I bow towards humility to Her Lotus Feet

December 14, 2003

Kirsten, You can get money out from your debit card at Amma's bank-if it is

really crowded in the bank though, those with travelers cheques seem to get

faster service- a different line. I dont know about the prepaid taxi booth but

assume there will be many clamoring for your business. Please pay my respects to

Ma's lotus feet, the subjest of praise of all the devas and even the asuras.

Ishwari, heres my two-cents about lotus feet...

Lotuses are symbols of transcendence, eternal purity, creation by pushing up

through the mud of ignorance into the sunlight of pure existence-bliss, truth

and knowledge. The Guru's feet, being the bridge that touches heaven to earth

and being the lowest part of their heavenly-barely physical bodies are the

source of the grace that pours in through the highest part of our very mundane

dense bodies- our crown chakras, which is why we bow to recieve the grace from

their feet. We truly cannot fathom much beyond the guru's feet as the energy is

more and more heavenly as it rises up the body, which is why if we cling to the

feet, the closest part to the earthly realm, we have more chance to feel

connection -even if our minds think were nuts because of western conditioning-

our hearts know those feet are our true home. The Divine BEings feet are always

mentioned as resembling lotus flowers. In all the pictures of Laksmi, Durga,

Siva, Rama and Radha and Krishna, you can see their hands and

feet are red like lotus flowers.

I have a story to share,,,,

For months at a time I have been around Amma after having met her two and a half

years ago. And almost every single darshan, i would go up testing her, waiting

to see what She would show me, demanding even that she reveal herself as Krishna

to me or prove Her love to me somehow. Though it took her quite a while to show

me the Krishna lila, she finally did-one day but that is another story- my point

is She usually did meet my indignant demands as I haughtily, shamelessl;y and

sometimes shamefully went up for darshan. I was also trying to prove my own

worth as a devotee and every time I would go up I would look into Her eyes,

trying to connect, to understand, to recieve, to communicate my needs, to

pray,etc. Sometimes, I owuld focus on Her feet, first and most of the times< i

would even feel around for HEr foot if it wasnt extended and make sure I held it

as SHe hugged me so that I could receive the grace, but it was always with

agendas like this that IWent up for darshan, intent on

getting as much grace as I could.

Well, recently someone asked on this site, where the best place for retreat was,

and I vote Rhode Island because it was in that very place that this miraculous

evcent occured. Amma was in Devi Bhava, wearing a purply fuschia sari and I was

working for grace-doing alot of seva in the back of the hall, helping with the

Amma doll stand and all these people were wanting dolls in Devi Bhava outfits so

I would got hrought he trunk full of outfits witht hem untilt hey found the one

they wnated and then I wuld dress theri doll for them. And threet imes it

happened this way, that when I had finished dressign the doll< i looked across

the room and saw that int hse shopt hat sells Amma's Devi Bhava saris for

weddings, etc. a woman had just been dressed by Jani inthe exact same outfit I

had just put on this little Amma doll. I donmt remember now the exact colors but

for example First, it was the most brilliant yellow that I had dressed the doll

in and then Jani had dressed the woamn int he same

hue yellow and then a truquoise green, and then red. I t was unreal- the pure

order or divine grace. Then, when I wnet up for darhsna, I had this feeling come

over me as I ascended the stairs about to reach Amma's stage. What am Id oing?

What is my intention? I am going to see God again? Can i, for once, just not

expect or desire anything, can I just go to give thanks, can i try to be humble?

I realized I oculdnt even try to be humble- that i couldnt even imagine what

humble felt like -s o I prayed to Amma to please forgive me and I said, I have

this desire to feel what humility feels like so Im just going to pretend that I

am humble. I am going to keep my eyes lowered, how dare I raise them to such

heights with such ignorance....give me what you will, I dont even know why I am

here. As i tried to embody a feigned humility to at least try, I saw as I got

closer that Amma's foot was Her lap, the sole showing, the soul glowing the

brightest pinkish red you can imagine and brighter

that that-so colorful it was straight out of the painted pictures of the Gods'

Lotus Feet.The color was truly divine- not of this earthly realm. I kept my

focus easily on her feet, not raising my eyes any higher, knowing there was

nothing higher, she was showing me so much just for wishing to be humble and

yet,t here was so much more to be seen as my heart becomes purer- it is all in

Her feet.

I had seen Amma's feet many times before and sometimes even judged them,

thinking they dont look divine-She showed me how what I see is all a direct

reflection of my mind.

I pray now for such humility, mother and for such grace to brighten up my

ignorant angry life. Please help me be more loving to my brothers and sisters

and those closest to me.

Please teach me to be humble and to hold my tongue when I am in pain

Aho mitake oyasin.

Jai MA

Ambuja

Ammachi wrote:

Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha!

Ammachi

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There are 5 messages in this issue.

Topics in this digest:

1. RE: lyrics for Wondrous Goddess- 5th verse?

"Amalia Darling"

2. Mantra mala...

"ammasiswari"

3. Re: Re: Lotus Feet?

kalipadma

4. Travel related questions (Amritapuri)

5. Re: Re: Lotus Feet?

Robin Wilson

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Message: 1

Fri, 12 Dec 2003 21:32:01 -0800

"Amalia Darling"

RE: lyrics for Wondrous Goddess- 5th verse?

Well, my daughter has part of it. Someone wrote it on her song sheet but

left off the last line. Here's what we have:

Asking You with humility

to know the fruit of human birth.

Lovingly, I bow to You............................

Now all we need is the last line!

-Amalia-

Ôm Amriteswaryai Namah

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Message: 2

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 05:51:53 -0000

"ammasiswari"

Mantra mala...

Recently, I was talking about how I didn't feel a connection with my mantra at

first,

but that it later awakened with great love in my heart. I was just reminded of

this

feeling when I came across the following sufi poem earlier today.

Love,

Iswari

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