Don't want to associate with others anymore

krsna · March 2, 2004

I find it so painful to associate with other people

devotee and non-devotee alike.

It's just that I don't want to keep up appearances anymore.

I amm suffering in this material world

and I want to get out of the mess I'm in

so I don't want to waste time

I simply want to fix my mind on Guru and Krishna and leave my body in trance.

I've had enough of

-How do you do?-type of questions and asociation

When the end of this body is staring me in the face every morning...

krsna · March 2, 2004

That's the feeling

To

just shut myself up

with

no more dealing with the nasty world

of duplicity,falseness and hypocrisy.

I want to go to Krishna

His ,the Lord's association

via the pure devotee's medium.

Nothing small or mean

but true and simple

That soothing balm on the heart

that association which edifies,enlightens

and with grace and compassion

bring me to want to

offer myself completely

at the Lotus feet of Sri Guru and Sri Gouranga.

krsnadas

Govindaram · March 2, 2004

Letter to: Hamsaduta

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Tittenhurst

28 September, 1969 (excerpt)

Srila Prabhupada:

In the neophyte stage the position is that the neophyte devotee worships the Deity in the temple with great awe and reverence, but he cannot discriminate who is devotee, who is non-devotee and who is neophyte.

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HarI says it all really doesn't it, I keep thinking of Krishna as my Friend, when I should be in awe and reverence 'stage'.

gHari · March 3, 2004

I too go through those 'latrine' phases as I call them.

Then you end up blowing the fast by singing Krsna's names at the top of your lungs when you least expect it.

I wouldn't get too upset about these moods. People can be a real pain in the persistency at times. And that includes even our fellow Fellowshippers; but then when the dust has settled, what would we do without them?

Dervish · March 3, 2004

I don't think there is any problem with picking your association carefully, as long as you pay respect to all Vaishnavas you encounter. It may be more lonely that way, but what to do? The material world is quite awful, not for a gentleman as Bhaktisiddhanta says.