I am a Pranic Healer, Reiki practitioner who have been doing various forms of guided meditations, including Kundalini meditation, and japas. My problems seem to be increasing in all fronts, and now I feel I am trapped from all sides. Meditations give me temporary bliss these days. I now realise by studying about Kundalini, that it could be Kundalini syndrome as I have been suffering from the following in the recent months.
1. Involuntary jerky movement of legs while I sleep
2. Serious relationship issues, and no solution to get out of them
3. Pricky sensation along the spine in the back and shoulders, Itching, stinging or crawling sensations
4. Severe depression, to the point of having suicidal thoughts
5. Now reaching a lack of faith in all systems
6. Feeling that other beings in this universe are controlling me, troubling me.
7. Lack of focus, passion in doing anything
8. Pain in shoulders and back
9. Fatigue
10. Emotional outbursts, moodiness, unprovoked grief, fear, rage, depression
I feel this is because of rapid materialization of negative karma. Am I right? How can this be solved? How can I go back to having a normal life-career, marriage, own home etc.? Right now everything is seemingly taken away from me.
Pls help.