No I dont think that materialism is better. I just think that I have to early decided to abandon the world. The result is ruined spiritual life. Now I undeerstand that if I have these sexual and other major materialistic desires I need to fulfill them to some reasonable degree, and develop mode of controling my senses, gradually progressing on the spiritual path.
I understand that I will not be _really_ happy even if my material dreams will come true. But my present reality is that if they are _not_ realised, I am not able to do spiritual things _at_all_. So this is why I have came here -- help me a little bit with Vedic advice -- how to properly satisfy my senses so I will have a chance to continue my spiritual life.
Yes, now I read BG on daily basis. I have purchased it when I was 15 but still I have a lot to learn...
Thanks for your reply