Das's horoscope compatibility #2

[Guest guest]

Further regarding marital karma and my chart, hence my life, I wish to

say this:

 

My chart has various negative marital aspects within it as detailed by Robert.

 

The outcome is this. I think always about religion, I only work, and

never am interested in anything else. Work is mission. Work is spiritual

seva. I'm an embodied soul. I find the test of material life troubling.

I prefer to stay in my karma/dharma world. I have high pitta. This

causes anger and strong speaking, part of Satabish moon as well. I know

I'm not at all easy to be around. Hence, I have no friends locally, and

am often alone. I like being alone too. Like many other highly driven

pitta persons, I am focused on my goals and am unable to shift from

them. I cannot really be interested in other things that much. My

rationale and favorite subject is always God and devotion, which is a

relationship killer for most people and ends up causing both persons in

a relationship to give up that mood anyway, and just engage in service

to Krishna as that is what this very short life is best used for.

 

So this situation basically leads to a pretty ascetic lifestyle. I live

a very simple, quiet, and focused life, trying to bring out the Jyotish

and other Sastras a bit as best I can. I hardly ever go out at all. I

don't do anything but my work, all day. I do live the Sannyas yogas

already to quite some degree, and the karma/dharma yoga in the 9th. It's

all true, and it's not conducive for standard marital karma at all.

 

It is conducive for having renounced friends, who are religious

co-workers, yes, very much so, and in that way currently, I'm enjoying

the association of one god sister who is dear to me on a number of

levels including as God Sister. This is Krishna's grace unto me. So

again in that mood I can say I've experienced marital happiness, but no,

it's not without the complete coloration of the other parts of my karma.

Bernadette and I are first devotees of Krishna together. That is the

bond and our constant discussion, and our view of life, period. Whatever

shortcomings we have against that standard we wish to overcome.

 

My chart is operating as I've heard it read by myself and others. My own

chart and my experiences with how closely it aligns with my living

reality is one of the main things that has convinced me about Jyotish.

It seems so perfect to me through my own chart, that at times I've

wondered if it isn't true perhaps, that if one has a chart which does

say they will embrace Vedic things, such as Jupiter in the 9th in Sag

say, and other things, if that doesn't also mean that their chart will

more easily be read by Jyotish, a Vedanga, or in other words, perhaps

some charts are easier to read because they work more within the Vedic

principles as a result of the chart, hence they are easier to see

through Vedic understandings.

 

Anyway, don't know if that might cause some weird feelings. But it is

intellectually a reasonable thought. Anyway, everyone has always nailed

my karma pretty easily who's read my chart, and to me it reads clearly

with what I experience in life.

 

It is these thoughts which have led me to my own belief that the thing

is not what we do so much as our attitude about the flow of life, about

acceptance, detachment, service mood without controller mood, and so on,

as taught in the Gita. I find therefore complete synergy tween the Gita

and my feelings about Jyotish. I think Jyotish proves the validity of

abandoning false ego, since you can't claim as your creation what

clearly existed at your birth already!, neither the good of it, nor the

bad of it, so it becomes more about your attempt to serve as best you

can, within the unfoldment of all good and bad around you, that you try

to be in, and serve, and push, the positive current of going upwards for

yourself and all, and not at all worry about the result, but just the

strength of your own attempt.

 

I find this Gita conslusion, and the facts of Jyotish, are in agreement.

 

I find giving up the way I am used to thinking, ie, "normal", and

accepting what I understand now by Gurus grace, incredibly difficult. In

this inbetween state, I find it highly emotionally challenging. I hear

othes saying the same thing sometimes, so at least I know I'm not crazy.

Having perhaps 30 years left if I'm lucky before having to go back to

kindergarten AT BEST, I'm concerned alot with my own thoughts, prayers,

moods, actions, and so on. This is crippling to the pursuit of pleasure

or "happiness in this world". I'm VERY concerned about the other world

and I have little love for the flow of emotional dealings here with

those who buy the Matrix as real.

 

So these are the words of one too Saturnized for "happiness" in this

world. Fortunately, there's the other world! And with Jupiter in the 9th

in Dhanus, it's always been there for me. And because it aspects

Venus/7th lord in 1, God has always been involved in that part of my

life as well. So good, bad, mixed, argh, who can figure it all out,

especially when you start to simply rise above it all in self sacrifice

as per the Gita. If your words change due to changing mood, then nobody

can figure out what's "real" anymore, since you have to first determine

which of the two realms the words are coming from. In the

transcendental, there is no complaining, so there's no possibility of

bad karma either. Isn't that weird? Nothing is bad. It just is,

accepted, humbly, in service to the central source of all waves of

motion and change, one way or the other, rationalized and accepted.

Rejoice, we have no choice.

 

Peace

 

Das