Pain of Negativities Removal by Devi or Amma

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When I first went to India in 2001, and that too only to Kerala, it

was before I came to Amma. My sister scholars in Women's Spirituality

felt that we were going to meet the goddess in her home state. That

was our attitude toward the journey. My room mates during this trip

were two women who were dear friends with each other. Both were

secual abuse survivors. In fact, for one of them being a sexual abuse

survivor was a big part of her identity. She did a lot of powerful

writing about her experiences as we moved through our program.

On the lasat day we were to be in Trivandrum I asked this particular

wyoung woman what she got out of the trip. Did she feel different?

Quietly, she said "The sexual abuse is healed. I'm almost afraid to

say it. I thought it would be so much more difficult but She made it

easy. She took away all the pain" and she returned to packing. A

few minutes later she commented, "She made it easy."

 

Indeed after our trip to India, this young woman never wrote about her

experience of sexual abuse again. Instead her prose and poetry were

lighter, more joyful. Devi had indeed taken away all the pain.

 

Just so, easily, gently and without any pain Amma removed that

undertone of dread which has been with me all my life. It is gone.

Just today I realized that something related to it was healed. You

know how people write in journals? I have never been able to write in

journals. When I was a little girl, my mother would find my diaries,

read them and punish me for what she imagined I meant by what was

written there. She always imagined that I was criticizing her. I

learned to DREAD being punished for whatever I might write in a

journal. Well, I've been writing away in a journal this past week.

Today I realized that THAT dread was gone too. I smiled as I realized

that the aftermath of this healing will be to be surprised over and

over at what was linked to this undertone of dread each time I

laughingly recognize another area where it is no longer there.

 

Aikya

 

 

 

 

Ammachi, Sweta Mitzel <swetabc> wrote:

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> Prasadini wrote:

> ... paraphrasing, "You children like to play

> with Mother, but you don't know what Mother is

> doing..Mother has to work from the inside and has to remove many

things. Sometimes this is very painful".

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> She also says somthing like, it can be so painful, that sometimes

the disciple wants to run away.

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