new-saying hi-probably will be long

[Guest guest]

Welcome to the group! So glad to have you with us.

 

Sarita

 

, " punkinzlazy "

<dwilliams25 wrote:

>

> hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can.

> i have been through sooo much on the path that has brought me here.

> please excuse any spelling mistakes.

> i had never heard of kundalini until recently. i think it explains

a

> lot for me. i think i have been very intuitive every since i was a

> child. i think it has helped and hurt me because i didn't " know " i

> was intuitive or i ignored it to try to keep my life together. as a

> young person i latterly ran with my emotions. lots of trouble. at

18

> i married & had a child. after a few decent years with my husband

it

> went down hill. i started going to church about 10 yrs ago. i

really

> wanted to know god. i wanted to change my life. it was a small

> church. bad vibes were going around and a good friend hurt me so i

> quit going. my marriage and my life went down hill. i became very

> disillusioned and depressed for about 4 years. i even went to a

> urologist i had so many symptoms. i began pulling myself out of

this

> by exercising, eating good, trying to be positive and working on my

> marriage. nothing i did helped my marriage. he is very

narcissistic.

> the biggest blow of my life came last june when i found out my of

> husband 22 yrs had been cheating for at least 4 yrs. i had somewhat

> of a break down. i was so traumatized that all i wanted to do was

go

> to counseling. we went to see the man who was the pastor of the

> church i had went to. he is also a 20 years practicing

> psychoanalysis. very spiritual, very kind, very supportive, very

> healing. we never discussed it but i feel sure he knows something

> about all this. he saw us separately for 5 months. i had a head

ache

> for 3 months straight nonstop. i found out much more about my

> husband during this time from outside sources. to much to go into.

i

> came to understand much about myself. but in the mean time i cried

> out to god literally and in my dreams so many times to help he. i

> found the strength to tell my husband that i had forgiven him but

> thing were not as they used to be and i wanted to separate in

> december 2007. at that time and since then i have realized much

more

> about myself and that much of the toxic feeling and emotions i had

> experience over the years was everything i was picking up from my

> husband. i have experienced many symptoms over the years but a veil

> has been lifted. i KNOW that the holy spirit and kundalini is

> working in me. i am excited about my journey now. i believe every

> thing happens for a reason and it happens " when " it should happen.

I

> see signs of this every day. i had just started meditating shortly

> before finding this group. i had already been practicing many of

the

> safeties with out even knowing it. i hardly ever watch tv or radio

> except christian things now (and i intuitively know when to tune

> some that out too). i drink water all day long. ive forgiven many

> people including myself. i am forming an inner joy that i don't

know

> i have ever felt. i trust i am going where i need to go. i have

> always love to help people. actually too much. in the past i have

> absorbed to much negative emotion for other people so i am learning

> not to get to attached to situations. try to help and let it be as

> it should. i am so grateful to be experiencing life as it should

be.

> i pray for guidance. i am moving out into the world at my own pace.

> i eat well.

> The doctor went a long way to helping me understand my dreams. i

try

> to journal them now. most nights i dream all night long. i don't

> mind it though.

> i lurked for a while and thought if i posted it would be to long of

> a post but any way here it is. sorry its so long. i did put my

> picture in the summer albums. i am thankful to be able to have more

> knowledge about what is going on. and advice or information will be

> greatly appreciated. i have done a lot of reading on chism's site.

> thanks to everyone

>

[Guest guest]

thanks for the welcome sarita.

debby

-

" Sarita " <sarita1969

 

Monday, April 28, 2008 1:38 PM

Re: new-saying hi-probably will be

long

 

 

Welcome to the group! So glad to have you with us.

 

Sarita

 

, " punkinzlazy "

<dwilliams25 wrote:

>

> hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can.

>

[Guest guest]

Welcome, Debby! Thanks for introducing yourself. Looking forward to

getting to know you.

 

Blessings & love,

Claudia

 

, " punkinzlazy "

<dwilliams25 wrote:

>

> hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can.

> i have been through sooo much on the path that has brought me here.

> please excuse any spelling mistakes.

> i had never heard of kundalini until recently. i think it explains

a

> lot for me. i think i have been very intuitive every since i was a

> child. i think it has helped and hurt me because i didn't " know " i

> was intuitive or i ignored it to try to keep my life together. as a

> young person i latterly ran with my emotions. lots of trouble. at

18

> i married & had a child. after a few decent years with my husband

it

> went down hill. i started going to church about 10 yrs ago. i

really

> wanted to know god. i wanted to change my life. it was a small

> church. bad vibes were going around and a good friend hurt me so i

> quit going. my marriage and my life went down hill. i became very

> disillusioned and depressed for about 4 years. i even went to a

> urologist i had so many symptoms. i began pulling myself out of

this

> by exercising, eating good, trying to be positive and working on my

> marriage. nothing i did helped my marriage. he is very

narcissistic.

> the biggest blow of my life came last june when i found out my of

> husband 22 yrs had been cheating for at least 4 yrs. i had somewhat

> of a break down. i was so traumatized that all i wanted to do was

go

> to counseling. we went to see the man who was the pastor of the

> church i had went to. he is also a 20 years practicing

> psychoanalysis. very spiritual, very kind, very supportive, very

> healing. we never discussed it but i feel sure he knows something

> about all this. he saw us separately for 5 months. i had a head

ache

> for 3 months straight nonstop. i found out much more about my

> husband during this time from outside sources. to much to go into.

i

> came to understand much about myself. but in the mean time i cried

> out to god literally and in my dreams so many times to help he. i

> found the strength to tell my husband that i had forgiven him but

> thing were not as they used to be and i wanted to separate in

> december 2007. at that time and since then i have realized much

more

> about myself and that much of the toxic feeling and emotions i had

> experience over the years was everything i was picking up from my

> husband. i have experienced many symptoms over the years but a veil

> has been lifted. i KNOW that the holy spirit and kundalini is

> working in me. i am excited about my journey now. i believe every

> thing happens for a reason and it happens " when " it should happen.

I

> see signs of this every day. i had just started meditating shortly

> before finding this group. i had already been practicing many of

the

> safeties with out even knowing it. i hardly ever watch tv or radio

> except christian things now (and i intuitively know when to tune

> some that out too). i drink water all day long. ive forgiven many

> people including myself. i am forming an inner joy that i don't

know

> i have ever felt. i trust i am going where i need to go. i have

> always love to help people. actually too much. in the past i have

> absorbed to much negative emotion for other people so i am learning

> not to get to attached to situations. try to help and let it be as

> it should. i am so grateful to be experiencing life as it should

be.

> i pray for guidance. i am moving out into the world at my own pace.

> i eat well.

> The doctor went a long way to helping me understand my dreams. i

try

> to journal them now. most nights i dream all night long. i don't

> mind it though.

> i lurked for a while and thought if i posted it would be to long of

> a post but any way here it is. sorry its so long. i did put my

> picture in the summer albums. i am thankful to be able to have more

> knowledge about what is going on. and advice or information will be

> greatly appreciated. i have done a lot of reading on chism's site.

> thanks to everyone

>

[Guest guest]

Welcome, Debby! Thanks for introducing yourself. Looking forward to

getting to know you.

 

Blessings & love,

Claudia

 

, " punkinzlazy "

<dwilliams25 wrote:

>

> hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can.

> i have been through sooo much on the path that has brought me here.

> please excuse any spelling mistakes.

> i had never heard of kundalini until recently. i think it explains

a

> lot for me. i think i have been very intuitive every since i was a

> child. i think it has helped and hurt me because i didn't " know " i

> was intuitive or i ignored it to try to keep my life together. as a

> young person i latterly ran with my emotions. lots of trouble. at

18

> i married & had a child. after a few decent years with my husband

it

> went down hill. i started going to church about 10 yrs ago. i

really

> wanted to know god. i wanted to change my life. it was a small

> church. bad vibes were going around and a good friend hurt me so i

> quit going. my marriage and my life went down hill. i became very

> disillusioned and depressed for about 4 years. i even went to a

> urologist i had so many symptoms. i began pulling myself out of

this

> by exercising, eating good, trying to be positive and working on my

> marriage. nothing i did helped my marriage. he is very

narcissistic.

> the biggest blow of my life came last june when i found out my of

> husband 22 yrs had been cheating for at least 4 yrs. i had somewhat

> of a break down. i was so traumatized that all i wanted to do was

go

> to counseling. we went to see the man who was the pastor of the

> church i had went to. he is also a 20 years practicing

> psychoanalysis. very spiritual, very kind, very supportive, very

> healing. we never discussed it but i feel sure he knows something

> about all this. he saw us separately for 5 months. i had a head

ache

> for 3 months straight nonstop. i found out much more about my

> husband during this time from outside sources. to much to go into.

i

> came to understand much about myself. but in the mean time i cried

> out to god literally and in my dreams so many times to help he. i

> found the strength to tell my husband that i had forgiven him but

> thing were not as they used to be and i wanted to separate in

> december 2007. at that time and since then i have realized much

more

> about myself and that much of the toxic feeling and emotions i had

> experience over the years was everything i was picking up from my

> husband. i have experienced many symptoms over the years but a veil

> has been lifted. i KNOW that the holy spirit and kundalini is

> working in me. i am excited about my journey now. i believe every

> thing happens for a reason and it happens " when " it should happen.

I

> see signs of this every day. i had just started meditating shortly

> before finding this group. i had already been practicing many of

the

> safeties with out even knowing it. i hardly ever watch tv or radio

> except christian things now (and i intuitively know when to tune

> some that out too). i drink water all day long. ive forgiven many

> people including myself. i am forming an inner joy that i don't

know

> i have ever felt. i trust i am going where i need to go. i have

> always love to help people. actually too much. in the past i have

> absorbed to much negative emotion for other people so i am learning

> not to get to attached to situations. try to help and let it be as

> it should. i am so grateful to be experiencing life as it should

be.

> i pray for guidance. i am moving out into the world at my own pace.

> i eat well.

> The doctor went a long way to helping me understand my dreams. i

try

> to journal them now. most nights i dream all night long. i don't

> mind it though.

> i lurked for a while and thought if i posted it would be to long of

> a post but any way here it is. sorry its so long. i did put my

> picture in the summer albums. i am thankful to be able to have more

> knowledge about what is going on. and advice or information will be

> greatly appreciated. i have done a lot of reading on chism's site.

> thanks to everyone

>