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Dear Brother, It is good to know you are spiritual , and you are seeking the truth. let me tell you one thing every seeker or yogi first needs to have his self realisation, that is yoga which you can have it sahaja yoga, can check sahajayoga.org and visit the centers its free then you will find all the answers to your question. reciting mantra all the time and on its own is not good sign, you have gone to your extreme. once you get connected you can become your own master. Till that time all effort is waste. any more doubts feel free to ask