Hi,
Was wondering if anyone could help me. I had a serious illness and with God's and Guru's Grace I recovered physically enough that my life was not in danger. For that I am eternally grateful. However I still have some minor physical symptoms every day, and emotionally I am very much unhappy as it reminds me of that sad time. For the past 2 years I get up at Brahmamuhurtam to pray and say my Gurumantra which is all-powerful, but obviously I am doing something wrong because I am not getting physically or emotionally better. I tried asking other devotees but one of the other devotees got really offended and told some falsehoods to my Guru and main disciples about how I challenged the effectiveness of the Mantra (which I didn't, I was just talking about my own inability to get results through some fault of my own). So I'm a bit nervous to ask my Guru and His disciples now. I'm not really sure how I can go on through life like this, as I wonder if I will ever get better- some of our saints themselves said that it is difficult to improve spiritually without a healthy body as then the mind is always on the body. Any advice?
Thanks,
B
