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Dear chrism,

 

I have just read all the responses that so kindly put together in the

student file.  I am buzzing after reading them all,  my head is tingling and

heart full of connection and love.  I feel a bit shakey in fact.  

 

You asked us to then look at our own psot and write again.  I would like to

write a bit about bliss and how it is now different to before.

Bliss has changed in how it is given. and the actual bliss itself is different

now also, it is more than bliss and it is also nothingandancan't find words....

it is like before it was very very physical and tactile and had an emotional

quality to it ... bliss added to the body, where as now it adds but also takes

away... can't explain!!!

  At the start  it used to arrive and stay  at the same level it arrived, almost

like  water rushing into a hole on the seashore, remaining there. I was engulfed

and flooded and it was blissful and beautiful .  I then had a time of fear and

ran from what had been given and what I was then experiencing.   Thank God that

 K approached me again and that I was able to hear and that I " found " and

KAS.

  Now bliss is like the waves and I am like the seashore....  When I use the

word Bliss now I could use the word grace or kunddalini or  oneness or love or

perhaps even nothingness or allness.    The wave flows onto the seashore and

infuses the sand and shingle with its sweetness and then as it retreats it

leaves shells and small stones  on the shore  the water soaks into the sand and

it is never the same no longer dry it has been touched and infused.  The waves

are not constant and the next one may not arrive for quite some time.  I am

happy to be the seashore and wait for choosing of the waves. For while the water

has retreated the essence of her gifts are always presentthe surface and deep

within.  I have realised that not knowing when and how and even why and just

bieng the seashore is a beautiful thing to be and |I feel so honoured and

grateful to be cast in that role, and  for as long as the director allows it to

be so I am

content.

 

Love Julia.