Guest guest Report post Posted May 5, 2010 dear chrism and all. I just watched Chrism's video about animals and loved it... I have had a visit from a bear recently and I see this image in many things now, even in the crystal I brought home from Brazil. I can't kill bugs any more and if one must be removed from my living space I pick it up and put it somewhere else... before K I would have stepped on all these little creatures with out a second thought... I am so glad that has changed and I now because of K, I love and appreciate all the little folks too... and I see how beautiful they truely are. On a recent blue sky day I watched a fisherman pull the beautiful flashing silver body of a fish from sun dancing waters and then bash it to death before putting it in his brown canvas " catch of the day " bag. My body reacted with shock and such grief as i witnessed this violence. It honestly felt to me like I had witnessed a murder.... then with the tears I felt anger rise towards the person who had done this. It was such a shattering experience. Later on I felt a wave of some emotion like helplessness ..... there was nothing I could do , nothing.... People who kill animals for sport especially if they do eat them afterwards really believe they have the right to do that. I am having such a hard time being ok with ....the eating of an animal justifies the killing of that animal. I thought being a vegetarian for 5 years and a vegan for 6 months I had reconcilled my feelings about this when I took action on behalf of myself ... but without knowing it on a conscious level I obviously need to work on how I am feeling and how I am about the choices others make regarding the killing of animals. I seem to be meshed back into strong emotions about this. I have been fairly blind recently about lessons I am being given and I am feeling quite confused about sadness within. I know I am going through a process and it is really painful.... I have moved out from clam waters to rapids and that is for sure. I am grateful for the safeties because they assist me in my moving through this sadness even if I am confused and unsure of what it is all about. love julia Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites