Dear Guruji's / Sadhakas,
My Details are given below,
13 April 1980
Time: 2.45 pm
Place: Bangalore
I'm facing problems in all phases of life. My education also didn't go well. I got married (love marriage) because of which I had to leave home. And I have no communications with home anymore. My marriage is also not working properly, I have to face lot of abuses and humiliation for silly reasons. I have a job in hand, I have been changing positions continuously within the organisation but with no rewards. Once I was known to all, but from past four years I have sunk to such a level that at least a office boy has dignity but not me. I have no recognition at all, I have reached to top position and fell from there. no promotions or hike. Right now I'm in such a position that I have go and ask boos for work, I have been payed for doing nothing. Feels like joke, but for me its like killing time without doing nothing is such a pain. Boss says, we are restructuring everything, so pls wait for some time. But how much, I have lost patience. I had been positioned for some designation for which changes had to be done by Aug 2012, but everything turned down and now I need to wait !!!!
We are continuously running over debts (personal loans /home loan - we bought house in 2008) and all hard earned money goes to clear this. I have been victimized for the mistakes which I wouldn't have thought about also. In laws said I did some mantras etc,...but how can I. I believe only in God, I silently suffer thinking that the problems will get away soon. At times it feels there is absolutely no problem, but suddenly everything falls on head.
I have not peace/love from home, marriage, work, friends,....I don't know, i'm stuck. But I don't want to die.
Every time I think about this,my inner voice days "Y should I die, I should live and prove, turn things to positive, time will come" ...........but when.
I'm lost, I feel somebody has done something, but how do I find out alone.
Request somebody to plz help me out.
regards,
Manjula