change!

[Guest guest]

Hi chrism – thanks once again for the advice, guidance and friendship!

 

Of late my meditation had been focused largely on resolving `mental

blockages' from my past and seeking to improve the connection with my

higher self – you know where I am coming from. I have been battling

with some issues for a few years now and the turning point, the

clarity, the change has literally come with a bang – like turning a

sharp corner and not the slow grind that I was plagued with previously

– I am still amazed by the rapidity with which the change has

occurred. In successfully clearing those issues I have found an inner

peace that is so hard to describe – like a veil has been lifted and

suddenly things have become clearer - it is like I am finding myself

for the first time. I feel I really now know what surrender, trust,

acceptance are about (what I knew before were the textbook concepts –

this is different). With that clarity has also come a sensation of

insignificance - not in a negative or self-deprecatory way, but of

being on the road to becoming all but also being nothing (again so

hard to commit to writing). The realisation that the more I know the

less I know if that makes sense, but also knowing that on this path I

will achieve enlightenment, self realization and ultimately divine

communication.

 

I have also had this strong `input' to continue to follow the

kundalini path but not to actively seek the kundalini as the vehicle –

it will happen in its own good time as things unfold. I find myself

being more of an observer with everything becoming an active

meditation and not just confined to my normal specific periods of

meditation if that makes sense.

 

Within myself I find the change to be substantial, but when my wife

asked me to detail what has changed I was limited to saying that I am

finding that I just know things / am receiving answers and am so much

clearer on where I am going and what life is all about, but to

quantify that feeling? That is ever so hard – if my wife didn't love

me she would have me committed!

 

The timing of this shaktipat seems somehow significant. With the

scatterfields being placed I have found an incredible inner calm where

I am well coping with the routine challenges but from a different

place devoid of the anger and stress that is characteristic of living

here now. Almost an amplification of the change that was already

occurring.

 

Apologies for rambling – I wanted to share it with someone who

understands and that someone is you!

 

Thanks once again – blessings - Jonathan

[Guest guest]

Hi Jonathan,

 

thanks for your post, and i didnt think it was rambling. I also like

to ramble on with words. I enjoyed reading it, and can relate to much

of what you say, particularly having gone through a long grind and

finally reaching a turning point characterized by clarity,

understanding acceptance, trust, etc etc..oh ,and the

insignificance...increasingly I see myself as a tiny part of a vast

process which is radically impersonal, yet I am also of profound

importance, being a aware vehicle of consciousness...

 

I dont know of the shaktipat affected me or not, as I didnt actively

participate (not that I know of) but I did feel a tremendous

smoothness in the power of kundalini in me the last week...kind of

like a well matured brandy or whisky, as compared to cheap tequila in

the past when the energy was totally throwing me around like a

rollercoaster...

 

Bruce

 

 

my

> higher self – you know where I am coming from. I have been battling

> with some issues for a few years now and the turning point, the

> clarity, the change has literally come with a bang – like turning a

> sharp corner and not the slow grind that I was plagued with

previously

> – I am still amazed by the rapidity with which the change has

> occurred. In successfully clearing those issues I have found an

inner

> peace that is so hard to describe – like a veil has been lifted and

> suddenly things have become clearer - it is like I am finding myself

> for the first time. I feel I really now know what surrender, trust,

> acceptance are about (what I knew before were the textbook

concepts –

> this is different). With that clarity has also come a sensation of

> insignificance - not in a negative or self-deprecatory way, but of

> being on the road to becoming all but also being nothing (again so

> hard to commit to writing). The realisation that the more I know

the