update

[Guest guest]

Its nice to read your progress Richard. You are going so well. - blessings -

chrism

 

richardstuart wrote: Hi John,and others thought it might help with

another little update.

Sat/Sun/Mon/Tues i did not feel very much happening.

Yesterday were stronger radiations thro my Chakra's and spine.Warm and

pleasant,with 3 surges in quick succession.

I notice that when things are gearing up a bit my right shoulder becomes

tense,its noticeable rather than real uncomfortable.

Its become my barometer,for activity which seems to do its own thing

whenever,and where ever it wants.There are definate radiations from base chakra

each day ''mild strength'',nothing uncomfortable tho.

Temp differences are common around the shoulders both warm/cool,and again seems

to have no pattern to speak of. One place i am pleased which seems to be

becoming more sensitive is my Heart chakra both from in front and behind.

Do have some slight fatigue at times and other times good upsurges in energy.

Blessings

R..............................

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi SJ,

I have not yet reached this point in my activation and

so cannot advise about the kriyas etc, but I just

wanted to say I think you are doing really well, you

are able to examine yourself and your motives and

emotions and express them honestly. I think this is a

really positive thing.

And I just wanted you to know that you are not alone,

you are with people that care about you and your

progress

Thinking about you,

 

Inlove Elektra x x x

 

PS hug some trees please......Give them one from me.

 

 

 

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Thank you Alex. I actually did spend some time with some trees today. I sat against one put my head back and it felt like something was going through my tongue into my throat and I coughed a little. There was a slight bitter taste. Not sure what it was exactly. I'm also attracting alot of hungry insects.

 

Best to you,

 

Stephan

 

 

 

-

Elektra Fire

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 1:10 PM

Re: Update

 

 

Hi SJ,I have not yet reached this point in my activation andso cannot advise about the kriyas etc, but I justwanted to say I think you are doing really well, youare able to examine yourself and your motives andemotions and express them honestly. I think this is areally positive thing.And I just wanted you to know that you are not alone,you are with people that care about you and yourprogress :)Thinking about you,Inlove Elektra x x xPS hug some trees please......Give them one from me.________ To help you stay safe and secure online, we've developed the all new Security Centre. http://uk.security.

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It is real Dyhana. Kundalini will ebb and flow. It will do this to its own rhythm. Don't be concerned about attainment now, she is coming. Be aware of your service and your attitudes and your practice. Balance your emotions daily with forgivness and prayer. Please cross post this to the "systems 1" list if you feel comfortable -

[Guest guest]

Hi Dhyana,

 

I can understand where you are coming from, as the

feelings of the kundalini are so welcome that when

they subside you miss them and worry it's " switched

off " .

 

The K effect is addictive in some ways, I certainly

look forward to the full body bliss waves, I had one

so far very intense, and then no more since.

I cannot wait to feel that on a regular basis, and can

sometimes feel a little impatient. I remind myself to

stay present and love shakti free with no

expectations, no attachment, she wants to be free.

Like being in an open relationship..... hee hee

 

Love to you Dhyana, Elektra x x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Thank you, that is SO clear, and so helpful. Love, dhyana xxx

 

, Elektra Fire

<elektra.fire wrote:

>

> Hi Dhyana,

>

> I can understand where you are coming from, as the

> feelings of the kundalini are so welcome that when

> they subside you miss them and worry it's " switched

> off " .

>

> The K effect is addictive in some ways, I certainly

> look forward to the full body bliss waves, I had one

> so far very intense, and then no more since.

> I cannot wait to feel that on a regular basis, and can

> sometimes feel a little impatient. I remind myself to

> stay present and love shakti free with no

> expectations, no attachment, she wants to be free.

> Like being in an open relationship..... hee hee

>

> Love to you Dhyana, Elektra x x x

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[Guest guest]

That's wonderful! My experience has been pretty amazing so far too.

I have been a little bit irritable, but I keep reminding myself to

stay balanced.

 

I hope everyone is having a rewarding experience!

 

Sarita

 

, " novalees "

<Novalees wrote:

>

> This has been a very blessed time for me so far. Its like I'm

> experiencing a whole new spectrum of feeling and emotion...things

I've

> never felt before and have no words for. I've been opeing myself to

> each chakra and deeply surrendering to all that Shakti wants to do

and

> show me. I don't think I've ever felt such a profound peace

before. I

> think I'm actually purring. Love, dhyana

>

[Guest guest]

Very nice Elektra... I'm sure she was shocked. :-)

 

Blessings to you...

Paul

 

 

>Elektra Fire <elektra.fire

>

>

>update

>Sat, 21 Apr 2007 21:30:13 +0100 (BST)

>

>Hi everyone, hope life finds you well this wonderful

>april day.

>Have made my way to amsterdam, had some minor hiccups

>to get here, apparently my ticket didn't exist and i

>was not listed to get on the plane, even though I had

>an email confirmation..... I made it onto the plane

>with a little help from some angels I " m sure. With

>only ten minutes to spare.

>

>The last two weeks have been very intense for me, some

>sacral chakra blocking anger has been seeping out to

>be released, had to focus hard as I didn't want to be

>overcome by this energy. Good training. My mind felt

>so negative and heavy, I felt irritable and easy to

>anger. Stressed.

>

>The K was up to something for sure, after two weeks of

>this I have now released it all, and feel as light as

>a feather. So soft and gentle and loving.

>Like a new flower in spring time. More like the old me

>but improved, as some old repressed anger has gone

>Yippee, feel like singing and crying.

>So happy it's done with.

>Anger is not something I enjoy.

>Shakti tested me at the airport, some woman got really

>angry at me just for walking in front of her (?) She

>was an older lady, very stressed, she started ramming

>me with her trolley (bizarre), I felt receptive and

>flowing like water and so I hardly noticed it, this

>angered her even more so she did it harder, I didn't

>even feel a glimmer of anger inside, I just said a

>small prayer for her, and apologisied soul to soul if

>I had done something to upset her in some way, and

>carried on feeling very relaxed and soft.

>A few days ago I would have ripped her head off (or at

>least felt like doing so!!!)

>So, all is well, hope you are all well,

>sending softness and joy out to all,

>Elektra x x x

>

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[Guest guest]

Wow, Elektra! You did amazingly well today! The

woman sounds like she was specially chosen for you to

encounter today, as a MAJOR test of your patience!

You passed with flying colors, girl!! Congrats!

 

I'm so glad you're feeling happy and peaceful

again...I'll remember this story when I get into a

stressful situation!

 

Blessings & love,

Claudia

 

--- Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:

 

> Hi everyone, hope life finds you well this wonderful

> april day.

> Have made my way to amsterdam, had some minor

> hiccups

> to get here, apparently my ticket didn't exist and i

> was not listed to get on the plane, even though I

> had

> an email confirmation..... I made it onto the plane

> with a little help from some angels I " m sure. With

> only ten minutes to spare.

>

> The last two weeks have been very intense for me,

> some

> sacral chakra blocking anger has been seeping out to

> be released, had to focus hard as I didn't want to

> be

> overcome by this energy. Good training. My mind felt

> so negative and heavy, I felt irritable and easy to

> anger. Stressed.

>

> The K was up to something for sure, after two weeks

> of

> this I have now released it all, and feel as light

> as

> a feather. So soft and gentle and loving.

> Like a new flower in spring time. More like the old

> me

> but improved, as some old repressed anger has gone

>

> Yippee, feel like singing and crying.

> So happy it's done with.

> Anger is not something I enjoy.

> Shakti tested me at the airport, some woman got

> really

> angry at me just for walking in front of her (?) She

> was an older lady, very stressed, she started

> ramming

> me with her trolley (bizarre), I felt receptive and

> flowing like water and so I hardly noticed it, this

> angered her even more so she did it harder, I didn't

> even feel a glimmer of anger inside, I just said a

> small prayer for her, and apologisied soul to soul

> if

> I had done something to upset her in some way, and

> carried on feeling very relaxed and soft.

> A few days ago I would have ripped her head off (or

> at

> least felt like doing so!!!)

> So, all is well, hope you are all well,

> sending softness and joy out to all,

> Elektra x x x

>

>

>

>

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[Guest guest]

Good for you on staying cool and offering her forgiveness,

and you just made the plane. You're angels are watching over you.

Enjoy your visit Elektra.

Lisa

 

Elektra Fire wrote:

>

> Hi everyone, hope life finds you well this wonderful

> april day.

> Have made my way to amsterdam, had some minor hiccups

> to get here, apparently my ticket didn't exist and i

> was not listed to get on the plane, even though I had

> an email confirmation..... I made it onto the plane

> with a little help from some angels I " m sure. With

> only ten minutes to spare.

>

> The last two weeks have been very intense for me, some

> sacral chakra blocking anger has been seeping out to

> be released, had to focus hard as I didn't want to be

> overcome by this energy. Good training. My mind felt

> so negative and heavy, I felt irritable and easy to

> anger. Stressed.

>

> The K was up to something for sure, after two weeks of

> this I have now released it all, and feel as light as

> a feather. So soft and gentle and loving.

> Like a new flower in spring time. More like the old me

> but improved, as some old repressed anger has gone

> Yippee, feel like singing and crying.

> So happy it's done with.

> Anger is not something I enjoy.

> Shakti tested me at the airport, some woman got really

> angry at me just for walking in front of her (?) She

> was an older lady, very stressed, she started ramming

> me with her trolley (bizarre), I felt receptive and

> flowing like water and so I hardly noticed it, this

> angered her even more so she did it harder, I didn't

> even feel a glimmer of anger inside, I just said a

> small prayer for her, and apologisied soul to soul if

> I had done something to upset her in some way, and

> carried on feeling very relaxed and soft.

> A few days ago I would have ripped her head off (or at

> least felt like doing so!!!)

> So, all is well, hope you are all well,

> sending softness and joy out to all,

> Elektra x x x

>

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> now.

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>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Dhyana

 

What a moving story, I am glad I am given the

opportunity of making contact with you.

 

blessings and love

 

nick

--- novalees <Novalees wrote:

 

> Hello dear Family,

>

> I find that my process is manifesting differently

> than what has been

> shared on the Group. has encouraged me to

> share my experience,

> and I would also like to encourage others to share

> their experiences

> even though they may be very different. There is

> great beauty and

> depth in how Shakti brings forth the Treasure that

> is contained in

> each one of us.

>

> The past 25+ years of my life have been devoted to

> God and service to

> mankind, though in small ways with great love. I had

> continued on that

> course until recently, as I felt Shakti leading me

> to shift from

> serving to receiving. The shift has led me to

> withdraw from many

> areas I had been serving in, and releasing

> connections of activity in

> my physical life.

>

> The result of that has brought me to a place where

> there is now plenty

> of room for what is inside me to be heard and to

> manifest. In other

> words, I am now able to receive it and embrace it,

> and release it into

> the world.

>

> It was also taken to a deeper level as I began to

> release the activity

> of my mind, along with the activity of my emotional

> nature.

> Attachments are falling away inside as well, and a

> new kind of life is

> emerging. I'm sure there are many here who could say

> this better, and

> maybe understand it more than I do through

> experience or reading about

> it. I'm moving into it fresh and filled with wonder,

> so trying to put

> it into words is very difficult for me...

>

> I've also been experiencing a very deep hunger for

> kindred spirits and

> a communion of souls. This has led me to begin to

> immerse myself into

> the writings of Thomas Merton. He puts into words so

> clearly many of

> the things I am feeling and experiencing. When I

> read them they are

> like new life leaping up in me. So I will be

> sitting at his feet for

> a while, and will share occasional treasures with

> you.

>

> So what is left when we let go of all the

> attachments to life as we

> know it? Another life...then another life...then

> another life...from

> glory to glory? An awesome adventure.

>

> So simplicity, silence and the return to innocence

> is the beauty I see

> before me in the Moment. The outer hasn't changed.

> It is still the

> glorious eternal Now. I'm seeing it with new eyes,

> and feeling it in

> my heart more.

>

> This just scratches the surface, but I wanted to

> make an attempt! lol!

>

> Thank you for listening.

> Love, dhyana

>

> " We are warmed by fire, not by the smoke of the

> fire.

> We are carried over the sea by a ship, not by the

> wake of a ship.

> So too, what we are is to be sought in the invisible

> depths

> of our own being, not in our outward reflection in

> our own acts. "

>

> Merton: A Book of Hours

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Relax, surrender, and love someone! Even yourself! It's that

simple!

 

Love and light Bob

 

 

, " Drea "

<lvledusa wrote:

>

> Hey guys. I hope you don't mind me talking about this because I

don't

> know who else to talk about it with. It's like everyday something

> different is happening and thats been gonig on for some time now,

but

> I bet you are all getting used to that somehow.

>

> So for over a week I said that this intense feeling in my heart was

> going on opening my heart chakra a lot and giving me non stop

energy

> even while sleeping. After so many days it just made my eyes water

a

> lot as well as numerous other things like the usual electric

surges.

> Well, after a while, I guess my body really wasn't used to this as

> much (the bliss so you all call it) so I would wake up in the

morning

> upon sleeping around 7-8 hours, start making something to eat and

> then I would just want to collapse on the kitchen floor and rest,

> yet, I would be so wide awake and full of love because I just got

out

> of bed and I have so much energy from my heart or kundalini or

prana

> (whereever its coming from). Then not so long after wanting to do

> this on the floor, I would then run around with my son playing

games

> with him as if I was child. I'd just keep switching like this just

> because it seems to be overloading what my body is used to. Theres

no

> depression but I bet viewing from the outside I seemed a bit crazy.

>

> On Thursday night something really out there happened. I remember I

> was just doing the safeties because everything was getting more

> intense then before. I then lied down and started meditating.

> Suddenly (I know this is going to sound really weird but its

> seriously how I felt), I just got this feeling like this wasn't my

> body and even thought of weird things like, " these memories aren't

my

> own " . I dont know what that was all about but after that I started

> hallucinating. Everything was all cloudy white and the sound around

> me gotten a lot weirder then what I've experienced in the past few

> months from the kundalini. I was freezing all of a sudden so I did

> the safeties and was so thankful to have found this

> kundaliniawakekningsystems1 website, my higher self must of hinted

> the perfect time to find that site. It was a pretty psychedelic

> experience for me, but too bad for me I'm a bit terrified of

> psychedelics just because I did LSD a long time ago and I had OBE's

> in random places/times without my control that seemed to have

lasted

> for several years when really it was only a few hours. I hope I'll

> get over this fear soon and I hope I'll be fine.

>

> On friday morning I had numerous feelings in my body. One was that

it

> felt like I was having drug withdrawls which almost feels like a

> hollowness from the middle of the throat to the stomach, but its

hard

> to explain. It was really difficult to eat. I started feeling very

> hot at times and for some reason I've been getting this feeling

like

> my upper back was crooked. I had to go to Toronto to visit my

> boyfriend and I was pretty well in between somesort of dreamworld

and

> reality. I printed out the safeties and the tibetan rights and held

> onto them for dear life. There were so many times in that day where

I

> seriously thought I was dreaming, because of this I was very

outgoing

> and acted differnt. It was cool and all but I was hanging out with

> people who didn't understand what I was gonig through. Since then I

> haven't been the same at all, I'm just really different now and I

> can't really explain it. It's great, yet very unknown and I hope

that

> a lot of this sticks.

>

> My sense of time is seriously gone now. My biological clock which

> used to be fairly accurate has now disappeared. I've been late for

so

> many things because of this. I remember waking up and getting ready

> for the morning thinking its 9 but then seeing that its only 4:11

on

> the clock so I lie down for a bit then look at the clock again and

it

> somehow jumped to 6:03! I would then go back to sleep and then wake

> up too late at around 12.... This is very unusual for me. I think I

> just want to be sitting in the present, but I think I'm doing that

> too much now lol and time is ticking causing me to just look at the

> clock and go, " oh $^#@ its that time already!? " and then I rush

> myself to get ready.

>

> I love all of my experiences and lessons that I go through in my

> life, but this is really hard. I'm not even saying everything here.

> I'd really like to hear what you guys have to say about this. I

feel

> really weird sharing this just because I am usually one that

figures

> everything out on my own, but I think when it comes to stuff like

> this we must all share each others experiences in hopes of

connecting

> better with ourselves and others by doing so.

>

> Anyways, this is the best that I can handle for typing. I wanted to

> type something earlier about this, but it was a bit hard for me to

> type anything then. I usually talk a bit more on forums, but

recently

> a lot of things have been happening.... I hope I didn't over do

this

> post.

>

> You all seem like a great crowd of people, I've enjoyed what I have

> read from people here so far.

>

> Much loves,

> drea

>

> ps *hugs*

>

> , " Drea "

> <lvledusa@> wrote:

> >

> > Hey, my name is Drea. I'm fairly ignorant to the Kundalini for I

> had a

> > spontaneous kundalini awakening just about 6 months ago without

> > knowing a thing about it. I've had hard and delusional times, and

> I've

> > been able to pull myself through on my own, learn lessons on my

own,

> > etc... but I think its about time I start talking with others

about

> > the kundalini and making a better connection with others who have

> had

> > a KA.

> >

> > Anyways, I love the bliss, but it's just gotten pretty extreme,

> > especially after clearing a certain block about a week ago.

Before I

> > had this block I had this bliss a lot, but nothing like how it is

> now.

> > For about a week my heart has just been exploding, it feels like

my

> > physical heart has doubled in size. This is really extreme, so

> extreme

> > that it goes all day, everyday, and even at night. I wake up in

the

> > morning and the first thing that catches my attention is my heart

> and

> > love for living here right now.

> >

> > It seems like this is absolutely fantastic, but it has been

> > overwhelming to my ego. The other day, I had to go for a job

> interview

> > and I was a little scared that the manager would think I was on

pure

> > MDMA or something lol, but I just had to train myself to stop

> thinking

> > or worrying and to just let myself flow and relax. I did the

> interview

> > better then fine actually, I think I even raised the mood of the

> > manager there.

> >

> > But I'm really wondering how you all are able to work in

conditions

> > like this? Does anyone have any suggestions for a situation like

> this?

> > Better yet, who else goes through this?... I guess one of my main

> > issues is that I don't know anyone who experiences this.

> >

> > I've learned from the kundalini that theres two ways you can go

> about

> > getting over old patterns or getting introduced to new patterns:

> >

> > 1) You panic, you over think of the past, future, desires,

worries,

> > what you are used to, etc. allowing this rational mind to not

take

> it

> > anymore resulting in hundreds of problems both physically and

> mentally

> > giving the end result to surrendering to the unknown and going

> through

> > a harsh ego death. or

> >

> > 2)You simply don't over think the situation but let yourself flow

> into

> > these new experiences and out of the old knowing that any pain

that

> > the mind has created is only an illusion... But this is easier

said

> > then done lol. I would lvoe to hear how people have worked around

> this

> > or were able to work like this.

> >

> > much love... lots of hearts ,

> > Drea

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Big HUG and healing boost coming your way, Beloved Travis. Thank you

for sharing that. Ignore that inner critic! Loved hearing the inner

child is becoming more prominant...special hug for the little guy.

Love, dhyana

 

 

,

" travisnelsonmurphy " <travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

>

> Hello Everybody,

> Just writing to update everyone on what I've been going through.

I've been trying to just

> allow for surrender in order to overcome all of the negativity that

has built up inside over a

> period of time. About 2 weeks ago I decided that I just didn't

believe the constant abusive

> critical dialogue going on on the left side of my head and I just

started praying constantly

> in the back of my mind all day for the healing of my mind knowing

that I haven't done

> anything that warrants unceasing punishment. Once I started doing

that I started feeling

> my inner child beginning to express himself. I started feeling more

playful and creative

> and started playing my guitar again and feeling more able to speak

from the heart and

> sing without paying attention to the criticisms constantly present

in my mind. My head

> and ears started to clear and I could actually feel my own presence

again at times. I

> started having a series of dreams that were all huge releases and

seemed to all involve

> themes of taking my power back and forgiveness, but these dreams

have been extremely

> exhausting. They are super charged with fear and anger and guilt and

although I think they

> are facilitating a release and a detoxification I am waking up each

morning still reeling

> from their effects and feeling like I've literally gotten my ass

kicked. In one dream I had

> been imprisoned in a golden cell block and I had to escape from the

prison encampment

> that was surrounded by a black mirky river. It was the dead of

winter and I was working

> outside on the chain gang. I had chains and shackles on my wrists

and ankles and

> somehow managed to get the shackles off of my wrists and swam across

the river to the

> other side and ran into this neighborhood. I knew that the guards

were already after me

> and I felt that I should stay close to the prison rather than run

further from it since that

> was counter intuitive and the guards would be expecting me to run as

far away in one

> direction as possible, so I climbed up into one of the trees in a

yard on the other side of

> the river bank. While I was in the tree a small asian girl came out

from her house (I was in

> her yard) and she told me that the guards knew where I was and would

soon be there to

> get me. I told her that they would have to send up a fire truck with

a ladder to get me

> because I wouldn't come down of my own volition. When the guards got

there they started

> to attack the little girl and I came down from the tree to fight

them. We were in the little

> girls garage now and there were 2 guards. One was after me and the

other after her. I was

> witnessing from the perspective of both myself and the little girl

and we were both armed

> with power tools. I had a hand saw and she had an electric hedge

trimmer. I saw from her

> perspective the man coming to grab her towering over her and she

threw the hedge

> trimmer at him and missed and then he tackled her in the corner. I

on the other hand was

> fending off the other guard and cutting his arms off as he wrestled

to detain me. His arms

> were growing back and he kept pursuing me. I started to run away

but each time I would

> remember the little girl and go back into the garage to try to find

her and rescue her. I

> kept seeing a cardboard box bouncing up and down in the corner and

went over to it

> several times to lift it up hoping I would find her only to find a

huge rat running around in

> circles. I then started running down the street trying to hitchhike

as a car passed me all

> the while the guard whose arms kept growing back is slowly following

behind me while

> radioing on his walki talky for back up and telling them what

direction I was travelling in,

> all this with a very eerie assurance that I would not get away. I

climbed a fence and ran

> into another yard and hid under a bunch of hey. the guard climbed

over a fence in the

> adjacent yard and kept travelling straight ahead away from me. Then

he turned into a cat

> and slowly started to prowl. He could hear the rustling of the hey

that my breathing was

> causing and stopped and turned around stalking back towards me. I

woke up to my cat

> jumping onto my chest. Needless to say my nerves were completely

shot and this has

> been the common theme with my dreams and how I feel upon waking. I'm

trying to keep

> trucking and not get caught up in depression or feeling sorry for

myself although

> sometimes I fall into those patterns. I could use a big love and

healing boost from

> everybody to help me overcome these obstacles and reinstate some

stability and self

> esteem in my life. I'm still looking for jobs too. That's another

reason why I haven't posted

> much. Anyway if you read this far, I love you guys. Man, it feels

good to love you people!

> Big Gigantic Love,

> Travis

> P.S. If anyone has the Dalai Lama CD I'de really like to get a copy

somehow.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Travis,

 

I am thinking of you and wishing you well, inner strength and much

beauty and love in your life. And go have Fun!!! With others! I'm

going to play cards with friends, play ding dong ditch on my nephews

and then spray them with silly string. I'll let you know how it goes

for me. A little fun is always good for the spirit! Helps me get out

of my head!

Lots of Love

Deb

>

> Hello Everybody,

> Just writing to update everyone on what I've been going through.

I've been trying to just

> allow for surrender in order to overcome all of the negativity that

has built up inside over a

> period of time. About 2 weeks ago I decided that I just didn't

believe the constant abusive

> critical dialogue going on on the left side of my head and I just

started praying constantly

> in the back of my mind all day for the healing of my mind knowing

that I haven't done

> anything that warrants unceasing punishment. Once I started doing

that I started feeling

> my inner child beginning to express himself. I started feeling more

playful and creative

> and started playing my guitar again and feeling more able to speak

from the heart and

> sing without paying attention to the criticisms constantly present

in my mind. My head

> and ears started to clear and I could actually feel my own presence

again at times. I

> started having a series of dreams that were all huge releases and

seemed to all involve

> themes of taking my power back and forgiveness, but these dreams

have been extremely

> exhausting. They are super charged with fear and anger and guilt

and although I think they

> are facilitating a release and a detoxification I am waking up each

morning still reeling

> from their effects and feeling like I've literally gotten my ass

kicked. In one dream I had

> been imprisoned in a golden cell block and I had to escape from the

prison encampment

> that was surrounded by a black mirky river. It was the dead of

winter and I was working

> outside on the chain gang. I had chains and shackles on my wrists

and ankles and

> somehow managed to get the shackles off of my wrists and swam

across the river to the

> other side and ran into this neighborhood. I knew that the guards

were already after me

> and I felt that I should stay close to the prison rather than run

further from it since that

> was counter intuitive and the guards would be expecting me to run

as far away in one

> direction as possible, so I climbed up into one of the trees in a

yard on the other side of

> the river bank. While I was in the tree a small asian girl came out

from her house (I was in

> her yard) and she told me that the guards knew where I was and

would soon be there to

> get me. I told her that they would have to send up a fire truck

with a ladder to get me

> because I wouldn't come down of my own volition. When the guards

got there they started

> to attack the little girl and I came down from the tree to fight

them. We were in the little

> girls garage now and there were 2 guards. One was after me and the

other after her. I was

> witnessing from the perspective of both myself and the little girl

and we were both armed

> with power tools. I had a hand saw and she had an electric hedge

trimmer. I saw from her

> perspective the man coming to grab her towering over her and she

threw the hedge

> trimmer at him and missed and then he tackled her in the corner. I

on the other hand was

> fending off the other guard and cutting his arms off as he wrestled

to detain me. His arms

> were growing back and he kept pursuing me. I started to run away

but each time I would

> remember the little girl and go back into the garage to try to find

her and rescue her. I

> kept seeing a cardboard box bouncing up and down in the corner and

went over to it

> several times to lift it up hoping I would find her only to find a

huge rat running around in

> circles. I then started running down the street trying to hitchhike

as a car passed me all

> the while the guard whose arms kept growing back is slowly

following behind me while

> radioing on his walki talky for back up and telling them what

direction I was travelling in,

> all this with a very eerie assurance that I would not get away. I

climbed a fence and ran

> into another yard and hid under a bunch of hey. the guard climbed

over a fence in the

> adjacent yard and kept travelling straight ahead away from me. Then

he turned into a cat

> and slowly started to prowl. He could hear the rustling of the hey

that my breathing was

> causing and stopped and turned around stalking back towards me. I

woke up to my cat

> jumping onto my chest. Needless to say my nerves were completely

shot and this has

> been the common theme with my dreams and how I feel upon waking.

I'm trying to keep

> trucking and not get caught up in depression or feeling sorry for

myself although

> sometimes I fall into those patterns. I could use a big love and

healing boost from

> everybody to help me overcome these obstacles and reinstate some

stability and self

> esteem in my life. I'm still looking for jobs too. That's another

reason why I haven't posted

> much. Anyway if you read this far, I love you guys. Man, it feels

good to love you people!

> Big Gigantic Love,

> Travis

> P.S. If anyone has the Dalai Lama CD I'de really like to get a copy

somehow.

>

[Guest guest]

Sending you lots of love and praying for your constant

healing.

Seems like you are doing really well! I'm proud of you

Travis.

Blessings

Elektra x x x

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Much love to you Travis :-) love & light ~Jen~

 

,

" travisnelsonmurphy " <travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

>

> Hello Everybody,

> Just writing to update everyone on what I've been going through.

I've been trying to just

> allow for surrender in order to overcome all of the negativity that

has built up inside over a

> period of time.

[Guest guest]

Hi Laura,

 

I know that for me the times when I move to implement what I'm

learning have seemed like a long series of goodbyes, moving on from

friendships that no longer served me. For me, blocks are usually made

from emotions that I have not wanted to feel. Moving forward is

claiming my emotions as my own, whether good or bad. It has helped to

recognize that, in a way, I am not responsible for my emotions, only

how I act on them. Emotions are like the weather; we don't feel

ashamed because it's raining, neither do we feel afraid because it is

cold. Even depression is not so bad when we realize we need to hit

bottom to have something to push up from.

 

Good to hear from you again, and that you're moving.

 

Peter

 

 

,

" laurashomefires " <laurashomefires wrote:

>

> I have undergone many changes these past few months. Things have been

> brought to the service for me and I have had to deal with some very

> intense feelings. I also needed to see that I am not in control and

> learn to surrender. I was full of fear and didn't know it. I thought I

> was a very strong individual and I was, on the outside, but inside oh

> my there was work to be done. I have had to make some decisions

> concerning my life that were not easy to make. The kundilini has been

> working by clearing blocks from things in my life that no longer serve

> me but I kept hanging onto. I sunk into a deep depression and thought

> that the kundilini had left me. I realize now that wasn't the case at

> all. It has been there working and helping me move on. Blocks could be

> anything I realize now not just the physical but also things we deal

> with in the world on a daily bases. I feel as though I have been set

> free. From out of the deapths of despare the butterfly fly's,,,

> Love and Light

> Laura Joyce

>

[Guest guest]

Good to hear from you LJ! It is wonderful to hear of your progress.

I have found I make the most progress during the most difficult

times. Sounds like you are doing really well.

 

Hugs,

 

Sarita

 

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " laurashomefires " <laurashomefires wrote:

>

> I have undergone many changes these past few months. Things have

been

> brought to the service for me and I have had to deal with some very

> intense feelings. I also needed to see that I am not in control and

> learn to surrender. I was full of fear and didn't know it. I

thought I

> was a very strong individual and I was, on the outside, but inside

oh

> my there was work to be done. I have had to make some decisions

> concerning my life that were not easy to make. The kundilini has

been

> working by clearing blocks from things in my life that no longer

serve

> me but I kept hanging onto. I sunk into a deep depression and

thought

> that the kundilini had left me. I realize now that wasn't the case

at

> all. It has been there working and helping me move on. Blocks could

be

> anything I realize now not just the physical but also things we

deal

> with in the world on a daily bases. I feel as though I have been

set

> free. From out of the deapths of despare the butterfly fly's,,,

> Love and Light

> Laura Joyce

>

[Guest guest]

Sat nam everyone,

 

I wanted to give an update to my question a week or so ago regarding

my marriage and me feeling that my spiritual path was taking me

further and further away from my husband. Thank you so much to all

who responded. Your words were very helpful even though some of the

things were hard for me to hear.

 

I knew that if I could just see the divine within my husband and love

that part of him then all would be solved, but the problem was, I knew

that doing that would take more strength than I had. Well, I have

been practicing the So Darshan Chakra kriya for 31 minutes a day and

for the past week or so, spirit kept nudging me to up the practice

time to 62 minutes. Well, yesterday I did do the kriya for 62 minutes

and later that morning something just **clicked** in my heart and I

knew that I could now begin to see my husband in a new way and love

him with a higher kind of love. I know this won't solve all our

problems, but I can face anything peacefully and calmly with this new

inner strength and perspective - as long as I keep up my practice.

 

What really became very clear to me is that God will support me and

bless me, but only if I am consistent with my practice.

 

Thank you so much for listening, everyone. I truly feel blessed.

 

Hanspreet Kaur