joyashvr

dear akanand21, i was moved by ur frankness.as u r decided to follow the right path n repenting for the things committed u r already on the first step of righteousness. as u hav asked for the solid advices, i think i should tell some other ways to lead ur life henceforth.what my bretherns here hav opined r valuable.considering ur status of mind i give u some suggestions which will b usefull in attaining self purity n love of god. 1) start with ur ishta devta 2)read srimad bhagavatha mahapuranam (vol I & II) it is stated in the many of holy scriptures that reading those 2 volumes of srimad bhagavatha mahapuranam will relieve ones sins and make him worthy to b loved by god.it is my own experience too.whenever i read it i get some external force that rejuvenates me often n fills eternal joy in life.also these books r very cheap (300 Rs) if purchased from ghorak press. 3)follow ekadashi vratas, if possible it is to reduce the sin level of ones past life n present. 4)or follow pradosha pujas atleast in trayodashi (twice in a month). 5)or read devi bhagavatham which is also called as "the armour of mother goddess". i think this is enough for u to transform into a holy soul. may goddess mother bless u n guide u always.