hi i have gone through your experience...... i wud like 2 tell u something .... wat sadhna u have done that is not wrong but wat is the fun when u can just feel apsara u cant see her or u cant talk to her . i have many sadhanas like humzaad, jinnat, loona chamari, in this sadhnas u can call any of the spell included the apsara's. in this kind of sadhana we have to give time to pur meditation here no need to take any kind of diksha or u dnt need to leave ur home we just have to give time to our swartha & time to parmartha. insed of this i have the right way where we can die as per our wish and we can come back as per our wish but for that we have to be proper naam dhari with thos five name we can go in to the sukhshma lok & we can cum back to our manakh jama. i m also one aatma who is in search of way to our parmatma who is alrdy in our body we jst have to open our inner eyes to see the noor & glory of our parmatma.