I believe in god. But day by day this belief is turning into a doubt. In my life everything has been a compromise, and I accepted life the way it presented itself to me.
first i had a bad childhoob with an alcoholic father, then a forced arranged marriage. Life is never been the way I wanted...yet I remain happy and cheerful all the time.
Now after marriage, I was diagonsed with PCOS- which is a condition where a woman will have problems to become pregnant.
I wonder why I am praying??? does god really exist??? Am i fasting and doing all rituals to a god- who doesnt listen to his devotees and has his own good plans for everyone??? wat is good here??? for every damn thing in my life i have faced hurdles. Now i want to disconnect with god.
Am I doing the right thing??? someone help me.