Another healing? type dream

[Guest guest]

I was the observer again. I dream the same dream three times or a continuing of

the same dream... kept waking up and trying to remember what was taking place. I

could not put it into words in my mind each time. I still cannot for the most

part. I think I may have been having some re-wiring done or some such. LOL! It

was something about making connections. I understood it as I was dreaming, but

when I woke up it is too hard to put into words.

 

Doing the Trataka meditation last night, left me in tears, but I don't know why.

 

Last night, I was in a lot of pain, not just from the fire ants stinging me,

there was a very sharp strong pain in my left side about 3rd chakra level. All

the pain there is gone today, so maybe that was what was healed. When I was

having the pain last night for many hours I was wondering if I was empathing

that from my daughter. She has been having bad pain there for about a month or

so. Maybe she was the one having the re-wiring surgery like healing done and I

was observing her having this done. I didn't have a lot of clarity in the

dream...was not totally lucid.

 

Linda

[Guest guest]

It was something about making connections. I understood it as I was dreaming,

but

when I woke up it is too hard to put into words.

Linda

 

I have to tell you something, because you said this and it reminds me of a dream

I had when I was 18. The way I explained it and still to this day explain

it...Was like all the puzzle pieces in this life fit together and it was so

simple, yet so hard to grasp. As soon as I woke up, I too couldn't grasp it and

lost the " connection " . Let me know if that resignates with you? At the time I

was involved in a church and felt I was getting close to God. So I thought

about that dream all the time and wondered if that was a glimpse of heaven, so

we must feel that when we die.

 

Now that I'm older...10 yrs older, I realize that the " glimpse " is real and we

don't have to die to get it. I believe it is the full Kundalini awakening and I

had yet another glimpse of it while in India. Didn't know what it was at the

time, so yeah I freaked out and thought I was going to die or already was dead.

Long story short...I believe you are getting there and in due time, soon you

will arrive!

I send many blessings your way Linda, you are truly amazing!

 

Laura

 

, " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> I was the observer again. I dream the same dream three times or a continuing

of the same dream... kept waking up and trying to remember what was taking

place. I could not put it into words in my mind each time. I still cannot for

the most part. I think I may have been having some re-wiring done or some such.

LOL! It was something about making connections. I understood it as I was

dreaming, but when I woke up it is too hard to put into words.

>

> Doing the Trataka meditation last night, left me in tears, but I don't know

why.

>

> Last night, I was in a lot of pain, not just from the fire ants stinging me,

there was a very sharp strong pain in my left side about 3rd chakra level. All

the pain there is gone today, so maybe that was what was healed. When I was

having the pain last night for many hours I was wondering if I was empathing

that from my daughter. She has been having bad pain there for about a month or

so. Maybe she was the one having the re-wiring surgery like healing done and I

was observing her having this done. I didn't have a lot of clarity in the

dream...was not totally lucid.

>

> Linda

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Laura, your experience sounds amazing. I think my dream was more about a

healing taking place, rather it was me or my daughter recieving healing, I don't

know for sure. This empath thing is hard to understand. Many times in the past I

have expeienced pain when one of my family members are having a health problem.

Usually I am given directions to pray when this is going on.

 

There has been the reverse of this to happen as well. The day before my appendix

rutured in 2005, by grandson experienced my pain. We thought he may be needing

his appendix removed and I prayed for him and his symptoms all stopped all of a

sudden and I then begain experiencing the pain. I had to go the next day and

have my appendix removed.

 

The reason I don't know if it was my daughter or me is that I have been

experiencing this pain in my left side off and on for over a year, but not as

bad as last night. I really think it was about a healing... and thinking about

it more, I think I was like mircroscopic and viewing inside the body and doing

this or observing it being done.

 

Linda

 

 

, " Laura " <lo1o113

wrote:

 

> I have to tell you something, because you said this and it reminds me of a

dream I had when I was 18. The way I explained it and still to this day explain

it...Was like all the puzzle pieces in this life fit together and it was so

simple, yet so hard to grasp. As soon as I woke up, I too couldn't grasp it and

lost the " connection " .

> Laura

[Guest guest]

I think I was like mircroscopic and viewing inside the body and doing

this or observing it being done.

 

Linda

 

 

Linda, wow! That is really cool how your family is so connected in that way! I

have to say, I'm not so sure I've experienced something like that, that I could

know for sure that's what I was feeling. Sorry about the misunderstanding, I

think I need to take a step back. It's really hard to do this with two small

children.

 

I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

 

Laura

 

, " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> Hi Laura, your experience sounds amazing. I think my dream was more about a

healing taking place, rather it was me or my daughter recieving healing, I don't

know for sure. This empath thing is hard to understand. Many times in the past I

have expeienced pain when one of my family members are having a health problem.

Usually I am given directions to pray when this is going on.

>

> There has been the reverse of this to happen as well. The day before my

appendix rutured in 2005, by grandson experienced my pain. We thought he may be

needing his appendix removed and I prayed for him and his symptoms all stopped

all of a sudden and I then begain experiencing the pain. I had to go the next

day and have my appendix removed.

>

> The reason I don't know if it was my daughter or me is that I have been

experiencing this pain in my left side off and on for over a year, but not as

bad as last night. I really think it was about a healing... and thinking about

it more, I think I was like mircroscopic and viewing inside the body and doing

this or observing it being done.

>

> Linda

>

>

> , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

>

> > I have to tell you something, because you said this and it reminds me of a

dream I had when I was 18. The way I explained it and still to this day explain

it...Was like all the puzzle pieces in this life fit together and it was so

simple, yet so hard to grasp. As soon as I woke up, I too couldn't grasp it and

lost the " connection " .

> > Laura

>

[Guest guest]

My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing was

found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature of

the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

 

Linda

 

, " Laura " <lo1o113

wrote:

 

I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

>

> Laura

[Guest guest]

I'm sorry she is experiencing pain, I will continue to pray for her. I have a

curvature of the spine as well. Thank God no pain...yet ((crossing fingers))

 

Laura

 

, " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing was

found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature of

the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

>

> Linda

>

> , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

>

> I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> > I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

> >

> > Laura

>

[Guest guest]

I can relate to that kind of pain...it is coming from the Coccyx bone located at

the bottom of the tailbone. As for the curvature of the spine...almost everyone

has a slight curve but does not interfere with with our daily activities unless

we bruise it in some way. I can remember the Doctors saying I would have to be

in a body cast to correct the curve but since money/insurance was an issue it

was dismissed. But...I was not allowed to participate in GYM exercises or sports

ever. I was also born with brittle bone syndrome...just to look at me would

break a bone somewhere. I was always in some kind of cast. Not so much these

days. The last and hopefully the very last was when I had double hip

replacements done back in 2000. If we count toes then I have to say I broke a

toe on my right foot. The 2nd one next to the little pinky toe. It was clearly

my fault as I did not turn on a light and I hit the corner of my dresser on my

way to bed. I learned quickly

to leave a lamp on just in case.

 

 

 

 

 

________________________________

danceswithcats999 <crazycats711

 

Tue, March 9, 2010 7:02:10 PM

Re: Another healing? type dream

 

 

My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing was

found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature of

the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

 

Linda

 

Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " Laura " <lo1o113 >

wrote:

 

I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

>

> Laura

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Denny

 

 

 

My daughter has brittle bone disease like you. She is pretty severe, but is

doing well, now 18 and graduating high school. She lives with chronic pain but

most people  would never know because she rarely lets it show. I'm glad to hear

you are doing well and not breaking as much anymore. Except for that toe!

 

 

 

Its wonderful to know another O.I.er! It really is a small world.

 

 

 

Love & Blessings

 

Mary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

-

" Denny " <dennynorton

 

Tuesday, March 9, 2010 8:03:07 PM GMT -06:00 US/Canada Central

Re: Another healing? type dream

 

 

 

 

 

 

I can relate to that kind of pain...it is coming from the Coccyx bone located at

the bottom of the tailbone. As for the curvature of the spine...almost everyone

has a slight curve but does not interfere with with our daily activities unless

we bruise it in some way. I can remember the Doctors saying I would have to be

in a body cast to correct the curve but since money/insurance was an issue it

was dismissed. But...I was not allowed to participate in GYM exercises or sports

ever. I was also born with brittle bone syndrome...just to look at me would

break a bone somewhere. I was always in some kind of cast. Not so much these

days. The last and hopefully the very last was when I had double hip

replacements done back in 2000. If we count toes then I have to say I broke a

toe on my right foot. The 2nd one next to the little pinky toe. It was clearly

my fault as I did not turn on a light and I hit the corner of my dresser on my

way to bed. I learned quickly

to leave a lamp on just in case.

[Guest guest]

Wow Denny,

You have been through alot...

Dr's aren't always the experts, but they do help.

My parents later told me that when they found me the dr's said I only have hours

to live, I was about 2mos old. My parents being faithful as they were, I'm sure

they prayed. Here I am! And here you are Denny! Nice to meet you!

 

God Bless,

 

Laura

 

, Denny <dennynorton

wrote:

>

> I can relate to that kind of pain...it is coming from the Coccyx bone located

at the bottom of the tailbone. As for the curvature of the spine...almost

everyone has a slight curve but does not interfere with with our daily

activities unless we bruise it in some way. I can remember the Doctors saying I

would have to be in a body cast to correct the curve but since money/insurance

was an issue it was dismissed. But...I was not allowed to participate in GYM

exercises or sports ever. I was also born with brittle bone syndrome...just to

look at me would break a bone somewhere. I was always in some kind of cast. Not

so much these days. The last and hopefully the very last was when I had double

hip replacements done back in 2000. If we count toes then I have to say I broke

a toe on my right foot. The 2nd one next to the little pinky toe. It was clearly

my fault as I did not turn on a light and I hit the corner of my dresser on my

way to bed. I learned quickly

> to leave a lamp on just in case.

>

>

>

>

>

> ________________________________

> danceswithcats999 <crazycats711

>

> Tue, March 9, 2010 7:02:10 PM

> Re: Another healing? type dream

>

>

> My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing was

found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature of

the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

>

> Linda

>

> Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " Laura " <lo1o113@ >

wrote:

>

> I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> > I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

> >

> > Laura

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Nice to meet and write to you Laura.

 

I try NOT to acknowledge the not so good stuff that I've been through but it

does creep in once in awhile. I feel that what I have been through is something

that was predestined and lessons I had to learn for realization as well as

awakening to kundalini. For one great thing...it made me face the anger that I

held inside about my own limitations and imperfections. I do not wish ill health

on anyone.

I only hope that person does not have to suffer in agony. I also hope that they

can find the courage ans strength to move above and beyond their self thought

limitations into a much smoother mobile capacity without or as little pain as

possible.

 

Denny

[Guest guest]

Thank you Mary. I do hope that your daughter has an easier brittle bone

experience or for that matter " cured " . Having to take in consideration of all

the possible dangers and avoid them. Much blessing and love to you both as well

as being cautious and safe.

 

Denny

 

 

 

 

 

My daughter has brittle bone disease like you. She is pretty severe, but is

doing well, now 18 and graduating high school. She lives with chronic pain but

most people  would never know because she rarely lets it show. I'm glad to hear

you are doing well and not breaking as much anymore. Except for that toe!

 

 

 

Its wonderful to know another O.I.er! It really is a small world.

 

 

 

Love & Blessings

 

Mary

[Guest guest]

Re: Laura:

 

My parents later told me that when they found me the dr's said I only have hours

to live, I was about 2mos old. My parents being faithful as they were, I'm sure

they prayed. Here I am!

 

 

Laura - your parents found you when you were 2 months old? Wow - sounds

like an amazing story. I sure am glad you are here!

 

Love,

GCDeb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you Denny

 

 

 

You are one of the " brave and noble " souls I spoke of in earlier posts. The

impact of meeting you here is kind of cosmic for me as I was just asked to head

the support group for O.I. families for my state. I was thinking about my

answer. If I had the energy, time  and resources to handle the responibilities.

We both know the rarity of  O.I., is   the Goddess  showing me something

here?

 

 

 

Love Mary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

-

" Denny " <dennynorton

 

Wednesday, March 10, 2010 8:39:50 AM GMT -06:00 US/Canada Central

Re: Another healing? type dream

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you Mary. I do hope that your daughter has an easier brittle bone

experience or for that matter " cured " . Having to take in consideration of all

the possible dangers and avoid them. Much blessing and love to you both as well

as being cautious and safe.

 

Denny

 

My daughter has brittle bone disease like you. She is pretty severe, but is

doing well, now 18 and graduating high school. She lives with chronic pain but

most people  would never know because she rarely lets it show. I'm glad to

hear you are doing well and not breaking as much anymore. Except for that toe!

 

Its wonderful to know another O.I.er! It really is a small world.

 

 

 

Love & Blessings

 

Mary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Denny,

You are so right, what a blessed person you are! I'm honored to meet you on

here. May God continue to bless you,

 

Laura

 

, " Denny " <dennynorton

wrote:

>

> Nice to meet and write to you Laura.

>

> I try NOT to acknowledge the not so good stuff that I've been through but it

does creep in once in awhile. I feel that what I have been through is something

that was predestined and lessons I had to learn for realization as well as

awakening to kundalini. For one great thing...it made me face the anger that I

held inside about my own limitations and imperfections. I do not wish ill health

on anyone.

> I only hope that person does not have to suffer in agony. I also hope that

they can find the courage ans strength to move above and beyond their self

thought limitations into a much smoother mobile capacity without or as little

pain as possible.

>

> Denny

>

[Guest guest]

RE: Deb:

Laura - your parents found you when you were 2 months old? Wow - sounds like an

amazing story. I sure am glad you are here!

>

> Love,

> GCDeb

 

 

 

I guess I should clarify a bit..I'll try not to talk about myself too much here.

My real parents were into drugs, left a neighbor to watch us, the neighbor lady

called cps and they came and took my sister and I to the hospital. My sister

had a hard time keeping food down, would always throw up, I on the other hand

was starved almost to death. My parents that " found " me and my sister were

actually my grandparents, dad's parents. I'm sure they met up with us at the

hospital and later on adopted us...so my grandparents are my parents when I

speak of my parents. I'm in contact with my real dad and real mom, I am in a

good relationship with them as of now, I have forgiven them and moved

on...perhaps I could forgive my mother out loud...maybe she needs to hear that?

Thanks for listening Deb!

 

Love to you, friend,

Laura

[Guest guest]

Healing sent to Laura.

Love & Light

Pamela

 

, " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711 wrote:

>

> My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing was

found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature of

the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

>

> Linda

>

> , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

>

> I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> > I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

> >

> > Laura

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Linda,

 

I also have curvature of the spine. In my case its hereditary and many people of

Afro Caribbean heritage have it. Luckily I have never had much pain with it. I

hope your daughter feels better soon. If I do have pain I find the 'Cat' pose in

Yoga gives much relief, and I can stay in the pose for up to 20mins.

 

Iona x

 

, " Laura " <lo1o113

wrote:

>

> I'm sorry she is experiencing pain, I will continue to pray for her. I have a

curvature of the spine as well. Thank God no pain...yet ((crossing fingers))

>

> Laura

>

> , " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711@> wrote:

> >

> > My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing was

found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature of

the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

> >

> > Linda

> >

> > , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

> >

> > I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> > > I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

> > >

> > > Laura

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks Iona, I don't think her pain is coming from her curvature, since it is in

her upper back and is not all that bad of one. Her pain is from about the 3rd

chakra level. The problem is she is worrying that she may have cancer in her

left kidney because that is where her grandmother's cancer began. That partly

may be my fault because I have been on her case for a long time about drinking

so much diet sodas everyday and that the aspertame in it, can cause cancer. She

has stopped the diet soda drinking. The doctor did not find anything wrong

with her kidney. One doctor wanted to take her overies out just in case it may

be something going wrong there. LOL! Of, course she is not going to do that,

without knowing for sure something is wrong there.

 

Because of all of her symptoms, I am wondering if her kundalini is not being

activated and suggested that to her, but I don't think she paid that any mind.

I did give her the Tibetans to do, but don't know if she paid any attention

to that either. She needs to pay more attention to what her mom tells her! LOL!

 

Linda

 

, " ionaskydancer "

<ionaskydancer wrote:

>

> Hi Linda,

>

> I also have curvature of the spine. In my case its hereditary and many people

of Afro Caribbean heritage have it. Luckily I have never had much pain with it.

I hope your daughter feels better soon. If I do have pain I find the 'Cat' pose

in Yoga gives much relief, and I can stay in the pose for up to 20mins.

>

> Iona x

>

> , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

> >

> > I'm sorry she is experiencing pain, I will continue to pray for her. I have

a curvature of the spine as well. Thank God no pain...yet ((crossing fingers))

> >

> > Laura

> >

> > , " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711@> wrote:

> > >

> > > My daughter has had all kinds of test ran this last month or so. Nothing

was found wrong with her except the chiropactor said she had a little curvature

of the spine and there is a genetic defect with the little trianglar bone at the

end. I forget what that's call... the bone where the kunalini is. Anyways, she

has a hole in the tip but the doctor said that should not be causing any

problems. But she is still experiencing pain,though. Thanks for the prayer for

my daughter, Laura.

> > >

> > > Linda

> > >

> > > , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

> > >

> > > I hope you can find out for sure what's going on...sooner than later!

> > > > I pray your daughter recieves healing!!

> > > >

> > > > Laura

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Hey there Mary,

Hmmm...this could very well be your sign and answer. You don't have anything to

lose but so much more to gain. It is worth a shot. What is your very first

thought without putting too much thought into it. If health will allow you to do

this deed to help another?

 

Now that would be pure BLISS.

 

Namaste'

Denny

 

 

 

We both know the rarity of  O.I., is the Goddess  showing me something here?

 

Love Mary

[Guest guest]

Re: Laura:

 

 

" I guess I should clarify a bit..I'll try not to talk about myself too much

here. "

 

 

 

Hey Laura - thanks so much for sharing your story. I don't know yet how

to be human and not relate things to my own experiences!

 

It sounds like your parents/grandparents are wonderful people!

 

I think that addiction is one of the greatest, if not the greatest

challenge of humans in this world. I have thought about this topic from nearly

every angle at some point in time. I have known a few people with extremely

serious addictions who have had some of the most exceptional qualities mixed in

with exceptionally unacceptable behavior. So, I have affectionately (with a

touch of sadness) began calling them the " exceptional people. "

 

Most of the time, they punish themselves plenty, so I'm sure that they have

paid for their regrets.

 

I am so glad that your parents/grandparents intervened when they did and

you are here with us now!

 

Love,

GCDeb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Denny

 

 

 

This may sound a little forward of me but before I read your post, I had done

just that. You see, I have hosted several O.I functions in the past - I called

them Get-Togethers and the last one encompassed people from a couple of near by

states also. It was quite big we had over 100 people there and it was a blast!

 

 

 

But I did do some soul searching for the support group leader thing and

something just didn't feel right about it to me. It is not just the fact that I

am a terrible secretary with poor organizational and computer skills (which

are needed for the position). But something else wasn't right. I let it go.

Later, I happened to pick up a new book that a friend had given me just this

week. It was about energy healing. I opened the book to any page to see what it

had to tell me and, lo and behold, I was at a chapter on support groups!

 

 

 

The author was explaining that not all support groups are necessarily a good

thing when it comes to healing as it can hold a person back by creating an

environment whereby the person feels that the ONLY people who could understand

them or truly know them is somebody from their group or experience. In other

words they remain stuck emotionally within the group and it is difficult for

them to move on or truly heal.

 

 

 

What did this mean? Was heading a support group in line with a K awakening?

Would I really be serving a higher purpose? I had always known and felt that it

was important for people with O.I. and their families to get together and share

and connect - but would I be able to follow the guidelines and carry on the

responsibilities of a support group and give it the type of direction and

energy it deserves?

 

 

 

Here was my answer:

 

I have considered your offer to become a support group leader very carefully

and unfortunately this would not be a possibility for me at this time.  I

believe that since my computer and secretarial skills are poor it would be too

much for me to keep the group up alone. I am more than willing to share what

skills I do have with the group such as holding a meeting or another large

get-together with the aide of the group. I also am very happy to volunteer as a

contact person.

 

 

 

 

 

Denny, I don't know what direction my K awakening is taking, but somehow I feel

that the healing energy I would REALLY wish to bring there -would not be in

line within the confines of such a structured setting. I think I would always

be trying to push it in a different direction. Does this make sense to you?

 

 

 

I do think we have come together for a reason but I'm not sure just what the

Kundalini has in mind for us yet!

 

 

 

 

Love and Blessings

 

Mary

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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" Denny " <dennynorton

 

Wednesday, March 10, 2010 7:13:34 PM GMT -06:00 US/Canada Central

Re: Another healing? type dream

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hey there Mary,

Hmmm...this could very well be your sign and answer. You don't have anything to

lose but so much more to gain. It is worth a shot. What is your very first

thought without putting too much thought into it. If health will allow you to do

this deed to help another?

 

Now that would be pure BLISS.

 

Namaste'

Denny

 

We both know the rarity of  O.I., is the Goddess  showing me something here?

 

Love Mary

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Most of the time, they punish themselves plenty, so I'm sure that they have

paid for their regrets.

GCDeb

 

Deb,

You are correct in saying this. My sister, aunt and cousin stuggled and are

still struggling with drug addiction. My cousin has been clean for a couple

years now, but I'm sure his struggle will be life-long. I have done these drugs

myself too and deeply regret it, I didn't get as deep into it as my other family

members, but it was scary and I did punish myself alot, I still do. How

ridiculous, but yeah I need to forgive myself and move on. My situation was

more serious as I was in the service and talking to pilots on the radio...I

thank God everyday nothing happened. I'd probly still be in the penitentary

(sp?) if something happened to a pilot.

 

So I have been clean for over 6 and half years now, but I am nervous around my

aunt that still uses. We used to be best of friends and were really close, it

kills me that she is throwing her life away as I type. I just want to reach my

hand out to her and pull her out of that Hell she is living in. Now I got

myself crying. (deep breath....) Thanks for always listening Deb, this brings

me healing and closer to the humble person I need to be.

 

Laura

 

 

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> " I guess I should clarify a bit..I'll try not to talk about myself too much

here. "

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> Hey Laura - thanks so much for sharing your story. I don't know yet how

to be human and not relate things to my own experiences!

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> It sounds like your parents/grandparents are wonderful people!

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> I think that addiction is one of the greatest, if not the greatest

challenge of humans in this world. I have thought about this topic from nearly

every angle at some point in time. I have known a few people with extremely

serious addictions who have had some of the most exceptional qualities mixed in

with exceptionally unacceptable behavior. So, I have affectionately (with a

touch of sadness) began calling them the " exceptional people. "

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> Most of the time, they punish themselves plenty, so I'm sure that they

have paid for their regrets.

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> I am so glad that your parents/grandparents intervened when they did and

you are here with us now!

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> Love,

> GCDeb

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[Guest guest]

Mary,

 

I do understand your desire to be of service to lend a voice or awareness to

people. But I also know that we should work with what we have within our limited

health capacity. I applaud you for bringing awareness to an otherwise unknown

community. I can remember serving on a hospital health board for 5 years until

it became rather difficult for me, my own decline of health. I really did feel

like I was a voice for those who could not otherwise speak for themselves.

Plus my own " K " had kicked in and became rather cautious so to speak. My entire

world shifted and consciousness was in severe play.

I had difficulty in the beginning adjusting but I refused to stop my daily " K "

exercises, that too passed eventually. I hope that, that minor dis-function does

not relap and return.

 

As for your direction...I would not worry too much about the reason. I think you

know already but it has not bopped you on the head yet. Can't wait until you

have your " aH-Ha " moment(s). I can still remember most of mine like it was

yesterday...very remember-able and pure Bliss. I don't know about you but

kundalini has a way of cleaning out the baggage we all harbor inside. I can

honestly say my viewpoints have changed many times since becoming even more

aware of kundalini and its mysteries.

 

Keep me posted on what you decide. Whatever you decide will be honored and

respected.

 

Denny

 

 

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I am more than willing to share what skills I do have with the group such as

holding a meeting or another large get-together with the aide of the group. I

also am very happy to volunteer as a contact person.

 

Denny, I don't know what direction my K awakening is taking, but somehow I feel

that the healing energy I would REALLY wish to bring there -would not be in

line within the confines of such a structured setting. I think I would always be

trying to push it in a different direction. Does this make sense to you?

 

I do think we have come together for a reason but I'm not sure just what the

Kundalini has in mind for us yet!

 

Love and Blessings

 

Mary

[Guest guest]

Re: Laura:

 

 

" I am nervous around my aunt that still uses. We used to be best of friends

and were really close, it kills me that she is throwing her life away as I type.

I just want to reach my hand out to her and pull her out of that Hell she is

living in. Now I got myself crying. (deep breath....) "

 

 

 

Hugs to you, Laura, and everyone here. Yes, I know that feeling of, " if

you can't beat them, you might as well join them, " followed by the realization,

" that didn't work out too well, either. "

 

Amazing, though, how that can give you a different perspective on what they

are going through. You start to understand how humble and nonjudgmental they

really are. You get drawn in by the intensity of the laughter and the love, and

then get the breath kicked out of you by the intensity of the pain. INTENSE -

if I could sum it all up into one word.

 

You only have control over what is best for you. You are to be

congratulated for staying free and clear for six years. This takes a lot of

courage. A LOT. A WHOLE lot.

 

I had a breakthrough one night when I was watching an acquaintance have a

really drunken moment and I realized that I was observing with curiosity because

he was not MY anything. He was not my father or my husband or my child. That

is when I realized that the trick to not getting sucked into the pain and

embarrassment was to not identify myself with them. And then it dawned on me

that I did not have to identify myself even if they were MY something or other.

At that moment, I set them all free to live their own lives, create their own

paths.

 

And like you, I still deeply love them all and wish also to pull them out

of the Hell. But I now know that I don't have that kind of power. And I now

think that there is a bigger picture and this is most definitely not who they

really are. This is just a temporary drama and their script is the role of the

exceptional people who will be set free from the brain loops, one way or the

other, when the drama is played out.

 

Yes, deep breath! And big hugs to bright stars.

 

Love,

GCDeb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

" This is just a temporary drama and their script is the role of the

exceptional people who will be set free from the brain loops, one way or the

other, when the drama is played out. "

GCDeb

 

Amen, sister! Thank you so much for your heart-felt response, you have felt the

pain too. This is only temporary drama, thank you from the bottom of my heart!

 

Laura