Nanda" <lathananda> wrote: > Sadhvi, > I hear you when you say we should stand up for our rights and not > try to escape from Maya. > > I try to remember the serenity prayer > > "God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, > courage to change the things we can, > and wisdom to know the difference." > > Love > Latha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 yaa really agreat experience to learn form...!~!!!! often we ignore the message of the divine and thus is deprieved of the happiness n benefits from the same.. but still the divine is soo loving that he give us another chance to rectify our mistakes... bye gaurav kaliananda_saraswati <kaliananda_saraswati wrote: It was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip. The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother. Paranams Kali / Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 Brian, Thank you for sharing this story in your life. It truly affirms that all we are is ONE. Thank you. Lynne - Brian McKee Thursday, March 18, 2004 1:22 PM RE: Life's Lessons Nice post.I have found for myself that my biggest hangup occurs when I feel like anything in my life is within my control.I haven't felt that way for a while and to prove that Maha Maya (my mother and teacher) threw me a curve ball on Monday.I was on the way to get lunch, with my mind bouncing between two thoughts every few seconds:1. Why won't my hardware do what I want it to do and what am I going to need to change to get it to behave?and2. What offerings can I give mother to most please her, to get her to lift her veil of ignorance, to give me the chance to see so called reality for what it truly is. Offering flowers is nice, I thought, but I realized that flowers are just flowers, unless we attach something of ourselves to them. I have in the past offered up my ignorance, my neediness, my desire, my fear, a nd many other things. I realized while driving that what I had to give to please her was all the things that kept me in the dark, the cloud of denial I wear and my desire to desire. She wants me to prove to her that I am unstoppable that she will have to give up her secrets and battle my mind, because my mind won't give up. I want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine.I came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove into the left most left turn lane and began the turn.Suddenly there was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I blinked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air bag as well because it was directly to my right.The right side of my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd experience. I didn't moan, my body did.Amazingly my engine was still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident coming and react to it.When I was struck I was relaxed and because of that my body was unbroken.I pulled several muscles, received some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, I would have walked away from th at crash. However because the car looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked out.I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure 128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour.My mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp post.My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma.The other driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that seat was empty.I have seen people in situations like mine react in many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment.My attitude was noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way.Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters.The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulanc e told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded.I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM.And it proved that Maa is watching over me.Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow.Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: Fr om: kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati ]Date: Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supre me Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali------------------------ Sponsor ------------------- --~-->Buy Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. 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Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 r my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment.My attitude was noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way.Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters.The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulanc e told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded.I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM.And it proved that Maa is watching over me.Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow.Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote:Fr om: kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati ]Date: Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supre me Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali------------------------ Sponsor ------------------- --~-->Buy Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. Free s/h on orders $50 or more to the US & Canada.http://www.c1tracking.com/l.asp?cid=5511http://us.click./mOAaAA/3exGAA/qnsNAA/XUWolB/TM---~-> Groups Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:<*> Your use of Groups is subject to:No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding.Introducing My Way - http://www.myway.com No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding.Introducing My Way - http://www.myway.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 Thanks steve for you kind thought. You are sweet. Kali , "bingo_ridley" <sconnor@a...> wrote: > oh kaliananda, everything will work out. i just know it. i am so glad > this ordeal is over. yes! now you are free! i love you for sharing > this. > > steve > > > , "kaliananda_saraswati" > <kaliananda_saraswati> wrote: > > It was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. > > The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work > > assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was > > planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when > a > > couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job > > and cancelled the trip. > > > > The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty- year > > work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday > or > > holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door > for > > me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, > I > > realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an > anger > > so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill- feeling. > > > > In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being > > angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what > do > > you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an > > ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked > > away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not > > receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of > > one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing > is > > in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" > > while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. > > > > Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of > is > > that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on > > that tour as promised. > > > > I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the > lesson(s) > > learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – > > Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother. > > > > Paranams > > Kali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 Greetings Brian, Would you believe it if I told you that my experience occured on Monday also? I entered work feeling on top of the world "I was in control", within 2 minutes of being there it was a totally different play. Today though the expereince seems something in the distant past. While preparing lunch today and singing along with Maa "Hari krnsa, hari krsna, krsna krsna hari hari" I found myself dancing with the spoon and to the beautiful expanse of sky seen through the window. It was a wonderful feeling, I thought "Thank You Mother". Cannot recall the last time that this happened. A load has been lifted, if I never receive those monies, it does not matter. I asked Mother to show me and remove, She has shown what has to be removed and given this beautiful time of Navaratri when all these wounderful things are happening to assist Her children who are in need. What else is there? My dear all, let's meet on Sunday in an ocean of love and praise for ten days following and make these vessels fit to house Our Beloved Supreme Divinity. JAI CAHNDI MAA KI JAI , "Brian McKee" <brian@s...> wrote: > Nice post. I have found for myself that my biggest hangup occurs when I feel like anything in my life is within my control. I haven't felt that way for a while and to prove that Maha Maya (my mother and teacher) threw me a curve ball on Monday.I was on the way to get lunch, with my mind bouncing between two thoughts every few seconds: 1. Why won't my hardware do what I want it to do and what am I going to need to change to get it to behave?and2. What offerings can I give mother to most please her, to get her to lift her veil of ignorance, to give me the chance to see so called reality for what it truly is. Offering flowers is nice, I thought, but I realized that flowers are just flowers, unless we attach something of ourselves to them. I have in the past offered up my ignorance, my neediness, my desire, my fear, and many other things. I realized while driving that what I had to give to please her was all the things that kept me in the dark, the cloud of denial I wear and my desire to desire. She wants me to prove to her that I am unstoppable that she will have to give up her secrets and battle my mind, because my mind won't give up. I want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine. I came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove into the left most left turn lane and began the turn. Suddenly there was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I blinked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air bag as well because it was directly to my right. The right side of my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd experience. I didn't moan, my body did. Amazingly my engine was still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident coming and react to it. When I was struck I was relaxed and because of that my body was unbroken. I pulled several muscles, received some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, I would have walked away from that crash. However because the car looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked out. I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure 128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour. My mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp post. My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma. The other driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that seat was empty. I have seen people in situations like mine react in many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was > noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded. I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]To: : Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 -0000Subject: Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali------------------------ Sponsor ---- -----------------~-->Buy Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. Free s/h on orders $50 or more to the US & Canada.http://www.c1tracking.com/l.asp? cid=5511http://us.click./mOAaAA/3exGAA/qnsNAA/XUWolB/TM------ ------------------------------~- > Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:- <*> Your use of is subject to: > > _____________ > No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding. > Introducing My Way - http://www.myway.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 p. I want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine. I came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove into the left most left turn lane and began the turn. Suddenly there was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I blinked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air bag as well because it was directly to my right. The right side of my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd experience. I didn't moan, my body did. Amazingly my engine was still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident coming and react to it. When I was struck I was relaxed and because of that my body was unbroken. I pulled several muscles, received some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, I would have walked away from that crash. However because the car looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked out. I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure 128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour. My mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp post. My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma. The other driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that seat was empty. I have seen people in situations like mine react in many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was > noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed an d blinded. I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote:kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]: Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali------------------------ Sponsor ---------------------~-->Buy Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. Free s/h on orders $50 or more to the US & Canada.http://www.c1tracking.com/l.asp?cid=5511http://us.click./mOAaAA/3exGAA/qnsNAA/XUWolB/TM---~->! Groups Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:<*> Your use of is subject to:> > _____________> No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding.> Introducing My Way - http://www.myway.com! Groups Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:<*> Your use of Groups is subject to:No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding.Introducing My Way - http://www.m yway.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 This was a strange week. That's for sure. The weird mood changes I underwent after the accident were the oddest part of it.As for the money, there is this little law called Karma. What goes around comes around. It is conceivable you cheated them in a past life and this even's the score. It is also conceivable you will cheat someone in the future and even the score. Either way its all just part of the play, and pointless for a little mind to contemplate.I lost a lot of money in 2000 for reasons I won't mention, but the money was nothing because in the end my life became much better. Now I have a wonderful family at Devi Mandir and heck, where ever I go. So it cost me some money to get here, that's nothing compared to the bliss of caring, sharing, and growing.Have a great weekend.Krista and I are going car shopping...Love,Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Fri 03/19, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati ]To: Date: Sat, 20 Mar 2004 02:00:04 -0000 Re: Life's LessonsGreetings Brian,Would you believe it if I told you that my experience occured on Monday also? I entered work feeling on top of the world "I was in control", within 2 minutes of being there it was a totally different play.Today though the expereince seems something in the distant past. While preparing lunch today and singing along with Maa "Hari krnsa, hari krsna, krsna krsna hari hari" I found myself dancing with the spoon and to the beautiful expanse of sky seen through the window. It was a wonderful feeling, I thought "Thank You Mother". Cannot recall the last time that this happened.A load has been lifted, if I never receive those monies, it does not matter. I asked Mother to show me and remove, She has shown what has to be removed and given this beautiful time of Navaratri when all these wounderful things are happening to assist Her children who are in need. What else is there?My dear all, let's meet on Sunday in an ocean of love and praise for ten days following and make these vessels fit to house Our Beloved Supreme Divinity.JAI CAHNDI MAA KI JAI--- In , "Brian McKee" wrote:> Nice post. I have found for myself that my biggest hangup occurs when I feel like anything in my life is within my control. I haven't felt that way for a while and to prove that Maha Maya (my mother and teacher) threw me a curve ball on Monday.I was on the way to get lunch, with my mind bouncing between two thoughts every few seconds: 1. Why won't my hardware do what I want it to do and what am I going to need to change to get it to behave?and2. What offerings can I give mother to most please her, to get her to lift her veil of ignorance, to give me the chance to see so called reality for what it truly is. Offering flowers is nice, I thought, but I realized that flowers are just flowers, unless we attach something of ourselves to them. I have in the past offered up my ignorance, my neediness, my desire, my fear, and many other things. I realized while driving that what I had to give to please her was all the things that kept me in the dark, the cloud of denial I wear and my desire to desire. She wants me to prove to her that I am unstoppable that she will have to give up her secrets and battle my mind, because my mind won't give u p. I want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine. I came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove into the left most left turn lane and began the turn. Suddenly there was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I blinked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air bag as well because it was directly to my right. The right side of my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd experience. I didn't moan, my body did. Amazingly my engine was still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident coming and react to it. When I was struck I was relaxed and because of that my body was unbroken. I pulled several muscles, received some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, I would have walked away from that crash. However because the car looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked out. I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure 128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour. My mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp post. My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma. The other driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that seat was empty. I have seen people in situations like mine react in many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was > noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed an d blinded. I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote:kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]: Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill-feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. 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Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 OM NAMA SIVAYA it is also conceivable that it has nothing at all to do with cheating someone or being cheated. it may be that the karma of the situation is to not be attached to outcomes, just act with honest, true intention. the money may or may not be returned in the future it really doesn't matter. the lesson may be that to bear insult or injury is the highest yoga. JAI MA , "Brian McKee" <brian@s...> wrote: > This was a strange week. That's for sure. The weird mood changes I underwent after the accident were the oddest part of it. As for the money, there is this little law called Karma. What goes around comes around. It is conceivable you cheated them in a past life and this even's the score. It is also conceivable you will cheat someone in the future and even the score. Either way its all just part of the play, and pointless for a little mind to contemplate.I lost a lot of money in 2000 for reasons I won't mention, but the money was nothing because in the end my life became much better. Now I have a wonderful family at Devi Mandir and heck, where ever I go. So it cost me some money to get here, that's nothing compared to the bliss of caring, sharing, and growing. Have a great weekend. Krista and I are going car shopping... Love, Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Fri 03/19, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]To: : Sat, 20 Mar 2004 02:00:04 -0000Subject: Re: Life's LessonsGreetings Brian,Would you believe it if I told you that my experience occured on Monday also? I entered work feeling on top of the world "I was in control", within 2 minutes of being there it was a totally different play.Today though the expereince seems something in the distant past. While preparing lunch today and singing along with Maa "Hari krnsa, hari krsna, krsna krsna hari hari" I found myself dancing with the spoon and to the beautiful expanse of sky seen through the window. It was a wonderful feeling, I thought "Thank You Mother". Cannot recall the last time that this happened.A load has been lifted, if I never receive those monies, it does not matter. I asked Mother to show me and remove, She has shown what has to be removed and given this beautiful time of Navaratri when all these wounderful things are happening to assist Her children who are in need. What else is there? My dear all, let's meet on Sunday in an ocean of love and praise for ten days following and make these vessels fit to house Our Beloved Supreme Divinity.JAI CAHNDI MAA KI JAI--- In , "Brian McKee" wrote:> Nice post. I have found for myself that my biggest hangup occurs when I feel like anything in my life is within my control. I haven't felt that way for a while and to prove that Maha Maya (my mother and teacher) threw me a curve ball on Monday.I was on the way to get lunch, with my mind bouncing between two thoughts every few seconds: 1. Why won't my hardware do what I want it to do and what am I going to need to change to get it to behave?and2. What offerings can I give mother to most please her, to get her to lift her veil of ignorance, to give me the chance to see so called reality for what it truly is. Offering flowers is nice, I thought, but I realized that flowers are just flowers, unless we attach something of ourselves to them. I have in the past offered up my ignorance, my neediness, my desire, my fear, and many other things. I realized while driving that what I had to give to please her was all the things that kept me in the dark, the cloud of denial I wear and my desire to desire. She wants me to prove to her that I am unstoppable that she will have to give up her secrets and battle my mind, because my mind won't give up. I want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine. I came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove into the left most left turn lane and began the turn. Suddenly there was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I b > linked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air bag as well because it was directly to my right. The right side of my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd experience. I didn't moan, my body did. Amazingly my engine was still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident coming and react to it. When I was struck I was relaxed and because of that my body was unbroken. I pulled several muscles, received some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, I would have walked away from that crash. However because the car looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked out. I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure 128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour. My mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp post. My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma. The other driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that seat was empty. I have seen people in situations like mine react in many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was > noticed by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded. I'd like to say the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote:kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]: Thu, 18 Mar 2004 10:29:20 > -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill- feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali-------------- ---------- Sponsor ---------------------~-->Buy Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. Free s/h on orders $50 or more to the US & Canada.http://www.c1tracking.com/l.asp? cid=5511http://us.click./mOAaAA/3exGAA/qnsNAA/XUWolB/TM----- -------------------------------~- > Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:- <*> Your use of Groups is subject to:> > _____________> No banners. No pop-ups. No kidding.> Introducing My Way - http://www.myway.com! Groups Links<*> To visit your group on the web, go to:/<*> To from this group, send an email to:- <*> Your use of is subject to: > > _____________ > No banners. No pop-ups. 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Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 yes look at the situation [self] deeper and deeper until it is devoid of blame. , "ecjensen_us" <ecjensen_us> wrote: > OM NAMA SIVAYA > > it is also conceivable that it has nothing at all to do with > cheating someone or being cheated. it may be that the karma of the > situation is to not be attached to outcomes, just act with honest, > true intention. the money may or may not be returned in the future > it really doesn't matter. the lesson may be that to bear insult or > injury is the highest yoga. > > JAI MA > > , "Brian McKee" <brian@s...> wrote: > > This was a strange week. That's for sure. The weird mood changes > I underwent after the accident were the oddest part of it. As for > the money, there is this little law called Karma. What goes around > comes around. It is conceivable you cheated them in a past life and > this even's the score. It is also conceivable you will cheat someone > in the future and even the score. Either way its all just part of > the play, and pointless for a little mind to contemplate.I lost a > lot of money in 2000 for reasons I won't mention, but the money was > nothing because in the end my life became much better. Now I have a > wonderful family at Devi Mandir and heck, where ever I go. So it > cost me some money to get here, that's nothing compared to the bliss > of caring, sharing, and growing. Have a great weekend. Krista and I > are going car shopping... Love, Brian"In the begining, the universe > was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been > widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers > Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Fri 03/19, > kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: > kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]To: > : Sat, 20 Mar 2004 02:00:04 -0000Subject: > Re: Life's LessonsGreetings Brian,Would you believe it > if I told you that my experience occured on Monday also? I entered > work feeling on top of the world "I was in control", within 2 > minutes of being there it was a totally different play.Today though > the expereince seems something in the distant past. While preparing > lunch today and singing along with Maa "Hari krnsa, hari krsna, > krsna krsna hari hari" I found myself dancing with the spoon and to > the beautiful expanse of sky seen through the window. It was a > wonderful feeling, I thought "Thank You Mother". Cannot recall the > last time that this happened.A load has been lifted, if I never > receive those monies, it does not matter. I asked Mother to show me > and remove, She has shown what has to be removed and given this > beautiful time of Navaratri when all these wounderful things are > happening to assist Her children who are in need. What else is there? > My dear all, let's meet on Sunday in an ocean of love and praise for > ten days following and make these vessels fit to house Our Beloved > Supreme Divinity.JAI CAHNDI MAA KI JAI--- In > , "Brian McKee" wrote:> Nice post. I > have found for myself that my biggest hangup occurs when I feel like > anything in my life is within my control. I haven't felt that way > for a while and to prove that Maha Maya (my mother and teacher) > threw me a curve ball on Monday.I was on the way to get lunch, with > my mind bouncing between two thoughts every few seconds: 1. Why > won't my hardware do what I want it to do and what am I going to > need to change to get it to behave?and2. What offerings can I give > mother to most please her, to get her to lift her veil of ignorance, > to give me the chance to see so called reality for what it truly is. > Offering flowers is nice, I thought, but I realized that flowers are > just flowers, unless we attach something of ourselves to them. I > have in the past offered up my ignorance, my neediness, my desire, > my fear, and many other things. I realized while driving that what I > had to give to please her was all the things that kept me in the > dark, the cloud of denial I wear and my desire to desire. She wants > me to prove to her that I am unstoppable that she will have to give > up her secrets and battle my mind, because my mind won't give up. I > want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine. I > came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my > journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights > were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew > automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove > into the left most left turn lane and began the turn. Suddenly there > was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant > and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I b > > linked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the > passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had > been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air > bag as well because it was directly to my right. The right side of > my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This > did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd > experience. I didn't moan, my body did. Amazingly my engine was > still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I > almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally > out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. > So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to > teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident > coming and react to it. When I was struck I was relaxed and because > of that my body was unbroken. I pulled several muscles, received > some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and > crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, > I would have walked away from that crash. However because the car > looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked > out. I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure > 128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I > said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour. My > mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently > contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and > listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency > room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp > post. My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an > experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma. The other > driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. > It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting > inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a > passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that > seat was empty. I have seen people in situations like mine react in > many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with > uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what > mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love > her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness > she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was > noticed > by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my > coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, > unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is > another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason > to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I > was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As > Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your > life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line > by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my > clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their > presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they > pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be > blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of > consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded. I'd like to say > the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I > learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some > great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I > AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the > Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. > Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot > of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- > Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.- -- > On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < > kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: kaliananda_saraswati > [ kaliananda_saraswati]: Thu, 18 Mar > 2004 10:29:20 > > -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when > Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at > a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was > I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at > least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, > a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last > 3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work > history – tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or > holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for > me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I > realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an > anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill- > feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from > being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, > what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it > was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I > walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will > not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of > one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing > is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" > while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to > share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow > turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I > offer the experience, the energies – good and bad, the lesson(s) > learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother – Everything is > Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali------------ -- > ---------- Sponsor ---------------------~-- >Buy > Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or > LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. Free s/h on orders $50 or more to the > US & Canada.http://www.c1tracking.com/l.asp? > cid=5511http://us.click./mOAaAA/3exGAA/qnsNAA/XUWolB/TM--- -- > -------------------------------~- > > Links<*> To visit your group on > the web, go > to:/<*> To > from this group, send an email to:- > <*> Your use of > Groups is subject to:> > > _____________> No banners. No > pop-ups. No kidding.> Introducing My Way - > http://www.myway.com! Groups Links<*> To visit your group > on the web, go > to:/<*> To > from this group, send an email to:- > <*> Your use of is > subject to: > > > > _____________ > > No banners. No pop-ups. 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Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Yep. It could be unrelated to anything. My point was that the mind cannot know such things. At 07:03 AM 3/20/2004, you wrote: >OM NAMA SIVAYA > >it is also conceivable that it has nothing at all to do with >cheating someone or being cheated. it may be that the karma of the >situation is to not be attached to outcomes, just act with honest, >true intention. the money may or may not be returned in the future >it really doesn't matter. the lesson may be that to bear insult or >injury is the highest yoga. > >JAI MA > >, "Brian McKee" <brian@s...> wrote: > > This was a strange week. That's for sure. The weird mood changes >I underwent after the accident were the oddest part of it. As for >the money, there is this little law called Karma. What goes around >comes around. It is conceivable you cheated them in a past life and >this even's the score. It is also conceivable you will cheat someone >in the future and even the score. Either way its all just part of >the play, and pointless for a little mind to contemplate.I lost a >lot of money in 2000 for reasons I won't mention, but the money was >nothing because in the end my life became much better. Now I have a >wonderful family at Devi Mandir and heck, where ever I go. So it >cost me some money to get here, that's nothing compared to the bliss >of caring, sharing, and growing. Have a great weekend. Krista and I >are going car shopping... Love, Brian"In the begining, the universe >was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been >widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers >Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- On Fri 03/19, >kaliananda_saraswati < kaliananda_saraswati > wrote: >kaliananda_saraswati [ kaliananda_saraswati]To: >: Sat, 20 Mar 2004 02:00:04 -0000Subject: > Re: Life's LessonsGreetings Brian,Would you believe it >if I told you that my experience occured on Monday also? I entered >work feeling on top of the world "I was in control", within 2 >minutes of being there it was a totally different play.Today though >the expereince seems something in the distant past. While preparing >lunch today and singing along with Maa "Hari krnsa, hari krsna, >krsna krsna hari hari" I found myself dancing with the spoon and to >the beautiful expanse of sky seen through the window. It was a >wonderful feeling, I thought "Thank You Mother". Cannot recall the >last time that this happened.A load has been lifted, if I never >receive those monies, it does not matter. I asked Mother to show me >and remove, She has shown what has to be removed and given this >beautiful time of Navaratri when all these wounderful things are >happening to assist Her children who are in need. What else is there? >My dear all, let's meet on Sunday in an ocean of love and praise for >ten days following and make these vessels fit to house Our Beloved >Supreme Divinity.JAI CAHNDI MAA KI JAI--- In >, "Brian McKee" wrote:> Nice post. I >have found for myself that my biggest hangup occurs when I feel like >anything in my life is within my control. I haven't felt that way >for a while and to prove that Maha Maya (my mother and teacher) >threw me a curve ball on Monday.I was on the way to get lunch, with >my mind bouncing between two thoughts every few seconds: 1. Why >won't my hardware do what I want it to do and what am I going to >need to change to get it to behave?and2. What offerings can I give >mother to most please her, to get her to lift her veil of ignorance, >to give me the chance to see so called reality for what it truly is. >Offering flowers is nice, I thought, but I realized that flowers are >just flowers, unless we attach something of ourselves to them. I >have in the past offered up my ignorance, my neediness, my desire, >my fear, and many other things. I realized while driving that what I >had to give to please her was all the things that kept me in the >dark, the cloud of denial I wear and my desire to desire. She wants >me to prove to her that I am unstoppable that she will have to give >up her secrets and battle my mind, because my mind won't give up. I >want her. I desire only her. I will not stop until she is mine. I >came up to a relatively new intersection on a new street on my >journey to Togos to get my #22, my normal Monday Lunch. The lights >were all green and there were pedestrians crossing, I knew >automatically that I had all the time in the world so I just drove >into the left most left turn lane and began the turn. Suddenly there >was a blue something in my right peripheral vision for an instant >and then a loud crash, loss of vision for an instant (I b > > linked I think) and then when I looked around I saw that the >passenger side of my car was full of metal and dash board. I had >been protected not only by my air bag, but also by the passenger air >bag as well because it was directly to my right. The right side of >my body ached terribly. I moaned a few times due to the pain. This >did not feel like me, it felt like my body. That's an odd >experience. I didn't moan, my body did. Amazingly my engine was >still running. It was making this horrible grinding noise and I >almost laughed outloud as I switched off the key to put it finally >out of its misery. It was a good car and it saved my life that day. >So did Maha Maya. She wants this student to continue to learn and to >teach and so timed it so I wouldn't hit head on or see the accident >coming and react to it. When I was struck I was relaxed and because >of that my body was unbroken. I pulled several muscles, received >some burns from the airbags, cuts and scrapes from flying glass and >crushed plastic, but if it hadn't been for the condition of my car, >I would have walked away from that crash. However because the car >looked so bad, they rushed me to the hospital to have me checked >out. I was fine. My heart rate a cool 99 and my blood pressure >128/68. They asked me, "is your heart rate and BP usually so low?" I >said yes and once declared healthy I was ignored for an hour. My >mind continued to be itself during this time. Confidently >contemplating the heart rate monitor and the breathing monitor and >listening in as they checked out the next man to enter the emergency >room who may have fallen asleep at the wheel and driven over a lamp >post. My mind was unchanged, I was unchanged. What happened was an >experience and nothing more. A dishing out of some karma. The other >driver, ironically an Indian Taxi Cab driver, had run a red light. >It turns out it wasn't a head on collision as I thought from sitting >inside my car, he had T-Boned me at an angle. If there had been a >passenger, there would likely be a passenger no more. I'm glad that >seat was empty. I have seen people in situations like mine react in >many different ways. Some cry, some fear, some react with >uncontrolled anger. I did not react. And that is, I think what >mother wanted to see. I gave her my reactions, I showed her I love >her so much as to not react to the ultimate test of consciousness >she was giving me at that very moment. My attitude was > noticed >by those in the ambulance and in the emergency room, and by my >coworkers the next day. I showed people that reaction is unnecssary, >unfruitful, and sometimes damaging and I showed them there is >another way. Mother protected me and I knew it, there was no reason >to be upset. No matter the outcome, no matter what happened to me I >was either going to live of die, there is no reason to be upset. As >Eckhart Tolle says, why be upset over your life situation? When your >life is really what matters. The fire men cut my insulin pump line >by accident and my rudraksha from my neck on purpose to remove my >clothes to look for bodilly injury. I was mostly naked in their >presence and as the EMT from the Ambulance told me her name and they >pulled me into the sun light I had to close my eyes to not be >blinded. I wonder if that isn't how the ego feels in the presence of >consciousness. Naked, alone, exposed and blinded. I'd like to say >the experience was humbling, but it wasn't. I'd like to say I >learned something, but I didn't. I'd like to say that it caused some >great revelation, but it didn't. The only thing it confirmed is: I >AM. And it proved that Maa is watching over me. Praise be to the >Mother, the creator of darkness and the illuminator of shadow. >Brian"In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot >of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- >Douglas Adams, The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program.--- > On Thu 03/18, kaliananda_saraswati < >kaliananda_saraswati > wrote:kaliananda_saraswati >[ kaliananda_saraswati]: Thu, 18 Mar >2004 10:29:20 > > -0000 Life's LessonsIt was in 2001 when >Beloved Gurujis invited me to tour with them. The invitation came at >a time when I had just completed a work assignment, ---- elated was >I, to say the least. Everything was planned for me to tour for at >least one month with the family, when a couple weeks before leaving, >a job offer was made. I took the job and cancelled the trip.The last >3 years in that job were the most trying of my thirty-year work >history tears, frustration, lack of benefits, no holiday or >holiday pay. Divine Mother saw the pain and opened another door for >me so that I was able to resign recently. Two days before leaving, I >realized that my pay was short, this seemed the final straw, an >anger so passionate was felt that the body ended up weak and ill- >feeling. In five minutes of words, action and decision, I went from >being angry to a state of reflection, I remembered Swamiji's words, >what do you hope to achieve with this anger? I sat at my desk, it >was an ugly feeling, one which I pray never to experience again, I >walked away from that job leaving over $10,000 behind which I will >not receive unless by tribunal. The thought of being cheated out of >one's earnings is not a good one, it pains, but thankfully healing >is in process through absorption in Maa's - "Oh Dark Night Mother" >while feasting on Her and Swamiji's form. Not sure why I wanted to >share this experience, what I am sure of is that if I could somehow >turn the clock back to 2001 I would be on that tour as promised. I >offer the experience, the energies good and bad, the lesson(s) >learned/to be learnt at the Beloved Feet of Mother Everything is >Your Desire, Supreme Desire Oh Dear Mother.ParanamsKali-------------- >---------- Sponsor ---------------------~-->Buy >Ink Cartridges or Refill Kits for your HP, Epson, Canon or >LexmarkPrinter at MyInks.com. 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Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 "...it is also conceivable that it has nothing at all to do with cheating someone or being cheated. it may be that the karma of the situation is to not be attached to outcomes, just act with honest, true intention. the money may or may not be returned in the future it really doesn't matter. the lesson may be that to bear insult or injury is the highest yoga...." thanks for this post. I really agree that the issue is never the outcome. There is no need to "oppose" in order to do what you feel is right. When you are acting from that place of inner knowing, there is really no opposition. Your sense of what is dharmic or true informs you of the "correct" action to take in the circumstance and it's more about you, doing what you understand as true...being truthful and also, acting truthfully in the situation. Thanks to everyone who contributed to this discussion. It was very interesting to me. Looking forward to seeing everyone in Durga Loka for the next 9 days...Jai Ma! Jaya Devi! best, sadhvi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 22, 2004 Report Share Posted March 22, 2004 Lovely post. 1) At times like these accident) ... the mind vanishes. Remember, the mind is comfortable with the known. Nthe mind is never with the unknown. 2) That's why bunjee jumping and such extreme sports are such a thrill... no mind. 3) Which car did you buy ? Finance Tax Center - File online. File on time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2004 Report Share Posted April 8, 2004 Dear Brian, You question is why one does not turn his feet towards the altar... I have heard ... once there was an atheist ... and he was brilliant... he would out argue anybody and everybody . Once a sadhu came to his village and sat under a tree. The atheist went over to his and started a conversation. The sadhu answered softly but firmly that he did not have the answers to the atheists questions but then gave him the address of such a person who could answer all his questions. The atheist hurried towards the other village to find the person. As he approached the village, he was amazed to see the person sleeping under a tree with his feet on the Shiv altar ! He gasped and shook the sadhu awake and said 'i have many questions but two questions have surfaced in my mind right now and both the questions are fresh' First - why are you still asleep ? It is almost 10 O'Clock in the morning, are you not supposed to be up and about at 'Brahamamahurat' and second - why do you have your feet Shiva's altar ? Even i am an atheist but i too would not put my feet on any altar !' The sad answered and said that ' i have realized that every and any moment i awake is Brahma mahurat'. Which moment is there when God is not ?' Second - He has given me feet, therefore i have to rest them somewhere ! Do you think this earth is not an altar... and if this earth is an altar then where should i put my feet ? And last - what about 'this' living Shiva - you are concerned about the Shiva Ling - a dead piece of stone .... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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