2 Questions. . .sparrow synthesis. . .Journals

[Guest guest]

I thank you too, sparrow. It is very brave and open of you to share with us. The

same day you posted I was cleaning up under the spare bed, (where things get

dumped), and I found some old journals dating back to 1991; A year before my

life was turned upside down when I left my home and family with nothing but the

clothes I was wearing, and a credit card.

 

I was reading back on how I had given away a lot of expensive things I had

bought and felt I 'needed'. There were little hints to show my awakening had

started but it took the trauma I went through for things to really show. The

problem was they showed as a breakdown and mental illness, which all led to me

never working again, even 18yrs later.

 

I am going to continue reading through those words I wrote during that dark

time. Writing helped me nail my demons to the page and purge them from my mind.

Now I look back and it is as if someone else had written it all, the out

pourings of someone I had left behind.

 

Blessings,

Skydancer x

 

, " bruce_oom "

<bruce_oom wrote:

>

> Dear Ordinary Sparrow,

>

> thank you for sharing your story so beautifully and honestly. Your words

continue to illuminate many aspects of experience and consciousness for me and I

am grateful for that.

>

> love

> Bruce

>

[Guest guest]

Namaste

 

dear Skydancer

 

thank you for your kind words Skydancer. . .going back and reading the

journals can be interesting to see the depth of transformation with time

and Kundalini Ma. . .

 

there is a promise in the Bible that is made reference to in the Course

of Miracles. . ., it goes something like this. . . " all the years the

locust ate shall be restored magnified with abundance and beauty. . . "

may it be for you dear Sister. . .those dark years of delving into the

resevior of the collective ancestors can and was very intense, but many

years later, i feel such blessing for what has blossomed like the lotus

that appears thru dense dark unspeakable matter life and love emerges

so very precious and present. . .

 

many blessings dear one

ordinary sparrow

 

, " Skydancer "

<ionaskydancer wrote:

>

> I thank you too, sparrow. It is very brave and open of you to share

with us. The same day you posted I was cleaning up under the spare bed,

(where things get dumped), and I found some old journals dating back to

1991; A year before my life was turned upside down when I left my home

and family with nothing but the clothes I was wearing, and a credit

card.

>

> I was reading back on how I had given away a lot of expensive things I

had bought and felt I 'needed'. There were little hints to show my

awakening had started but it took the trauma I went through for things

to really show. The problem was they showed as a breakdown and mental

illness, which all led to me never working again, even 18yrs later.

>

> I am going to continue reading through those words I wrote during that

dark time. Writing helped me nail my demons to the page and purge them

from my mind. Now I look back and it is as if someone else had written

it all, the out pourings of someone I had left behind.

>

> Blessings,

> Skydancer x

>

> , " bruce_oom "

bruce_oom@ wrote:

> >

> > Dear Ordinary Sparrow,

> >

> > thank you for sharing your story so beautifully and honestly. Your

words continue to illuminate many aspects of experience and

consciousness for me and I am grateful for that.

> >

> > love

> > Bruce

> >

>