Thats the game.Lose everything to gain everything.
Depends on the karma you carry over and the potency of your desire to be rid of it , or better put , to lose onself in Krsna.
Krsna is never cruel ,of course , but moths get burnt flying too close too a flame ,they can't help themselves , the attraction is too strong ,and thats o.k. too.I was a moth also. I was a perfectionist from birth, never satisfied with whatever i did ,always pushing myself i.e. , a prime candidate to learn Compassio the HARD way.
I could only see my ( and thus of course everyone else's ) faults .A glass half empty , rather than half full type.O.k. , enough info re. this insignificant life (amongst so many before and no doubt after this current one.)
Even a mere ( by spiritual comparison ) drug-free (lol) sporting world champion has to undertake massive discipline to achieve a mere worldly goal.And we expect LESS of a spiritual goal ?
Yes , for some fortunate/older souls ,few in number , whose karmic bonds to Mayic delusion are fragile , cruise through Sannyas .
A true test of a devotee is never how much ...'happinesss' he/she feels .The deeper thread is always sincerity.Those further on the path than the rest of us only look at the SINCERITY of a sadhak . The stronger the disciple , the stronger the tests .
We read in the Great Books about the great trials devotees of Krsna suffered but which never threatened their determination or faith for an instance and yet , somehow , when it applies to US ,to me PERSONALLY...........then its all so different .But that was history !!! No ,No , No , THEN it is all becoming very very Real , and to feel Lord Krsna's compassion in one's suffering is worth far far more than mere 'happiness'