Emotioanally paralyzed severe experience!

[Guest guest]

sat nam everybody

I have been having an anxiety and fear feeling for a long time but

today i had a severe experience of fear after smooking (marijuana

cigarrette)which i thought will relieve some of the anxiety but

unfortunately it made feel weird feelings like absolutely

dissconnected from myself and life as i am dead person inside (i

couldnt even maintain conversation with my friend)i felt paralized

and paranoid and weakness in my muscles.

also ,in the past 4 years i have been emotionally flat ,its a weird

feeling of non aliveness , no motivation for nothing ,sometimes it

feels that i dont want to live anymore since i dont feel alive anyway.

any suugested sets or meditaion to bring me back this sense of

aliveness will be appreciatd.

 

Sincerely

Ahmad