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Thanks kshama for increasing my willpower to live and struggle in the days coming ahead but i don't know how much will it last? and when will my will power collapse again? any way thank you

Thanks suvarchas for analyising my kundali.You have said about "saap of ganesh ji" is it "shrap, curse". But my mother daily do puja of ganeshji in our house and i personally also pray to ganesh ji often. I had met a local astrologer some time ago to ask about my career he suggested to wear 8 ratti muga in gold is it beneficial form? Can you suggest my something about my career and wealth because of my problem i am unable to get a job and i don't know how will i survive with this much of humiliation and daridrata.

my date of birth is 21 july 1984 09:59 pm kathmandu, nepal

I am 25 years old . my problem started since i was 13 years old. i had bad habit of masturbation. eventhough modern science says it is not harmful at all but i gradually became very ugly like monkey . in the beginning i thought i am thin that's why my face has changed like monkey(my jaws are big and my eyes are deep) i tried working out and gain some weight but still the same problem. The worst part of my problem is now whereever i go even i am walking on street people look at me strangely and spit infront of me( this is all true, i don't have any ,mental problem) even my family members started spitting infront of me. i have already attempted 2 time for suicide but nor succeded. Now neither can i live nor i can die. because of this i don't have any job. my life is hell and i am again thinking of suicide for third time. please some body help me