As for your desire to follow the path of the gopis

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(5) Bhava-pratikula

Mental assignment of different parts of the body to various deities

( nyasa), particular positions of intertwining the fingers ( mudra),

meditation on KRSNa’s pastimes in Dvaraka and other such aNgas

should be abandoned in raganuga-bhakti because they are opposed

to the attainment of one’s desired bhava ( bhava-pratikula).

Thus according to one’s eligibility ,

one is obligated to perform the limbs of bhakti prescribed in the scriptures

and to reject those which are forbidden.