I am a neophyte, coming into Krishna consciousness only a few weeks ago. I've been chanting regularly, gradually adding to my total rounds each day, studying The Bhagavad gita and keeping prasadam. My coming to Krishna consciousness has helped me immensely and I am eternally grateful to Him for showing me His love & compassion.
Having said all this, my husband, until recently has been supportive of my endeavor and while not ready to come to Krishna himself, has seen changes in me. He has said they are positive changes. When I reminded him I was going to the Temple tonight, he said OK and then proceeded to make dinner plans with his father for tonight. When I woke this morning, he told me he expects me to go to this dinner & that I can go to the Temple next week. I can't dishonor my husband, yet I'm hurt that he doesn't respect my wishes.
I feel so very torn and lost. I love Lord Krishna, but love my husband as well. I know my love for my husband is in the physical world and love for Krishna is transcendental, all-encompassing and eternal, but for now I must live in this world with my husband. We have been married for almost 16 years and I am shocked, stunned and hurt beyond words at his disrespect.
Please forgive me for any errors in expressing myself.
Please help me!! Thanks.