Old Flame returns, re-connects, surgery type things

January 7, 2009

There is some K stuff in here for sure...

I often dream of my old boyfriend, I'll refer to him as " H " . He is

my " first " and the one I guess I fantasize about being able to go

back to if I wanted. I feel he was a soul mate though didn't realize

it till much later. Anyway, the dream:

I'm in the house I grew up in with my first husband (deceased) but

with the daughter I have with my current husband. I notice there is

an apartment at the end of the house I had no idea even existed. I go

to explore it and it is certainly lived in. The look and smell of it

is familiar and like coming home. I realize this is very similar to

H's old apartment, when we were together. The decor in general is

so 'him'. I fall asleep on his bed and he comes home! He is back! I'm

so ecstatic. I spend more and more time with him and hardly see my

husband at all. One day I see my 1st hubby's head poke out of one of

the doors in our house looking down the hall in my direction but he

doesn't see me. But I know he suspects something. H. and I talk alot,

making up for all the time we've been apart living our own lives. He

starts chanting/singing a mantra I don't know. His voice is

incredible! He can sing like 2 people singing at once, one low voice

and one high so he can do his own harmony which I think is fantastic!

Not quite like Tuvian throat singing, more harmonious, beautiful.

(In real life, he couldn't carry a tune very well but loved music

just not chant). I ask him if he could teach me to do that. He comes

and puts his hands on me and I feel energy in them. I say,

surprised, " And you do energy work, TOO?! " He looks surprised that,

one, I noticed this and two, I even know what these things are, as if

I know a secret. He says yes and I ask if he's certified and has had

training. He says yes. I ask him to please, please teach me. He looks

beyond pleased. I think we make love and he does a healing on me and

we fall asleep together. Later, my daughter comes in and finds us

together. She thinks it's just normal. She accidentally calls

H. " Daddy " , catches herself and is a bit embarrassed. So is H. She

goes outside and is happily walking around and around the house

dragging a broken-off tree limb with it's leaves still on. She is

clearing a path around the house. Some kind of game she is playing.

But she's happy.

H. is massaging my back and begins to remove a mole from lower down

on my back (2nd chakra). It's pretty painful, he's cutting it out

with no anesthesia. I can feel the warm blood trickling down my hips.

I allow the pain and allow him to remove the mole. He tells me it's

done and I see his bloody hands. He cleans us both up and I know it

will heal as if nothing was there. I'm grateful.

Now, H. puts on a blue elephant mask with a long trunk. He asks me to

lie down and open my mouth wide. He puts the trunk into my mouth and

asks me to let it go as deep as I can. I fight a gag reflex and let

it go down, consciously opening my throat as wide as I can. I allow

again and let it go very deep. He pulls out the trunk, which is

dripping with saliva (ew!) and he shows me that it went in the

maximum depth! I can't believe it! Neither can he. He all of a

sudden puts his hands together and puts them on his forehead and with

the biggest smile I've ever seen, he is rocking back and forth,

chuckling. Like he is over-the-top happy and giving thanks to God for

me, where I am right now and that he's finally found me at last. It's

better than I've ever imagined. I know I belong with him, I'm going

to have to leave K.(1st husband) and join H. It's a sticky situation

I have to get out of but I know I have to. I'm so happy! EOD

And I woke up feeling energized and like I really have had a healing

of some kind. And I just keep thinking how grateful I am to H. even

though he probably had absolutely nothing to do with this actually. I

am in a light and happy mood this morning, like I'm on top of the

world. Rare!

And when I say in the title he's changed, when I knew him, he was

totally intellectual, funny but not spiritual at all. In this dream

he was like a guru almost, had learned even beyond me (not that I'm a

guru!LOL) and had things he could teach ME. He went from left brain

to right brain. Or is it the other way around?

It's a strange one. All I can say is " WOW! " . Can't see the forest for

the trees in this one. Anyone want to take a crack at it? It's full

of stuff!

Thanks,

Valarie

January 8, 2009

I just feel alot of sexual healing/ kundalini energy in this dream, sexual symbology and nature (trees and grass), to me nature is a very sexual energy as it is filled with creativity, fertility , growth and reproduction. Nature is also connected to the heart chakra. The house is an old part of yourself you havent re-visited for a while.Taking something out from the sacral and the throat chakra and activating it, your ex lover represents the balanced divine masculine with the divine feminine helping with the healing ( shakti using an aspect of yourself and subconcious mind).I'm sure you are going to feel the benefits from that energy within you on a deep inner level.My ideas :-))Much love elektra x x x