Well for a long long time now I have not been able to chant, or read any Krishna Conscious material with any sense of true devotion. I thought it would eventually pass and I would finally be able to focus, but it hasn't and it has just gotten worse. I no longer see the point in chanting, especially since I don't feel anything when I do so.
I live in a rather busy city in Canada, with trucks going by all the time, people yelling, TVs blaring, and computers beeping, it's not possible to meditate in any way. I don't drive and live too far away from a temple to go to one and do such things, so I'm stuck. I've more or less "given up" on that side of things, as someone living in West to live like a true Vaishnava is just not possible. But I will continue to read Srila Prabhupada's books, and Bhagavad-Gita, and anything else of that sort that I can get my hands on. Because I still feel that the Vaishnava philosophy is the greatest one ever, it makes the most sense to me, if I were a Christian, or if I were a Muslim I would still say that your philosophy made the most sense of any "religion" ever.
So I want to thank all the devotees who I've ever talked with, and who have supported and encouraged me, maybe one day I can reach a level of devotion as great as you guys. Maybe one day I will attain true God Consciousness
God bless you all,
Max