KrsnadasaDasa

Ok then, you've made your choice. So best of wishes to you. Sincerely, Krsnadasa dasa

Govindaram! Do not do this to yourself! Do not do this to Lord Krsna! I realize that you have great difficulty surrendering fully to Lord Krsna and his uttama-adhikari, Srila Prabhupada ... but do not give in, and take up this worship of a demigod. Lord Siva is to be given every respect. He is the greatest of Lord Krsna's demigod devotees. But taking up worship of him will detour you in your spiritual progress. Don't water the leaves and branches and expect the tree to thrive! Water the roots - and the tree will bear fruit. Govindaram, overcome your ambitions and impatience. Accept your position as a neophyte, stop arguing with senior devotees, whether they be iskcon, ritvik, or in-between. Admit your position, and begin at the beginning - 100% this time - rather than stopping any real spiritual progress before you've even really even begun! Please, think this over very carefully, very carefully, very carefully before you take up this mantra japa for Lord Siva. Pray, as I shall for you also, asking Lord Krsna to give you the strength to abide, through this time of temptation and bewilderment. Yes, it's true, even a little progress in Krnsa Consciousness is never lost. But this isn't a bargaining point. It doesn't mean we should abandon it altogether, out of impatience. How many more lifetimes full of distress and sorrow will it take, before you can again take up this perfect spiritual science, and start where you're leaving off? You are greedy for spiritual success, Govindaram. We all are. But real success doesn't come easily, nor does it come quickly. We must push on with all out might - and with great courage. You crave attention. Don't we all? But any attention from anyone other than the perfect love-attention from Lord Krsna is of no real value. HIS attention is eternal. Any other is just a wash. Oh Govindaram! Please, surrender your impatience, and come fully into the practises of Krsna Consciousness. DO NOT WASTE THIS VALUABLE LIFETIME! Most Sincerely, Krsnadasa dasa

There are heavy metal gates installed to protect the deities, so this doesn't quite make sense. Please do let us know when you hear more? I am exspecially anxious, as I was so blessed to have Lord Jagannatha Who now resides in the Berkeley temple witness my initiation so many years ago in San Francisco, Sincerely, Krsnadasa dasa