Shaktipat Withdrawal

March 8, 2010

Beloved Teacher:

With deep regret I feel I must withdraw my request to be included in the Vernal

Equinox Shaktipat. I am feeling very emotional and even unstable the past few

weeks; unable to handle my responsibilities, unable to function and most

disturbing: unable to understand what is happening, why this instability, since

I am experiencing strong surges of k activity and bliss.

I am very aware that extreme internal changes are occurring, but they are

overpowering. In all the years since 1993 when I became K active I have never

experienced anything like this, and I feel unable to handle any part of my life

right now.

I would have preferred to email you privately, but I know that you have a huge

list of emails to go through, and I also feel that since I made a public

declaration of intention, I needed to publicly withdraw.

My prayer is that this overwhelming experience will improve, and that I will be

able to receive Shaktipat the next time it is offered.

To my K family, I ask for your prayers for healing and stability .

Respect, Honor, Gratitude and Love

Diane

March 9, 2010

Diane,

Blessings to you. I am sending prayers for healing and balance.

Love,

David

March 9, 2010

" Blessings to you. I am sending prayers for healing and balance. "

Yes, I too hope that you are feeling better and stronger soon, Diane.

Love,

GCDeb

March 9, 2010

Sending prayers your way for healing and balance.

Do not worry, you will find balance. Trust.

Many Blessings to you, Diane.

Laura

, Diane Baugh

<cdgbdronningen wrote:

>

> Beloved Teacher:

>

> With deep regret I feel I must withdraw my request to be included in the

Vernal Equinox Shaktipat. I am feeling very emotional and even unstable the

past few weeks; unable to handle my responsibilities, unable to function and

most disturbing: unable to understand what is happening, why this instability,

since I am experiencing strong surges of k activity and bliss.

>

> I am very aware that extreme internal changes are occurring, but they are

overpowering. In all the years since 1993 when I became K active I have never

experienced anything like this, and I feel unable to handle any part of my life

right now.

>

> I would have preferred to email you privately, but I know that you have a huge

list of emails to go through, and I also feel that since I made a public

declaration of intention, I needed to publicly withdraw.

>

> My prayer is that this overwhelming experience will improve, and that I will

be able to receive Shaktipat the next time it is offered.

>

> To my K family, I ask for your prayers for healing and stability .

>

> Respect, Honor, Gratitude and Love

>

> Diane

>

March 9, 2010

My love to you blessed Diane.

~Danielle

, Diane Baugh

<cdgbdronningen wrote:

>

> To my K family, I ask for your prayers for healing and stability .

>

> Respect, Honor, Gratitude and Love

>

> Diane

>

March 9, 2010

Light and love sent to you this morning !!! will keep you in my prayers from

now on.

Light and love

Jonas

On Tue, Mar 9, 2010 at 2:51 PM, Laura <lo1o113 wrote:

>

> Sending prayers your way for healing and balance.

>

> Do not worry, you will find balance. Trust.

> Many Blessings to you, Diane.

>

> Laura

>

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> Diane Baugh <cdgbdronningen wrote:

> >

> > Beloved Teacher:

> >

> > With deep regret I feel I must withdraw my request to be included in the

> Vernal Equinox Shaktipat. I am feeling very emotional and even unstable the

> past few weeks; unable to handle my responsibilities, unable to function and

> most disturbing: unable to understand what is happening, why this

> instability, since I am experiencing strong surges of k activity and bliss.

> >

> > I am very aware that extreme internal changes are occurring, but they

> are overpowering. In all the years since 1993 when I became K active I have

> never experienced anything like this, and I feel unable to handle any part

> of my life right now.

> >

> > I would have preferred to email you privately, but I know that you have a

> huge list of emails to go through, and I also feel that since I made a

> public declaration of intention, I needed to publicly withdraw.

> >

> > My prayer is that this overwhelming experience will improve, and that I

> will be able to receive Shaktipat the next time it is offered.

> >

> > To my K family, I ask for your prayers for healing and stability .

> >

> > Respect, Honor, Gratitude and Love

> >

> > Diane

> >

March 9, 2010

Dearest Diane:

I will send some prayers your way that you can settle into a balance and feel

yourself again. The journey often will be intense and it varies so this sounds

to me like a good thing. I know it does not feel that way yet - you have been

with K long enough to know there are always surprises - even chrism feels the

changes after all the time he has been with K. There is no end to the growing

and no end to the gifting.

So know that you are fine and being taken care of always - Shakti does not leave

her chosen alone and unattended. NO Worries!!!

Thinking of you

e

March 9, 2010

Hi Diane,

My heart goes out to you. I understand completely what you are feeling for I

have felt the same. Sometimes we take 2 steps forward and need time for our i to

catch up and integrate. It seems to be the same for me ... can feel the most

beautiful love bliss incredible energy going through the body but then as you

explained there is that side to integrate into daily life which is not easy. Our

emotions become so amplified and sometimes not even knowing what it is or why we

are feeling this way. So do not feel you are alone in these feelings - must be

the ego freaking out i guess. Feels though like I'm freaking out - ha -

To help balance I will tell you what I do - it helps and yet still it comes up.

If I am alone of course its easier and not in public. I can go lay down for a

few minutes and relax into the meditation and feel peaceful saying i surrender -

and completely trust - blah blah.

The real difficulty though lies in the day to day where you cannot do this and

even I have had the simplest task to do seem impossible. So this is what I have

been doing. I go into the bathroom if I'm in public anywhere for privacy. You

feel like crying like you are falling apart. With all your strength - remind

yourself ... this is just a story - a story of our ego our personality - the

emotions are so difficult not to get lost in but this is when I first do my self

- talk. This is not such a gentle self talk because if you are in that panic

that ego that is freaking out - feeling like crying hysterically - you have to

really shout it out to yourself - THIS FEELINGS ARE JUST A STORY!!! THEY ARE AN

ILLUSION - YES THEY ARE REAL - BUT REALLY THEY ARE ILLUSION - IT IS NOT WHO YOU

REALLY ARE - IT IS THE ONLY THING LEFT THAT STANDS IN YOUR WAY OF TRANSCENDING

THESE - FOREVER -

I tell myself right now here is my chance to not allow these emotions to take me

under -

it is our story - something from inside being amplified - look at it -

acknowledge it (thats funny cuz that the easiest part we can't seem to get away

from it - can we?)

But then - It is just a story - no more or less than any one elses - from our

higher self its as if we are actors on a stage, pretending to be this person

pretending that we are limited pretending that we are a man a woman a worker a

this and a that - its real to us here but it is a play a play to dance to a play

to dance with not for it to take us under but for us to be free in while we are

still here -

so look in the face of the biggest storm in the sea - this storm you are or will

feel - feeling as if we have no raft as if we are drowning - look at it and say

it is nothing - it cannot hurt you - tell it it has no power over you - it is

NOT real - it is exactly the only thing keeping us from the complete tranquility

and peace of our being -Look at it let the tears fall as they will but tell

yourself this is NOT who you are - you do not have to identify with these

feelings - these are all illusions -

It is NOT you - yes it feels like you - it is your emotions being so blown out

of proportion-

why? the energy i suppose must do so - there is no escaping this then - our

ability in the past to push them down and not face them - to not dissolve them

each time this panic comes over - it is our chance to dissolve them - i fail

more times than i succeed - but each time a little strength grows - each time i

am learning how to not identify with that which feels like me but is not

tell yourself to be steady - STEADY for it matters not what is thrown at you -

you are an infinite being - you are unlimited - you have and are the strength

and prescence of ALL THAT IS -

it is trying to entice you - like a drug to a drug addict a drink to an

alcoholic - making you lose yourself in it - but you are NOT it -so easy to lose

ourselves in this storm - but it is the ONLY thing

standing in your way of enlightenment - of our chance to transcend such problems

worries and suffering - you have the energy now Diane this is a great gift we

know - but there comes a point when things get tough and challenges have to be

faced - and honestly i don't know who made up these rules but let us become GOD

and change them! (haha)

It is this storm we all must face - It is this storm where we will in some

lifetime decide to look at it and be strong without losing ourselves in it- to

see it for what it is - IT IS NOT YOU - its so enticing to fall into our

stories - our stories of hurts - heartache - pain - loss - victimization - blah

blah blah - maybe we are feeling everyones stories - all the suffering - somehow

slowly we stop

somehow we remember to TRUST -

sometimes when it is SO strong I say ok this time just this time I'm not going

to identify with it but next time when it comes i'll let myself be lost again -

its like wagering with my ego making a deal with the devil (my ego) so this time

i don't identify with it but don't worry ego next time i'll lose myself - haha -

its just to learn HOW to do it while in it - a little taste here and there - a

little taste of that sweet strength that you really are - a taste to stand in

the storm and laugh at it - laugh that it thinks it has power over you -

each taste of this - this being able to Look at the emotions without identifying

and losing yourself in them - each taste brings you stronger and stronger - soon

you will be laughing - let us laugh together Diane in this storm -

Its the hardest thing we will ever do - each time you can look at it - tell

yourself it is just a story - could be anyones story - the emotions feel so

strong as if it is the entire planets story -

So Look at it - feel the strength of the I AM THAT I AM inside you - FEEL The

TRUST for GOD - COMPLETE TRUST AND SURRENDER -

but the KEY is NOT TO IDENTIFY WITH THESE EMOTIONS - They will suck you in and

the panic drowns you - I know this all too well -

doesnt mean I still don't have it - Just means that each time it comes over me

and I am strong enough to see it AS JUST SOME STORY - IT DOESNT MATTER - TO STAY

STEADY IN THIS - NOT IDENTIFYING WITH IT

it takes some time to come out of that panic - it takes some self talk - it

takes some stength and complete love for yourself - what you are doing Diane is

the ultimate test or lesson or whatever you want to call it - the chance to

transcend SUFFERING -

some say if you believe in reincarnation - the last time to lose yourself in a

world - the last time to pretend that you do not know who you really are - the

end to your suffering -

a merging with GOd -

a complete peace awaits us - peace in any situation - the world could be

crumbling at our feet but we will have the strength to smile in this crumbling -

and with this to help others-

its all such a dream - let us step out of this dream -

it seems so stupid writing this - like why do I feel this way but when it hits

it hits - its such a storm - and mostly i drown in this storm - and its

embarrassing to admit - as I write this though i feel like crying cuz it has

been hard - see...there i go again identifying with poor me -

so do not feel bad at yourself for anything Diane - I do know what you speak of

- If you ever need to talk in that storm let me know -

The other thing - please do this - close your mouth - breathe out your nostrils

- do you notice one side stronger than the other?

My left side is strong - the right side is weak - I am trying to balance this by

focusing on the right side - perhaps can speak about this - but I would

be interested being that I have felt the same feelings as you - if you notice

this -

The other thing I suggest is during the day anytime now Diane that you can - you

are driving - you are standing in line - whenever - all the time (: say to

yourself " I am that I am " or just " I AM "

let this feeling of strength cultivate inside you - water it and take care of it

- as often as you can - because when that panic hits again (i call mine panic

ha)

I begin to repeat this

helps me to focus on the I AM - which is strength and God - and not on the ego

of emotions which is not who we really are - (use whatever feels good/god for

you - whatever gives you that feeling of the strength INSIDE yourself -

and btw i am just starting this myself - telling myself its a story - the i am -

really getting firm with myself not to get lost in it -

just so you know we may fail many many times - but it only takes once to feel

and experience that we can LOOK at this and not identify with it -

each little triumph - and soon it will not have any power over us -

so I understand not doing the shaktipat - hope something i said helps - the

balanced breathing is really important i think -

it doesnt matter how many times we fail Diane - if it takes me another year to

get this - its worth it - don't feel alone in this - and me... seems the full

moon kicks my butt pretty bad - really got lost in the storm the last two full

moons -

we shall see how I do the next one - I want to stand in that storm and laugh

(not like a crazy person - but i do like that too ) (:

Love to you Diane - If you ever need to talk you can send me an email ... and if

i get lost in my next storm - someone laugh with me ...(aarni i said WITH me not

AT me) (;

Love to you all - Lots of love to you Diane - I'll fly around your head next

time holding a vacumn sucking out all those emotions - you'll be so annoyed at

me buzzing around your head making all sorts of noise that you'll laugh in the

face of those emotions cuz you'll be busy swatting at me - bzzzzzzzzzzz

who wants to buzz around my head the next full moon? anyone? (;

Mia D (aka Deb)

>

March 9, 2010

dear Diane

May you be held near and dear in love, peace, and healing.

Something i have wondered about Diane is the effects of the large

earthquakes in relation to each of our Kundalini and Spiritual

transformative work. Through the years have come to accept with K Ma

there is a deep connection with the Earth energies and it seems most

everyone i know has been going through intense adjustments along with

Mother Earth.

May this soon pass with beauty and ascension to a lovely space of love,

peace and light.

In love, peace and prayer from this heart to you sister.

sparrow

, Diane Baugh

<cdgbdronningen wrote:

>

> Beloved Teacher:

>

> With deep regret I feel I must withdraw my request to be included in

the Vernal Equinox Shaktipat. I am feeling very emotional and even

unstable the past few weeks; unable to handle my responsibilities,

unable to function and most disturbing: unable to understand what is

happening, why this instability, since I am experiencing strong surges

of k activity and bliss.

>

> I am very aware that extreme internal changes are occurring, but they

are overpowering. In all the years since 1993 when I became K active I

have never experienced anything like this, and I feel unable to handle

any part of my life right now.

>

> I would have preferred to email you privately, but I know that you

have a huge list of emails to go through, and I also feel that since I

made a public declaration of intention, I needed to publicly withdraw.

>

> My prayer is that this overwhelming experience will improve, and that

I will be able to receive Shaktipat the next time it is offered.

>

> To my K family, I ask for your prayers for healing and stability .

>

> Respect, Honor, Gratitude and Love

>

> Diane

>

March 9, 2010

Reminds me of this song. " Stand in the rain "

She won't make a sound

alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering

if she stands, she'll fall down.

She wants to be found,

the only way out is through everything she's running from

wants to give up and lie down.

" Chorus " So Stand in the rain, stand your ground, stand up when it's all

falling down....

by Superchick

I listen to this song ALOT!

Prayers for you Diane, thinking of you lots!

Laura

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi Diane,

>

> My heart goes out to you. I understand completely what you are feeling for I

have felt the same. Sometimes we take 2 steps forward and need time for our i to

catch up and integrate. It seems to be the same for me ... can feel the most

beautiful love bliss incredible energy going through the body but then as you

explained there is that side to integrate into daily life which is not easy. Our

emotions become so amplified and sometimes not even knowing what it is or why we

are feeling this way. So do not feel you are alone in these feelings - must be

the ego freaking out i guess. Feels though like I'm freaking out - ha -

>

> To help balance I will tell you what I do - it helps and yet still it comes

up. If I am alone of course its easier and not in public. I can go lay down for

a few minutes and relax into the meditation and feel peaceful saying i surrender

- and completely trust - blah blah.

>

> The real difficulty though lies in the day to day where you cannot do this and