Devotee's Experience - Contributed by Renu

[Guest guest]

Devotee's Experience - Contributed by Renu

 

 

SAI RAM.

 

Hello.. My name is Renu and today I am going to share

something that I will never forget as long as I'm

alive. We are a very happy family, mother, father,

sister and myself. We are all highly spiritual and

god-fearing and believer in SaiBaba. To me, SaiBaba is

more than just God. He is my friend and only companion

for anything. I used to talk and cry to Him whenever

there were problems. My mother was very sick... and

every time her condition became worse, I used to chat

Baba's name repeatedly, apply udi on my amma's

forehead and chest.

 

I used to sing Baba's songs in faith that my amma

would become all right... maybe it was because of

Baba's grace that she survived many times... but..

march 30th, we admitted her in the hospital due to

grave conditions... they kept her in the ICU and did

not allow me, my sis or my appa to see her also. we

were worried a lot.. I wanted her to survive.. I loved

her a lot.. all the faith that I have today is only

because of her upbringing. Evening went and I last saw

her at 7:15. I was outside and crying and praying to

Baba to make a miracle happen that day... I was

singing His song... I always have Baba's photo with

me.. I asked the nurse to keep baba's photo under the

pillow on my mother's bed and she did.. while I was

praying outside the ICU, there was another relative

for someone in the ICU and seeing me chanting and

singing Baba's songs, he came up to me and gave me

Baba's udi and told me not to fear.. I thought this

was an indication that my mother had Baba's blessings

and that she was going to get better. I kept the udi

packet in my left hand with my fist closed. I did not

remove it at all.. I did not move my fingers too.

 

Night came and at 11:05 my mother was dying... the

doctors called us and said that her brain has

failed... I cried to him and then no news at all....

the doctors closed the ICU and did not allow us to see

her. Throughout the night I prayed, cried and begged

Baba for help for my amma. Early morning between 2:30

and 3:00, I was thinking of Baba very deeply in my

mind and was wanting for some miracle to happen... and

glory to Him.... I saw him... I was able to see Baba

in orange dress walking up the staircase with a stick

in His hand and looking slowly at each step as He

climbed up... and then He turned towards me and walked

towards me... I was over confident that my mother is

going to experience a miracle and I'll get her back..

but that did not happen... I lost her... I was

shattered... for a few minutes, I even thought Baba

ditched me.... but I can't even think that way..

because I don't have anybody else also... so again I

went back to him.... and I told myself.. maybe my

mother was lucky.. Baba himself came to take her with

Him. She was lucky. I keep telling myself that Baba's

udi and His photo under her pillow did this.

 

Yes.. I lost my mother and even as I'm typing this

experience I am crying for 2 reasons... one because I

lost her forever... my beloved mother.. my chellam...

but another reason because I was able to see Baba...

I'm crying with the feeling that Baba graced me and my

mother.. He showed His darshan to me.. he loves me I

know that... he will love me... and I love him too.

 

I am not old enough to comment about any principles or

sayings... but I know that anyone who believes in Him

strongly... He will show up and maybe He may not

always grant us what we ask for... but He'll be there

with us.. for us..

 

I love you Baba.

 

Renu

[Guest guest]

Dear Renu,

Please accept our deepest sympathies.

Siva & Seetha

[Guest guest]

Sairam Renu,

 

We share your grief that you are undergoing today. You are so lucky that Avataar himself appeared to take your mom...how many instances this has happened? You are NOT alone....Baba is with you and with everyone who would need solace!

 

Have faith in Baba and I pray Baba to give you strength to withstand this great loss.

 

Sairam.

Abhiram Babu Kandoor

Hyderabad,

India

Cell : 0091 98492 56919

Res: 0091 40 2760 5898

 

sanjaydkarkera <sanjaydkarkera Sent: Tuesday, August 14, 2007 4:39:31 PM[sBOI-post] Re: Devotee's Experience - Contributed by Renu

 

Renu,Sorry to hear about your mom.But one thing is for sure....She is now with Sai Baba and he will take care of her.Like they say the physical plane is like a guest house.However, it quite painful to miss someone.Be in the knowledge that you always have this group to shareyour thoughts and feelings with.Take care, "Swamy Mahadevan" <mahadevanvnswamy@ ...> wrote:>> > Devotee's Experience - Contributed by Renu> > > SAI RAM.> > Hello.. My name is Renu and today I am going to share> something that I will never forget as long as I'm> alive. We are a very happy family, mother, father,> sister and myself. We are all highly spiritual and> god-fearing and believer in SaiBaba. To me, SaiBaba is> more

than just God. He is my friend and only companion> for anything. I used to talk and cry to Him whenever> there were problems. My mother was very sick... and> every time her condition became worse, I used to chat> Baba's name repeatedly, apply udi on my amma's> forehead and chest. > > I used to sing Baba's songs in faith that my amma> would become all right... maybe it was because of> Baba's grace that she survived many times... but..> march 30th, we admitted her in the hospital due to> grave conditions.. . they kept her in the ICU and did> not allow me, my sis or my appa to see her also. we> were worried a lot.. I wanted her to survive.. I loved> her a lot.. all the faith that I have today is only> because of her upbringing. Evening went and I last saw> her at 7:15. I was outside and crying and praying to> Baba to make a miracle happen

that day... I was> singing His song... I always have Baba's photo with> me.. I asked the nurse to keep baba's photo under the> pillow on my mother's bed and she did.. while I was> praying outside the ICU, there was another relative> for someone in the ICU and seeing me chanting and> singing Baba's songs, he came up to me and gave me> Baba's udi and told me not to fear.. I thought this> was an indication that my mother had Baba's blessings> and that she was going to get better. I kept the udi> packet in my left hand with my fist closed. I did not> remove it at all.. I did not move my fingers too. > > Night came and at 11:05 my mother was dying... the> doctors called us and said that her brain has> failed... I cried to him and then no news at all....> the doctors closed the ICU and did not allow us to see> her. Throughout the night I

prayed, cried and begged> Baba for help for my amma. Early morning between 2:30> and 3:00, I was thinking of Baba very deeply in my> mind and was wanting for some miracle to happen... and> glory to Him.... I saw him... I was able to see Baba> in orange dress walking up the staircase with a stick> in His hand and looking slowly at each step as He> climbed up... and then He turned towards me and walked> towards me... I was over confident that my mother is> going to experience a miracle and I'll get her back..> but that did not happen... I lost her... I was> shattered... for a few minutes, I even thought Baba> ditched me.... but I can't even think that way..> because I don't have anybody else also... so again I> went back to him.... and I told myself.. maybe my> mother was lucky.. Baba himself came to take her with> Him. She was lucky. I keep

telling myself that Baba's> udi and His photo under her pillow did this. > > Yes.. I lost my mother and even as I'm typing this> experience I am crying for 2 reasons... one because I> lost her forever... my beloved mother.. my chellam...> but another reason because I was able to see Baba...> I'm crying with the feeling that Baba graced me and my> mother.. He showed His darshan to me.. he loves me I> know that... he will love me... and I love him too.> > I am not old enough to comment about any principles or> sayings... but I know that anyone who believes in Him> strongly... He will show up and maybe He may not> always grant us what we ask for... but He'll be there> with us.. for us..> > I love you Baba.> > Renu>

Pinpoint customers who are looking for what you sell.

[Guest guest]

Sairam Sister,

 

I have gone thru of your mail. It kept me in worry and

accept my condolence. More over I would like to tell

you, We dont know what is good for us as well as to

your Mother. Because he is the Director we have to act

according to his will and play. You should also think

from your beloved mothers side also. If Baba keep her

alive, you will be happy only but you can not share

her physical pain and suffering. Swamy must have

answered her prayer also. It is his will, we can not

decide what is good for us. I remain praying Baba to

give you courage and guide you in this situatation.

 

Sairam

Satyanandam Behara

behara4

 

--- sanjaydkarkera <sanjaydkarkera wrote:

 

> Renu,

> Sorry to hear about your mom.

> But one thing is for sure....

> She is now with Sai Baba and he will take care of

> her.

> Like they say the physical plane is like a guest

> house.

> However, it quite painful to miss someone.

> Be in the knowledge that you always have this group

> to share

> your thoughts and feelings with.

> Take care

>

>

> , " Swamy

> Mahadevan "

> <mahadevanvnswamy wrote:

> >

> >

> > Devotee's Experience - Contributed by Renu

> >

> >

> > SAI RAM.

> >

> > Hello.. My name is Renu and today I am going to

> share

> > something that I will never forget as long as I'm

> > alive. We are a very happy family, mother, father,

> > sister and myself. We are all highly spiritual and

> > god-fearing and believer in SaiBaba. To me,

> SaiBaba is

> > more than just God. He is my friend and only

> companion

> > for anything. I used to talk and cry to Him

> whenever

> > there were problems. My mother was very sick...

> and

> > every time her condition became worse, I used to

> chat

> > Baba's name repeatedly, apply udi on my amma's

> > forehead and chest.

> >

> > I used to sing Baba's songs in faith that my amma

> > would become all right... maybe it was because of

> > Baba's grace that she survived many times... but..

> > march 30th, we admitted her in the hospital due to

> > grave conditions... they kept her in the ICU and

> did

> > not allow me, my sis or my appa to see her also.

> we

> > were worried a lot.. I wanted her to survive.. I

> loved

> > her a lot.. all the faith that I have today is

> only

> > because of her upbringing. Evening went and I last

> saw

> > her at 7:15. I was outside and crying and praying

> to

> > Baba to make a miracle happen that day... I was

> > singing His song... I always have Baba's photo

> with

> > me.. I asked the nurse to keep baba's photo under

> the

> > pillow on my mother's bed and she did.. while I

> was

> > praying outside the ICU, there was another

> relative

> > for someone in the ICU and seeing me chanting and

> > singing Baba's songs, he came up to me and gave me

> > Baba's udi and told me not to fear.. I thought

> this

> > was an indication that my mother had Baba's

> blessings

> > and that she was going to get better. I kept the

> udi

> > packet in my left hand with my fist closed. I did

> not

> > remove it at all.. I did not move my fingers too.

> >

> > Night came and at 11:05 my mother was dying... the

> > doctors called us and said that her brain has

> > failed... I cried to him and then no news at

> all....

> > the doctors closed the ICU and did not allow us to

> see

> > her. Throughout the night I prayed, cried and

> begged

> > Baba for help for my amma. Early morning between

> 2:30

> > and 3:00, I was thinking of Baba very deeply in my

> > mind and was wanting for some miracle to happen...

> and

> > glory to Him.... I saw him... I was able to see

> Baba

> > in orange dress walking up the staircase with a

> stick

> > in His hand and looking slowly at each step as He

> > climbed up... and then He turned towards me and

> walked

> > towards me... I was over confident that my mother

> is

> > going to experience a miracle and I'll get her

> back..

> > but that did not happen... I lost her... I was

> > shattered... for a few minutes, I even thought

> Baba

> > ditched me.... but I can't even think that way..

> > because I don't have anybody else also... so again

> I

> > went back to him.... and I told myself.. maybe my

> > mother was lucky.. Baba himself came to take her

> with

> > Him. She was lucky. I keep telling myself that

> Baba's

> > udi and His photo under her pillow did this.

> >

> > Yes.. I lost my mother and even as I'm typing this

> > experience I am crying for 2 reasons... one

> because I

> > lost her forever... my beloved mother.. my

> chellam...

> > but another reason because I was able to see

> Baba...

> > I'm crying with the feeling that Baba graced me

> and my

> > mother.. He showed His darshan to me.. he loves me

> I

> > know that... he will love me... and I love him

> too.

> >

> > I am not old enough to comment about any

> principles or

> > sayings... but I know that anyone who believes in

> Him

> > strongly... He will show up and maybe He may not

> > always grant us what we ask for... but He'll be

> there

> > with us.. for us..

> >

> > I love you Baba.

> >

> > Renu

> >

>

>

>

 

 

 

5, 50, 500, 5000 - Store unlimited mails in your inbox. Go to

http://help./l/in//mail/mail/tools/tools-08.html