Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Posted October 4, 2007 Hi, Amanda! Thank you for sharing your story with us! Some of it happened to me too, and I wonder what would it be without finding others that have lived through it and are willing to share it! Last autumn I had extreme agoraphobia (to the extend that I was afraid to look out from the window), depressive and maniac episodes, OCD, anxiety, palpitations and panic attacks, hallucinations, and something that I called 'tv allergy', but somebody told me it could be photosensitive epileptic fit - while watching tv, I started to feel blissful sensations in my head, then I used to see brightly coloured visions spilling and possessing almost all of my field of vision, making me feel light-headed and nauseatic, then starting to feel very anxious, I felt pressure in my chest and loss of breath, losing sensitiveness in my body, and at the end it used to feel a lot like dying. At the time I didn't know what Kundalini was, but now I feel better, and I'm sure I won't be afraid if my 'tv allergy' happens again. I'm sure that I won't die, I know it won't kill me. And since I found out about Kundalini accidentally, I'm really grateful for being here so lucky! Much Love, Emona , " Amanda " <mi5anthr0pe wrote: > > Claudia was kind enough to send me this post from the other day since I > just missed it. I have to say I am fascinated, and many things described > in this piece are very familiar to me, and I have also read that the > more you learn, or want to know, the more that will open up to you. When > I joined a few Near death experience groups, some of the posts really > rang true within me; most of them actually. Ive met a lot of amazing > people with experiences that they are willing to share. Just in that > time, probably April of this year, so much has opened up to me. Ive > learned to live more in the " now " , Ive been aware of everything around > me, when most seem to disregard their surroundings, Ive learned to quiet > my mind, Ive exceeded my visualization skills, my dream recall, and my > understanding of our true selves and of our egos and how they are a tool > used to utilize the world around us, but are not supposed to rule us. > > In that time, I have had interesting visions (and I saw that in terms of > visualizations I get within my mind and inside of my eyelids), I have > seen spots of light spontaneously flash (Ive recently had an extensive > eye episode meaning Ive gone to a specialist because one eyeglass doctor > thought my optic nerves looked enlarged, everything is fine though), > within the last few days, Ive seen these spots flash and move. Its all > very quick and I can never catch it dead on. > > Ive been able to kinda zone out or completely relax my body and hear > snippets of conversation, laughter, bells, or a windy sound. Its as if > my physical hearing silences out the noise or empty air around me, and > plays its own noise somewhere in my mind. I remember having these > experiences when I was maybe 3 or less years old, when my mother would > put me down for a nap. Sometimes the voice is familiar, or not. > Sometimes they make sense, but do not seem to mean much, and sometimes > its gibberish. I have always been fascinated by the healing power within > us all, the mind/body connection, the healing power of touch. Ive been > interested in " the paranormal " since I was 8 or 9 years old. I am now 27 > on the 10th of this month. > > I would have never dreamed of likening it to enlightenment or spiritual > awakening, but at the end of last year and the beginning of this one, I > suddenly became overwhelmed with anxiety, panic attacks, butterflies in > my stomach, intense nervoucness, adrenaline rushes, period of extreme > hot and cold within a small amount of time, something that felt like > cold electric charges going up and down my arms and legs. Obsessive > worry... IBS-like symptoms due to the anxiety, and complete loss of > appetite. It was awful, and do not know what triggered it, as nothing > even had to be wrong. I did lose my ex boyfriend two years ago of a drug > overdose, and I was starting to think that perhaps suppressed grief was > causing this. I have since sought out a psychiatrist and have that under > control. I do not use tranquilizers, however. I have also been afflicted > with unexplained, horrible neck pain since I turned 26, it seems like. I > thought it was due to the way I slept and it would subside, but then it > started happening with a simple turn of the head while awake. These > usually last for a few days, and sometimes happen one after another. > > Wow, how I have blabbed on, but perhaps beginning in April, I became > active in and just being able to discuss these things is so > much more helpful, and it seems rare when one meets folks in their lives > they can connect on these things with. Since that time, I have felt so > much more understanding, and non-judgmental. I have lost a considerable > amount of my death anxiety/fear of my own mortality and what it feels > like to die. I feel like I have grown so much in the spiritual sense. > > A lot of what I mentioned above can describe so much more, such as > physical illness, mental illness, or just my imagination, but since > reading this article, I have been inspired to share this with you all. I > am always asking questions, and seeking answers and opinions. > > I look forward to learning more. I will also be uploading a photo of > myself in the picture section so you folks and put a face with the name. > > > Amanda > > , " chrism " > <@> wrote: > > > > > > What is Kundalini? > > > > Kundalini is a subtle energy and consciousness that is said (in > > Yogic and Tantric scriptures) to be coiled at the base of the spine > > 3 1/2 times, holding our system in stasis during our lives. If it > > uncoils and awakens, either through spiritual practices, breathing > > practices, near-death experiences or by other means, it moves upward > > through the sushumna, a subtle energy field which follows the spine, > > opening chakras and brain centers and changing the way the body > > feels and the quality of awareness. This upward movement may be > > sudden or it may be gradual over weeks and months and even years or > > lifetimes. This awakening is also acknowledged under other names in > > many other spiritual traditions, including Taoism, Tantric Buddhism, > > Gnostic mystical traditions, and some Native American practices. In > > some cases the energy awakening flows through channels other than > > sushumna, triggering a wide range of phenomena, either positive or > > negative. > > > > Kundalini awakening brings about great changes in the psyche, the > > body and the spiritual capacity of the one who experiences it. > > Depending on the intensity of the experience, and the channels > > through which it moves in our bodies, many phenomena may occur. The > > person who has a sudden awakening needs a context and understanding > > of this experience, because it may cause an eruption of energy > > (involuntary movements, jerking, vibrations), psychic phenomena > > (precognition, visions, inner sounds), altered states of > > consciousness (out-of-body experience, other-life recall, states of > > ecstasy or unitive consciousness or a sense of a void -- a sense of > > limitlessness), psychological difficulties, and many physical > > manifestations (heat, energy problems, eating and sleeping > > difficulties, heart sensations, pains, stomach problems and other > > conditions.) > > > > Kundalini awakening offers a profound opportunity for those who are > > called to follow a spiritual path. It can also lead to sudden > > expansion of creativity and intelligence, emotional depth, and a > > call to service in the world. Ultimately it is an invitation to > > release all the patterns and delusions about your personal identity > > and realize the essence of your existence, or the Self (also known > > as the non-Self in Buddhist traditions.) Because everyone enters > > this process with a unique history and set of habits and beliefs, > > there can be much variation in how we adjust to the changes and the > > insights that follow a spiritual awakening. It is threatening to the > > ego-structure and frightening for many to feel a loss of boundaries, > > or experience a fragmenting of the sense of personal control. But > > the energy and consciousness that awakens in us can lead us directly > > into a profound understanding of who we are, when it is well > > supported. Ultimately life becomes more open and free, more > > acceptable as it is, more loving and compassionate. You become > > grounded in the Truth. > > > > Like any energy of creation (prana, electricity, atoms) this energy > > can be activated and misused by people who seek only power and do > > not follow a spiritual motivation. Many teachers with activated > > kundalini energy have not reached the full potential of this > > process, and are therefore not free of personal drives and negative > > intentions. You can recognize a teacher who has completed this path > > successfully by the measure of understanding, wisdom, love and > > selfless service they demonstrate. A fully awakened teacher has no > > hunger for personal gain or recognition and will always encourage > > you to honor the guru within. Such people's lives are marked by > > simplicity and presence. > > > > > > How Does Kundalini Awaken? > > > > The initial arising of kundalini energy is often part of some > > intense and concentrated experience This may be in a spiritual > > practice using energy manipulation, or meditation, but it also can > > happen in response to an intense challenge such as a near-death > > experience, a meeting with a teacher who has awakened energy, a > > beating or other traumatic event, a powerful sexual encounter, an > > overwhelming emotional experience, or extreme anxiety. In some cases > > it has awakened during childbirth. In others it seemed to awaken > > spontaneously, with no obvious cause, while sleeping at night, and > > even following an initiation in a dream. > > > > Kundalini is a sanscrit word for the primal energy of consciousness, > > and could be considered the life force. It is said by yogis to set > > the energy field of the subtle body and chakras into motion, and > > then curl 3 ½ times at the base of the spineand hold the body in > > stasis through our lives, until it unwinds and leaves the body at > > death. > > > > While it is coiled the energy we can feel flowing in our bodies is > > called prana, chi or ki in various eastern traditions, and sometimes > > bio-energy in the West. When the residual coiled energy unwinds as a > > result of spiritual practices it is called kundalini. Its function > > appears to be the deconstruction of the personal identity, and the > > clearing and restructuring of our interior space so that > > consciousness can flow more freely, without attaching to all the > > held patterns of our personal conditioning. > > > > Since as the energy arises we may experience many phenomena, > > (sometimes including the opening of abilities to heal, or psychic > > abilities, or the experience of bliss, or the freeing of the voice > > or creativity so we become more expressive in the world), some > > people have associated this energy with gaining powers, called > > siddhis in yoga and tantric traditions. But every tradition warns > > against becoming attached to any of these phenomena, saying it will > > deter us from the original function of the process, which is to > > bring us into self-realization. > > > > There are gradual schools of training in yogic and tantric > > traditions which use breathing, energy and concentration to prepare > > the body, balance the major energy flows in the body, strengthen the > > body organs, and in time, activate kundalini through specific > > practices. They generally require strict dietary rules, disciplined > > practice, a non-stressed and simple lifestyle, and often celibacy, > > in order to have optimum potential for this awakening to occur and > > progress smoothly. When this happens the gradual progression of the > > energy from the base of the spine through the crown chakra leads to > > a releasing of various contractions in the energy body, and finally > > to an experience of merging into unitive consciousness. Usually this > > is a temporary condition, and in time the person returns to their > > ordinary orientation, but always knowing themselves to be part of > > this unitive whole. > > > > People can also activate kundalini during or following an experience > > of self-realization. In the non-dual traditions such as Zen Buddhism > > or Advaita Vedanta, the teachings and the transmission of an > > awakened teacher are considered the method to awakening, rather than > > working with the energy field of the subtle body. Consciousness > > itself suddenly shifts from identification as the separate person, > > into a glimpse, or even a lengthy period of knowing itself as pure > > consciousness or awareness, without attachment to the body/mind or > > any other object. When the person returns to their ordinary > > orientation they may feel greatly changed, slightly disoriented, and > > may find new energy flows in their body that are unfamiliar and > > disarming. The clearing process in such cases happens after the > > initial awakening, preparing one in time for a permanent state of > > realization. > > > > If a student is with a teacher or mentor who has experienced this > > journey they may receive guidance that helps them make appropriate > > adjustments along the way, so that the changes they are experiencing > > are not so frightening. Simply having the context of a spiritual > > intention in one's life, and understanding that energy changes are > > part of this, can be an enormous support in the process. > > > > However, many people who have never known a practice or a teacher > > have spontaneous awakenings. These may occur in conditions related > > to trauma, body therapy, breathwork, deeply devoted prayer, yoga > > practices, martial arts, meditation programs that do not explain the > > phenomena of energy, metaphysical programs that manipulate > > consciousness, therapies that include deep penetration into > > alternate states of consciousness, recreational drug use, automobile > > accidents, and even intense biofeedback sessions. In a few cases it > > appears someone has had this energy awakened since birth, When > > unusual energy and consciousness shifts occur in someone who has no > > context for them it often raises anxiety, and this makes the process > > more contracted and uncomfortable. People may fear for their sanity > > and even their lives. Doctors frequently are unable to understand or > > diagnose this situation because it is out of the paradigm of their > > training. If during this process they continue to use recreational > > drugs, use alcohol, work long and stressful hours, have stressful > > relationships, or do more intense energy practices they may find the > > kundalini process is very uncomfortable, painful, and feels more > > like a punishment than a freedom. If they misinterpret the event as > > something that is dangerous or evil, or shouldn't be happening, > > their anxiety can greatly intensify the difficulties. > > > > There are many myths about spiritual awakening, the most difficult > > being that it should only happen to saintly people. This is clearly > > not the case. It is an interior phenomena of energy and > > consciousness that supports the realizing of our true nature, of our > > roots, and is a potential for all humans. Many great mystics and > > sages did not live exemplary lives before their awakening. It > > appears to happen both in those who have strong intention and in > > those who have never even heard of such a thing. It is as if the > > collective numinous consciousness itself finds a moment in which it > > can awaken our bodies and minds, and stimulate us to turn inward, in > > order to discover what we were before we took on all the roles and > > concepts and emotions of a human life, and what we are now, > > underneath all these garments of separate identity. To awaken all > > the way to the Truth is to know the source of our life, and directly > > feel it living through us. To reach this state the interior energies > > start to move in new ways, breaking old stuck patterns in our cells > > and our psyches, opening the belly and the heart to vulnerability > > and presence, opening the throat to new expression that is free of > > self-consciousness, and opening the mind to clarity and stillness. > > This takes some time, usually years, and this is why one is said to > > be in a kundalini process. > > > > 7 Categories of Phenomena Experienced in the Kundalini Process > > > > 1. Pranic Activity or Kriyas: > > These are intense involuntary body movements, shaking, vibrations, > > jerking, and the sensation of electricity, tingling, or rushes of > > energy flooding the body. > > > > 2. Yogic Phenomena: > > Body involuntary performs yogic postures (asanas) or hand movements > > (mudras) that the subject has never before seen, and the psyche may > > produce symbolic images, or the sound of chanting, Sanscrit words, > > tones or a variety of specific sounds such as bees buzzing, or > > kettle drums beating. Some people spontaneously create and enter > > into a ritual. > > > > 3. Physiological Problems: > > Activation of latent illness or pseudo illness, apparent heart > > problems, gastrointestinal disorders, nervous energy and hyper- > > activity, eating disorders, dramatic rushes of heat and cold, pains > > occurring in back, head, stomach, or big toes. These and other > > difficulties are atypical and usually prove difficult to diagnose > > and treat because they are not consistent with known illness and > > they come and go spontaneously. > > > > 4. Psychological and Emotional Upheavals: > > Intensification of unresolved psychological issues, fear of death or > > insanity, mood swings, overwhelming waves of anxiety, anger, guilt > > or depression which may feel unrelated to any personal issues, waves > > of compassion, unconditional love, and heightened sensitivity to the > > moods of others. > > > > 5. Extrasensory Experiences: > > Visual input (i.e. lights, symbols, images of entities, the > > reviewing of other lives, visions); auditory input (i.e. hearing a > > voice, music or phrase); or olfactory input (i.e. smelling > > sandlewood, perfume or incense). > > > > 6. Parapsychological Experiences: > > Psychic awareness, unusual synchronicities, healing abilities, > > seeing or feeling auras, channeling, electrical sensitivity and > > psychokinesis are the most commonly reported occult phenomena. > > Sometimes there is dramatically awakened creativity. > > > > 7. Samadhi or Satori Experiences: > > The absorption of consciousness into mystical states of unity, > > peace, light or energy, sometimes with a clear perception of > > existential truths; or a profound sense of I am that or This pure > > and open consciousness with no identity is what I truly am. There > > may be less intense levels of trance-like states which bring peace, > > joy, waves of bliss. These may occur during meditation, or after > > meditation, or spontaneously at other times. > > > > Please note: Any of these phenomena can occur independent of a > > kundalini awakening for various reasons. Particularly if there are > > intense physiological issues a medical evaluation should be made to > > rule out illness or neurological disorder. But if a person has had a > > dramatic initiating event of energy arising, and this is followed > > over time with experiences from several of these categories it is > > probably a kundalini process. > > Derived from Energies of Transformation: A Guide to the Kundalini > > Process. > > > > 10 Things You Can Do to Help Your Kundalini Process > > > > Kundalini awakening, whether it occurs within a traditional > > spiritual discipline or spontaneously, brings challenges for many > > people. It is as if your system has been amped up from 110 to 220 > > wiring and you, as the appliance, have not yet adapted to it. It is > > exceedingly rare for an awakening to be complete before many months > > and years of clearing have occurred. This energy of life force, > > often depicted as a goddess, has a goal of bringing you to a > > complete rest in the universal Self, or the Non-self (not a personal > > self),or what has been called the peace that passeth understanding. > > As this happens the self-identifications, beliefs and illusions > > related to the existing personality are undermined and eventually > > dissolve. You may feel you no longer have a place to stand in the > > world. You are moving toward standing in the vastness of the whole. > > > > This clearing has been called a purification process, or in Hindu > > terms it is the release of samscaras and vrittis. Samscaras are all > > the conditions brought into this unique life to be played out from > > previous lives, but could also be considered the consequence of > > effects in the present life. Vrittis are all the movements of mind > > and thought, which pester us like flies buzzing in the house hoping > > to be made into pets. Many spiritual practices exist for the purpose > > of calming and overcoming the activity of vrittis. > > > > Because we are spirit imbedded in a physical body all of the cells > > of our bodies are like parts of a hologram, containing the memories > > of whatever has happened to us. So it happens that as the energies > > that hope to transform us move through the body any areas where > > energy, pain, memory or contractions are stored will react. This is > > what we are feeling when there are pains, jerking movements, heat, > > vibrations, rushes and other phenomena during and following a > > kundalini arising. Many people have associated some of these > > movements with opening the chakras, which is just another model for > > saying that as contraction releases new possibilities emerge. People > > carry their pain in different ways, just as we live our lives in > > different ways, and so there can be a wide variety of responses to > > this movement of energy, or clearing process. If there are physical > > problems from an old injury it may be especially sensitive. If our > > diet has been unhealthy or our lifestyle causes us to live where > > there is toxic emotional energy, this can leave us more vulnerable > > to difficulties. If there has been abuse of any kind, or there is a > > history of alcoholism or drug-use, the body may be especially > > challenged by this awakening, which is trying to clear it of the > > past memories and experiences that we are identified with. If there > > is a tendency of the personality to contract and a strong desire for > > control the process can be very difficult because of our resistance > > to it. There is an old saying that " What one resists, persists. " > > > > For these and other reasons these are a few guidelines that can help > > you move through this experience and find inner peace. > > > > 1. The energy may feel coarse and intense at times. But it is rarely > > painful. Usually it is the fear and the attempt to stop it that > > causes pain. If you are having lots of body movement, lay down once > > or twice a day on the bed, and invite the energy to move through you > > and clear out whatever doesn't belong to you, and whatever is in > > your best interest to release at that moment. Usually it will run > > for a few minutes -- maybe up to 20 -- and then stop, and you will > > feel more relaxed. You especially need to do this if you work in an > > environment where you may be picking up negative energy or the pain > > of others such as healing or therapeutic work, or in places where > > there is a lot of alcohol use, or in hospitals. If you are having > > persistent physical pain in this process you should have a medical > > evaluation. > > > > 2. Discover what your body really wants to eat. Often people need to > > make major dietary changes such as giving up alcohol and > > recreational drug use, avoiding red meat, eating smaller and more > > simple meals. If you have a persistent problem with kundalini do > > detective work to see what is happening when the problem arises. How > > long since you ate and what did you eat? Would a small piece of > > bread calm it down? Perhaps chamomile or burdock root tea? Do you > > need more protein? Yogis recommend sometimes a mix of warm milk with > > sugar in it (not honey, which raises heat). Another option is to > > have a good analysis done with an Ayurvedic practitioner, who can > > assess your body type and balance, and recommend the optimal diet > > and herbs for you. There is much variation in what people need to > > do, and sometimes people have long periods with no appetite at all, > > or long periods with a voracious appetite. Usually a diet focused on > > rice and vegetables is most useful, but proteins are also important. > > I tend not to eat much meat so I take a powdered protein and mineral > > supplement in juice every day and it makes a great difference in how > > I feel. Be good to yourself. > > > > 3. Focus more in the heart and the belly than in the head. Look for > > practices that center you more deeply into the present moment. A > > devotional practice such as chanting or doing a heart-centered > > meditation can help the energy open you to an experience of the > > deeper part of yourself, the eternal part, and can also help it move > > outward into more loving connections with others, or a tendency > > toward service or creative expression, all of which keeps the > > awakening more balanced. If you have a divine image ( a god, > > goddess, spiritual teacher, saint, symbol) that is comforting to you > > use it as an ally during this time, talking to him or her or it and > > asking for support, or bringing light around yourself. These are > > powerful archetypal energies that help the psyche when it is moving > > through challenging changes. > > > > 4. Do something to help your body be more open such as yoga, Tai > > Chi, dance, acupressure, movement processes, long walks in nature, > > or whatever you are drawn to. If you don't know what is best for you > > try several things and stick with what feels the best. The physical > > body is the vehicle that will carry and ground your spirit, your > > awakening, in the end. No better how deep your realization you will > > ultimately be living in a human body for a few more years. The > > better it is cared for the more options you have to express > > realization when it occurs. Of course, a person who is weak or dying > > can also be a beautiful and complete expression of the Divine, and > > poor health does not preclude enlightenment. Those who have set with > > people who are dying have seen that as attachment to the body lets > > go more and more light shines through. But this should not be > > misconstrued to advocate a harsh ascetism. While we are living, > > having an open and flexible body accomplishes the same thing with a > > lot less pain and distraction. Making the body " disciplined " by over- > > doing exercise is not of any use either. Find a middle way, where > > your body is in harmony with your spirit. > > > > 5. Wake up each day expecting not to know what will happen, and > > looking with curiosity for the events to unfold. Instead of worrying > > and controlling, simply be present to whatever arises with the > > intention of meeting it with your best effort. Whatever happens in > > the process of spiritual awakening will be unpredictable and will > > move on, if you are simply the one noticing it, and not doing battle > > or making a big project out of it. > > > > 6. You may have emotional swings, energetic swings, psychic > > openings, and other undesired shifts that feel unfamiliar to your > > personality as you knew it. Be the observer. Don't feel you have to > > fix or change anything. It will pass. > > > > 7. If you have serious trauma in your history and have never had > > therapy it could be very useful in releasing the pains of the > > memories that come up around the events. I have noticed that people > > who had good therapy before their spiritual awakenings often have > > much less difficulty. Therapy teaches you to express, to witness, to > > release and to move on. Your therapist does not have to know much > > about kundalini as long as he or she does not discount that part of > > your process. What you want to focus on is releasing issues related > > to the trauma, and you want a therapist that is experienced and > > compassionate and sees your spiritual orientation as a motivation > > and a support for the process of healing. > > > > 8. This process is your opportunity to wake up to your true nature. > > Some people wake up first, and then experience a kundalini arising; > > others have the kundalini process moving through as a preparation > > for the arising. The arising occurs to do the clearing out work so > > is part of either model. Waking up means the realization that the > > one who is looking through your eyes, living through your senses, > > hearing your thoughts and being present in every moment of your > > experience, good or bad, is recognized or remembered. This is a > > bright, aware detached and unconditionally loving presence that is > > universal and eternal and it is completely free of all the > > conditions and memories that you associate with as a personal > > identity. But as long as you believe in all your personal conditions > > and stories, emotions and thoughts, it has to experience life > > filtered through them. This conditioned mind is what brings variety > > and drama to the game of life, but it also causes suffering and fear > > of death. We glimpse the Truth about the deep expansive silence that > > is the ground of our being when we are in Samadhi and Satori > > experiences. The early Gnostics called it gnosis (knowledge) or the > > One. Some spiritual teachings such as Advaita Vedanta and Zen go > > directly for the realization, while others see it as a gradual path > > accomplished through years of spiritual practices. Either way the > > end is the same. When you know who you are the world becomes as > > Shakespeare said, a stage, and you the player, and life is more > > light and thoughts less intrusive, and the kundalini process settles > > down into a mellow pleasantness. > > > > 9. Give up going places and being with people who cause you pain. > > Sometimes people seem to be more acutely sensitive when kundalini > > arises. They can't tolerate the energy of large discount warehouses, > > or smoky nightclubs, or the kind of family gatherings that are tense > > and competitive. It's okay to take care of yourself and find more > > quiet time, more intimate friends, and even a new job, if the old > > one is overly stressful. Don't feel you have to prove anything by > > forcing yourself to be someone you aren't. Rediscover what is > > comfortable naturally for you to do and to be. Live more > > authentically. In this process you may also find a new creative > > urge, which is a wonderful opportunity to express what is happening. > > Draw, write, dance, work with clay, paint, garden -- all of these > > are great ways of nurturing yourself through the deep psychic > > changes you are experiencing. > > > > 10. Find an awakened teacher to hang out with. For many people with > > spiritual awakenings meditation is an intrinsic part of their lives. > > An awakened teacher will bring you a transmission of peace, and an > > opportunity to sit deeply in the silence of your true nature. An > > awakened teacher can be of any spiritual persuasion or none, can > > understand kundalini or not be interested in it, and will > > demonstrate tolerance and compassion for all who pass their way. > > When you learn from them the art of sitting and just being, you will > > find the cure for all the suffering of life. In time all the > > activity of the mind and complaints of the body fall away, and there > > is a deep understanding and love that arises, which brings a sense > > of completion, openness, freshness and invitation to the expression > > of the greater Self. When awakening is complete, there is no > > question it has been the whole purpose of your life. Where it will > > take you there is no way to know, and there is no one to care > > either. We surrender to the dance, knowing it is a dream. > > > Quote
Guest guest Posted October 4, 2007 Report Posted October 4, 2007 Wow, sounds bad, Emona. Thank you for sharing your story, also. I have always been a bit OCD, but wouldnt it be nice to blame all of our issues on kundalini? Who knows! I can't know for sure, because the anxiety stuff occurred before I started really expanding spiritually and it is in the family; lucky me. The tv experience seems odd, but I have to look away during stobe-type things because it really flips my eyes out. I dont even want to know if I would have a seizure if I stared long enough. <3 Amanda ---- Original Message ---- fjspefj RE: Re: A Little About Me - Amanda Thu, 04 Oct 2007 13:12:09 -0000 >Hi, Amanda! > >Thank you for sharing your story with us! Some of it happened to me >too, and I wonder what would it be without finding others that have >lived through it and are willing to share it! > >Last autumn I had extreme agoraphobia (to the extend that I was >afraid to look out from the window), depressive and maniac episodes, >OCD, anxiety, palpitations and panic attacks, hallucinations, and >something that I called 'tv allergy', but somebody told me it could >be >photosensitive epileptic fit - while watching tv, I started to feel >blissful sensations in my head, then I used to see brightly coloured >visions spilling and possessing almost all of my field of vision, >making me feel light-headed and nauseatic, then starting to feel very >anxious, I felt pressure in my chest and loss of breath, losing >sensitiveness in my body, and at the end it used to feel a lot like >dying. >At the time I didn't know what Kundalini was, but now I feel better, >and I'm sure I won't be afraid if my 'tv allergy' happens again. I'm >sure that I won't die, I know it won't kill me. And since I found out >about Kundalini accidentally, I'm really grateful for being here so >lucky! > >Much Love, > >Emona > > > > , " Amanda " ><mi5anthr0pe wrote: >> >> Claudia was kind enough to send me this post from the other day >since I >> just missed it. I have to say I am fascinated, and many things >described >> in this piece are very familiar to me, and I have also read that >the >> more you learn, or want to know, the more that will open up to you. >When >> I joined a few Near death experience groups, some of the posts >really >> rang true within me; most of them actually. Ive met a lot of >amazing >> people with experiences that they are willing to share. Just in >that >> time, probably April of this year, so much has opened up to me. Ive >> learned to live more in the " now " , Ive been aware of everything >around >> me, when most seem to disregard their surroundings, Ive learned to >quiet >> my mind, Ive exceeded my visualization skills, my dream recall, and >my >> understanding of our true selves and of our egos and how they are a >tool >> used to utilize the world around us, but are not supposed to rule >us. >> >> In that time, I have had interesting visions (and I saw that in >terms of >> visualizations I get within my mind and inside of my eyelids), I >have >> seen spots of light spontaneously flash (Ive recently had an >extensive >> eye episode meaning Ive gone to a specialist because one eyeglass >doctor >> thought my optic nerves looked enlarged, everything is fine >though), >> within the last few days, Ive seen these spots flash and move. Its >all >> very quick and I can never catch it dead on. >> >> Ive been able to kinda zone out or completely relax my body and >hear >> snippets of conversation, laughter, bells, or a windy sound. Its as >if >> my physical hearing silences out the noise or empty air around me, >and >> plays its own noise somewhere in my mind. I remember having these >> experiences when I was maybe 3 or less years old, when my mother >would >> put me down for a nap. Sometimes the voice is familiar, or not. >> Sometimes they make sense, but do not seem to mean much, and >sometimes >> its gibberish. I have always been fascinated by the healing power >within >> us all, the mind/body connection, the healing power of touch. Ive >been >> interested in " the paranormal " since I was 8 or 9 years old. I am >now 27 >> on the 10th of this month. >> >> I would have never dreamed of likening it to enlightenment or >spiritual >> awakening, but at the end of last year and the beginning of this >one, I >> suddenly became overwhelmed with anxiety, panic attacks, >butterflies in >> my stomach, intense nervoucness, adrenaline rushes, period of >extreme >> hot and cold within a small amount of time, something that felt >like >> cold electric charges going up and down my arms and legs. Obsessive >> worry... IBS-like symptoms due to the anxiety, and complete loss of >> appetite. It was awful, and do not know what triggered it, as >nothing >> even had to be wrong. I did lose my ex boyfriend two years ago of a >drug >> overdose, and I was starting to think that perhaps suppressed grief >was >> causing this. I have since sought out a psychiatrist and have that >under >> control. I do not use tranquilizers, however. I have also been >afflicted >> with unexplained, horrible neck pain since I turned 26, it seems >like. I >> thought it was due to the way I slept and it would subside, but >then it >> started happening with a simple turn of the head while awake. These >> usually last for a few days, and sometimes happen one after >another. >> >> Wow, how I have blabbed on, but perhaps beginning in April, I >became >> active in and just being able to discuss these things >is so >> much more helpful, and it seems rare when one meets folks in their >lives >> they can connect on these things with. Since that time, I have felt >so >> much more understanding, and non-judgmental. I have lost a >considerable >> amount of my death anxiety/fear of my own mortality and what it >feels >> like to die. I feel like I have grown so much in the spiritual >sense. >> >> A lot of what I mentioned above can describe so much more, such as >> physical illness, mental illness, or just my imagination, but since >> reading this article, I have been inspired to share this with you >all. I >> am always asking questions, and seeking answers and opinions. >> >> I look forward to learning more. I will also be uploading a photo >of >> myself in the picture section so you folks and put a face with the >name. >> >> >> Amanda >> >> , " chrism " >> <@> wrote: >> > >> > >> > What is Kundalini? >> > >> > Kundalini is a subtle energy and consciousness that is said (in >> > Yogic and Tantric scriptures) to be coiled at the base of the >spine >> > 3 1/2 times, holding our system in stasis during our lives. If it >> > uncoils and awakens, either through spiritual practices, >breathing >> > practices, near-death experiences or by other means, it moves >upward >> > through the sushumna, a subtle energy field which follows the >spine, >> > opening chakras and brain centers and changing the way the body >> > feels and the quality of awareness. This upward movement may be >> > sudden or it may be gradual over weeks and months and even years >or >> > lifetimes. This awakening is also acknowledged under other names >in >> > many other spiritual traditions, including Taoism, Tantric >Buddhism, >> > Gnostic mystical traditions, and some Native American practices. >In >> > some cases the energy awakening flows through channels other than >> > sushumna, triggering a wide range of phenomena, either positive >or >> > negative. >> > >> > Kundalini awakening brings about great changes in the psyche, the >> > body and the spiritual capacity of the one who experiences it. >> > Depending on the intensity of the experience, and the channels >> > through which it moves in our bodies, many phenomena may occur. >The >> > person who has a sudden awakening needs a context and >understanding >> > of this experience, because it may cause an eruption of energy >> > (involuntary movements, jerking, vibrations), psychic phenomena >> > (precognition, visions, inner sounds), altered states of >> > consciousness (out-of-body experience, other-life recall, states >of >> > ecstasy or unitive consciousness or a sense of a void -- a sense >of >> > limitlessness), psychological difficulties, and many physical >> > manifestations (heat, energy problems, eating and sleeping >> > difficulties, heart sensations, pains, stomach problems and other >> > conditions.) >> > >> > Kundalini awakening offers a profound opportunity for those who >are >> > called to follow a spiritual path. It can also lead to sudden >> > expansion of creativity and intelligence, emotional depth, and a >> > call to service in the world. Ultimately it is an invitation to >> > release all the patterns and delusions about your personal >identity >> > and realize the essence of your existence, or the Self (also >known >> > as the non-Self in Buddhist traditions.) Because everyone enters >> > this process with a unique history and set of habits and beliefs, >> > there can be much variation in how we adjust to the changes and >the >> > insights that follow a spiritual awakening. It is threatening to >the >> > ego-structure and frightening for many to feel a loss of >boundaries, >> > or experience a fragmenting of the sense of personal control. But >> > the energy and consciousness that awakens in us can lead us >directly >> > into a profound understanding of who we are, when it is well >> > supported. Ultimately life becomes more open and free, more >> > acceptable as it is, more loving and compassionate. You become >> > grounded in the Truth. >> > >> > Like any energy of creation (prana, electricity, atoms) this >energy >> > can be activated and misused by people who seek only power and do >> > not follow a spiritual motivation. Many teachers with activated >> > kundalini energy have not reached the full potential of this >> > process, and are therefore not free of personal drives and >negative >> > intentions. You can recognize a teacher who has completed this >path >> > successfully by the measure of understanding, wisdom, love and >> > selfless service they demonstrate. A fully awakened teacher has >no >> > hunger for personal gain or recognition and will always encourage >> > you to honor the guru within. Such people's lives are marked by >> > simplicity and presence. >> > >> > >> > How Does Kundalini Awaken? >> > >> > The initial arising of kundalini energy is often part of some >> > intense and concentrated experience This may be in a spiritual >> > practice using energy manipulation, or meditation, but it also >can >> > happen in response to an intense challenge such as a near-death >> > experience, a meeting with a teacher who has awakened energy, a >> > beating or other traumatic event, a powerful sexual encounter, an >> > overwhelming emotional experience, or extreme anxiety. In some >cases >> > it has awakened during childbirth. In others it seemed to awaken >> > spontaneously, with no obvious cause, while sleeping at night, >and >> > even following an initiation in a dream. >> > >> > Kundalini is a sanscrit word for the primal energy of >consciousness, >> > and could be considered the life force. It is said by yogis to >set >> > the energy field of the subtle body and chakras into motion, and >> > then curl 3 ½ times at the base of the spineand hold the body in >> > stasis through our lives, until it unwinds and leaves the body at >> > death. >> > >> > While it is coiled the energy we can feel flowing in our bodies >is >> > called prana, chi or ki in various eastern traditions, and >sometimes >> > bio-energy in the West. When the residual coiled energy unwinds >as a >> > result of spiritual practices it is called kundalini. Its >function >> > appears to be the deconstruction of the personal identity, and >the >> > clearing and restructuring of our interior space so that >> > consciousness can flow more freely, without attaching to all the >> > held patterns of our personal conditioning. >> > >> > Since as the energy arises we may experience many phenomena, >> > (sometimes including the opening of abilities to heal, or psychic >> > abilities, or the experience of bliss, or the freeing of the >voice >> > or creativity so we become more expressive in the world), some >> > people have associated this energy with gaining powers, called >> > siddhis in yoga and tantric traditions. But every tradition warns >> > against becoming attached to any of these phenomena, saying it >will >> > deter us from the original function of the process, which is to >> > bring us into self-realization. >> > >> > There are gradual schools of training in yogic and tantric >> > traditions which use breathing, energy and concentration to >prepare >> > the body, balance the major energy flows in the body, strengthen >the >> > body organs, and in time, activate kundalini through specific >> > practices. They generally require strict dietary rules, >disciplined >> > practice, a non-stressed and simple lifestyle, and often >celibacy, >> > in order to have optimum potential for this awakening to occur >and >> > progress smoothly. When this happens the gradual progression of >the >> > energy from the base of the spine through the crown chakra leads >to >> > a releasing of various contractions in the energy body, and >finally >> > to an experience of merging into unitive consciousness. Usually >this >> > is a temporary condition, and in time the person returns to their >> > ordinary orientation, but always knowing themselves to be part of >> > this unitive whole. >> > >> > People can also activate kundalini during or following an >experience >> > of self-realization. In the non-dual traditions such as Zen >Buddhism >> > or Advaita Vedanta, the teachings and the transmission of an >> > awakened teacher are considered the method to awakening, rather >than >> > working with the energy field of the subtle body. Consciousness >> > itself suddenly shifts from identification as the separate >person, >> > into a glimpse, or even a lengthy period of knowing itself as >pure >> > consciousness or awareness, without attachment to the body/mind >or >> > any other object. When the person returns to their ordinary >> > orientation they may feel greatly changed, slightly disoriented, >and >> > may find new energy flows in their body that are unfamiliar and >> > disarming. The clearing process in such cases happens after the >> > initial awakening, preparing one in time for a permanent state of >> > realization. >> > >> > If a student is with a teacher or mentor who has experienced this >> > journey they may receive guidance that helps them make >appropriate >> > adjustments along the way, so that the changes they are >experiencing >> > are not so frightening. Simply having the context of a spiritual >> > intention in one's life, and understanding that energy changes >are >> > part of this, can be an enormous support in the process. >> > >> > However, many people who have never known a practice or a teacher >> > have spontaneous awakenings. These may occur in conditions >related >> > to trauma, body therapy, breathwork, deeply devoted prayer, yoga >> > practices, martial arts, meditation programs that do not explain >the >> > phenomena of energy, metaphysical programs that manipulate >> > consciousness, therapies that include deep penetration into >> > alternate states of consciousness, recreational drug use, >automobile >> > accidents, and even intense biofeedback sessions. In a few cases >it >> > appears someone has had this energy awakened since birth, When >> > unusual energy and consciousness shifts occur in someone who has >no >> > context for them it often raises anxiety, and this makes the >process >> > more contracted and uncomfortable. People may fear for their >sanity >> > and even their lives. Doctors frequently are unable to understand >or >> > diagnose this situation because it is out of the paradigm of >their >> > training. If during this process they continue to use >recreational >> > drugs, use alcohol, work long and stressful hours, have stressful >> > relationships, or do more intense energy practices they may find >the >> > kundalini process is very uncomfortable, painful, and feels more >> > like a punishment than a freedom. If they misinterpret the event >as >> > something that is dangerous or evil, or shouldn't be happening, >> > their anxiety can greatly intensify the difficulties. >> > >> > There are many myths about spiritual awakening, the most >difficult >> > being that it should only happen to saintly people. This is >clearly >> > not the case. It is an interior phenomena of energy and >> > consciousness that supports the realizing of our true nature, of >our >> > roots, and is a potential for all humans. Many great mystics and >> > sages did not live exemplary lives before their awakening. It >> > appears to happen both in those who have strong intention and in >> > those who have never even heard of such a thing. It is as if the >> > collective numinous consciousness itself finds a moment in which >it >> > can awaken our bodies and minds, and stimulate us to turn inward, >in >> > order to discover what we were before we took on all the roles >and >> > concepts and emotions of a human life, and what we are now, >> > underneath all these garments of separate identity. To awaken all >> > the way to the Truth is to know the source of our life, and >directly >> > feel it living through us. To reach this state the interior >energies >> > start to move in new ways, breaking old stuck patterns in our >cells >> > and our psyches, opening the belly and the heart to vulnerability >> > and presence, opening the throat to new expression that is free >of >> > self-consciousness, and opening the mind to clarity and >stillness. >> > This takes some time, usually years, and this is why one is said >to >> > be in a kundalini process. >> > >> > 7 Categories of Phenomena Experienced in the Kundalini Process >> > >> > 1. Pranic Activity or Kriyas: >> > These are intense involuntary body movements, shaking, >vibrations, >> > jerking, and the sensation of electricity, tingling, or rushes of >> > energy flooding the body. >> > >> > 2. Yogic Phenomena: >> > Body involuntary performs yogic postures (asanas) or hand >movements >> > (mudras) that the subject has never before seen, and the psyche >may >> > produce symbolic images, or the sound of chanting, Sanscrit >words, >> > tones or a variety of specific sounds such as bees buzzing, or >> > kettle drums beating. Some people spontaneously create and enter >> > into a ritual. >> > >> > 3. Physiological Problems: >> > Activation of latent illness or pseudo illness, apparent heart >> > problems, gastrointestinal disorders, nervous energy and hyper- >> > activity, eating disorders, dramatic rushes of heat and cold, >pains >> > occurring in back, head, stomach, or big toes. These and other >> > difficulties are atypical and usually prove difficult to diagnose >> > and treat because they are not consistent with known illness and >> > they come and go spontaneously. >> > >> > 4. Psychological and Emotional Upheavals: >> > Intensification of unresolved psychological issues, fear of death >or >> > insanity, mood swings, overwhelming waves of anxiety, anger, >guilt >> > or depression which may feel unrelated to any personal issues, >waves >> > of compassion, unconditional love, and heightened sensitivity to >the >> > moods of others. >> > >> > 5. Extrasensory Experiences: >> > Visual input (i.e. lights, symbols, images of entities, the >> > reviewing of other lives, visions); auditory input (i.e. hearing >a >> > voice, music or phrase); or olfactory input (i.e. smelling >> > sandlewood, perfume or incense). >> > >> > 6. Parapsychological Experiences: >> > Psychic awareness, unusual synchronicities, healing abilities, >> > seeing or feeling auras, channeling, electrical sensitivity and >> > psychokinesis are the most commonly reported occult phenomena. >> > Sometimes there is dramatically awakened creativity. >> > >> > 7. Samadhi or Satori Experiences: >> > The absorption of consciousness into mystical states of unity, >> > peace, light or energy, sometimes with a clear perception of >> > existential truths; or a profound sense of I am that or This pure >> > and open consciousness with no identity is what I truly am. There >> > may be less intense levels of trance-like states which bring >peace, >> > joy, waves of bliss. These may occur during meditation, or after >> > meditation, or spontaneously at other times. >> > >> > Please note: Any of these phenomena can occur independent of a >> > kundalini awakening for various reasons. Particularly if there >are >> > intense physiological issues a medical evaluation should be made >to >> > rule out illness or neurological disorder. But if a person has >had a >> > dramatic initiating event of energy arising, and this is followed >> > over time with experiences from several of these categories it is >> > probably a kundalini process. >> > Derived from Energies of Transformation: A Guide to the Kundalini >> > Process. >> > >> > 10 Things You Can Do to Help Your Kundalini Process >> > >> > Kundalini awakening, whether it occurs within a traditional >> > spiritual discipline or spontaneously, brings challenges for many >> > people. It is as if your system has been amped up from 110 to 220 >> > wiring and you, as the appliance, have not yet adapted to it. It >is >> > exceedingly rare for an awakening to be complete before many >months >> > and years of clearing have occurred. This energy of life force, >> > often depicted as a goddess, has a goal of bringing you to a >> > complete rest in the universal Self, or the Non-self (not a >personal >> > self),or what has been called the peace that passeth >understanding. >> > As this happens the self-identifications, beliefs and illusions >> > related to the existing personality are undermined and eventually >> > dissolve. You may feel you no longer have a place to stand in the >> > world. You are moving toward standing in the vastness of the >whole. >> > >> > This clearing has been called a purification process, or in Hindu >> > terms it is the release of samscaras and vrittis. Samscaras are >all >> > the conditions brought into this unique life to be played out >from >> > previous lives, but could also be considered the consequence of >> > effects in the present life. Vrittis are all the movements of >mind >> > and thought, which pester us like flies buzzing in the house >hoping >> > to be made into pets. Many spiritual practices exist for the >purpose >> > of calming and overcoming the activity of vrittis. >> > >> > Because we are spirit imbedded in a physical body all of the >cells >> > of our bodies are like parts of a hologram, containing the >memories >> > of whatever has happened to us. So it happens that as the >energies >> > that hope to transform us move through the body any areas where >> > energy, pain, memory or contractions are stored will react. This >is >> > what we are feeling when there are pains, jerking movements, >heat, >> > vibrations, rushes and other phenomena during and following a >> > kundalini arising. Many people have associated some of these >> > movements with opening the chakras, which is just another model >for >> > saying that as contraction releases new possibilities emerge. >People >> > carry their pain in different ways, just as we live our lives in >> > different ways, and so there can be a wide variety of responses >to >> > this movement of energy, or clearing process. If there are >physical >> > problems from an old injury it may be especially sensitive. If >our >> > diet has been unhealthy or our lifestyle causes us to live where >> > there is toxic emotional energy, this can leave us more >vulnerable >> > to difficulties. If there has been abuse of any kind, or there is >a >> > history of alcoholism or drug-use, the body may be especially >> > challenged by this awakening, which is trying to clear it of the >> > past memories and experiences that we are identified with. If >there >> > is a tendency of the personality to contract and a strong desire >for >> > control the process can be very difficult because of our >resistance >> > to it. There is an old saying that " What one resists, persists. " >> > >> > For these and other reasons these are a few guidelines that can >help >> > you move through this experience and find inner peace. >> > >> > 1. The energy may feel coarse and intense at times. But it is >rarely >> > painful. Usually it is the fear and the attempt to stop it that >> > causes pain. If you are having lots of body movement, lay down >once >> > or twice a day on the bed, and invite the energy to move through >you >> > and clear out whatever doesn't belong to you, and whatever is in >> > your best interest to release at that moment. Usually it will run >> > for a few minutes -- maybe up to 20 -- and then stop, and you >will >> > feel more relaxed. You especially need to do this if you work in >an >> > environment where you may be picking up negative energy or the >pain >> > of others such as healing or therapeutic work, or in places where >> > there is a lot of alcohol use, or in hospitals. If you are having >> > persistent physical pain in this process you should have a >medical >> > evaluation. >> > >> > 2. Discover what your body really wants to eat. Often people need >to >> > make major dietary changes such as giving up alcohol and >> > recreational drug use, avoiding red meat, eating smaller and more >> > simple meals. If you have a persistent problem with kundalini do >> > detective work to see what is happening when the problem arises. >How >> > long since you ate and what did you eat? Would a small piece of >> > bread calm it down? Perhaps chamomile or burdock root tea? Do you >> > need more protein? Yogis recommend sometimes a mix of warm milk >with >> > sugar in it (not honey, which raises heat). Another option is to >> > have a good analysis done with an Ayurvedic practitioner, who can >> > assess your body type and balance, and recommend the optimal diet >> > and herbs for you. There is much variation in what people need to >> > do, and sometimes people have long periods with no appetite at >all, >> > or long periods with a voracious appetite. Usually a diet focused >on >> > rice and vegetables is most useful, but proteins are also >important. >> > I tend not to eat much meat so I take a powdered protein and >mineral >> > supplement in juice every day and it makes a great difference in >how >> > I feel. Be good to yourself. >> > >> > 3. Focus more in the heart and the belly than in the head. Look >for >> > practices that center you more deeply into the present moment. A >> > devotional practice such as chanting or doing a heart-centered >> > meditation can help the energy open you to an experience of the >> > deeper part of yourself, the eternal part, and can also help it >move >> > outward into more loving connections with others, or a tendency >> > toward service or creative expression, all of which keeps the >> > awakening more balanced. If you have a divine image ( a god, >> > goddess, spiritual teacher, saint, symbol) that is comforting to >you >> > use it as an ally during this time, talking to him or her or it >and >> > asking for support, or bringing light around yourself. These are >> > powerful archetypal energies that help the psyche when it is >moving >> > through challenging changes. >> > >> > 4. Do something to help your body be more open such as yoga, Tai >> > Chi, dance, acupressure, movement processes, long walks in >nature, >> > or whatever you are drawn to. If you don't know what is best for >you >> > try several things and stick with what feels the best. The >physical >> > body is the vehicle that will carry and ground your spirit, your >> > awakening, in the end. No better how deep your realization you >will >> > ultimately be living in a human body for a few more years. The >> > better it is cared for the more options you have to express >> > realization when it occurs. Of course, a person who is weak or >dying >> > can also be a beautiful and complete expression of the Divine, >and >> > poor health does not preclude enlightenment. Those who have set >with >> > people who are dying have seen that as attachment to the body >lets >> > go more and more light shines through. But this should not be >> > misconstrued to advocate a harsh ascetism. While we are living, >> > having an open and flexible body accomplishes the same thing with >a >> > lot less pain and distraction. Making the body " disciplined " by >over- >> > doing exercise is not of any use either. Find a middle way, where >> > your body is in harmony with your spirit. >> > >> > 5. Wake up each day expecting not to know what will happen, and >> > looking with curiosity for the events to unfold. Instead of >worrying >> > and controlling, simply be present to whatever arises with the >> > intention of meeting it with your best effort. Whatever happens >in >> > the process of spiritual awakening will be unpredictable and will >> > move on, if you are simply the one noticing it, and not doing >battle >> > or making a big project out of it. >> > >> > 6. You may have emotional swings, energetic swings, psychic >> > openings, and other undesired shifts that feel unfamiliar to your >> > personality as you knew it. Be the observer. Don't feel you have >to >> > fix or change anything. It will pass. >> > >> > 7. If you have serious trauma in your history and have never had >> > therapy it could be very useful in releasing the pains of the >> > memories that come up around the events. I have noticed that >people >> > who had good therapy before their spiritual awakenings often have >> > much less difficulty. Therapy teaches you to express, to witness, >to >> > release and to move on. Your therapist does not have to know much >> > about kundalini as long as he or she does not discount that part >of >> > your process. What you want to focus on is releasing issues >related >> > to the trauma, and you want a therapist that is experienced and >> > compassionate and sees your spiritual orientation as a motivation >> > and a support for the process of healing. >> > >> > 8. This process is your opportunity to wake up to your true >nature. >> > Some people wake up first, and then experience a kundalini >arising; >> > others have the kundalini process moving through as a preparation >> > for the arising. The arising occurs to do the clearing out work >so >> > is part of either model. Waking up means the realization that the >> > one who is looking through your eyes, living through your senses, >> > hearing your thoughts and being present in every moment of your >> > experience, good or bad, is recognized or remembered. This is a >> > bright, aware detached and unconditionally loving presence that >is >> > universal and eternal and it is completely free of all the >> > conditions and memories that you associate with as a personal >> > identity. But as long as you believe in all your personal >conditions >> > and stories, emotions and thoughts, it has to experience life >> > filtered through them. This conditioned mind is what brings >variety >> > and drama to the game of life, but it also causes suffering and >fear >> > of death. We glimpse the Truth about the deep expansive silence >that >> > is the ground of our being when we are in Samadhi and Satori >> > experiences. The early Gnostics called it gnosis (knowledge) or >the >> > One. Some spiritual teachings such as Advaita Vedanta and Zen go >> > directly for the realization, while others see it as a gradual >path >> > accomplished through years of spiritual practices. Either way the >> > end is the same. When you know who you are the world becomes as >> > Shakespeare said, a stage, and you the player, and life is more >> > light and thoughts less intrusive, and the kundalini process >settles >> > down into a mellow pleasantness. >> > >> > 9. Give up going places and being with people who cause you pain. >> > Sometimes people seem to be more acutely sensitive when kundalini >> > arises. They can't tolerate the energy of large discount >warehouses, >> > or smoky nightclubs, or the kind of family gatherings that are >tense >> > and competitive. It's okay to take care of yourself and find more >> > quiet time, more intimate friends, and even a new job, if the old >> > one is overly stressful. Don't feel you have to prove anything by >> > forcing yourself to be someone you aren't. Rediscover what is >> > comfortable naturally for you to do and to be. Live more >> > authentically. In this process you may also find a new creative >> > urge, which is a wonderful opportunity to express what is >happening. >> > Draw, write, dance, work with clay, paint, garden -- all of these >> > are great ways of nurturing yourself through the deep psychic >> > changes you are experiencing. >> > >> > 10. Find an awakened teacher to hang out with. For many people >with >> > spiritual awakenings meditation is an intrinsic part of their >lives. >> > An awakened teacher will bring you a transmission of peace, and >an >> > opportunity to sit deeply in the silence of your true nature. An >> > awakened teacher can be of any spiritual persuasion or none, can >> > understand kundalini or not be interested in it, and will >> > demonstrate tolerance and compassion for all who pass their way. >> > When you learn from them the art of sitting and just being, you >will >> > find the cure for all the suffering of life. In time all the >> > activity of the mind and complaints of the body fall away, and >there >> > is a deep understanding and love that arises, which brings a >sense >> > of completion, openness, freshness and invitation to the >expression >> > of the greater Self. When awakening is complete, there is no >> > question it has been the whole purpose of your life. Where it >will >> > take you there is no way to know, and there is no one to care >> > either. We surrender to the dance, knowing it is a dream. >> > >> > > Quote
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