its your friendly k nut (;

October 25, 2009

Hi my kunda friends (:

Hope you are all well! I've been busy and have some challenging times with work.

Oh joy. (: ha

Anyway had some strangeness the other night so strangeness coming at ya! Hope

you don't mind me sharing all this kunda in my lini...

I was laying in bed after being up most of the night. So yes I was tired. It was

dark still but getting close to dawn. I lay there in my pitch black room ...

which turned out to be anything but...

I was laying on my back and my room turned into all these lights flashing

through. Not that this is so strange for me (yes my strange barometer is high)

So first there were flashes of light...just white light and shadows moving. Then

came streaking colors zipping around very beautiful with intense energy moving

quickly. Okay nothing too strange yet...(yeah hit me with a club)

Here is the rather new strangeness...I see first shadow and light moving moving

rapidly swirling swirling ...it then becomes this hugh-a*s tornado in my room.

HUGE!!!! Couldnt see the top cuz it went up over the ceiling. As it was swirling

MASSIVE thing I'm laying there saying Deb...be calm you are not insane

(right???) just surrender and enjoy...well at first I admit admit admit I was a

bit anxious...it was very big and powerful and me...I'm just me...not so big and

powerful. (:

So this one is just over me a bit to the right - while surprise surprise another

one appears to the left of me. Oh joy - (:(:

Honestly they were so big and powerful I am still shocked that there was no wind

(well except that cold air in spots blowing through me but that i wickedly admit

i rather like) - I mean the entire room should have blown away but there I am

.... telling myself...surrender surrender this is all good. So I manage to

surrender (i mean hiding under covers like I mentioned before does not work

because I've tried so many times!)

So I did something sorta brave for me! Drumroll please.....

I took my cover - my lovely blanket I use as support like a child

....(whatever.(:..) and I pushed it (a bit meekishly) off most of my body and

said, " I surrender. " (this is brave for me - btw I do know it never matters

anyway if I have my blanket or not whatever is gonna happen...happens anyway so

its probably not really so brave...ha...it was more a " look i can surrender "

thing - as if the gods that be can appreciate that and be gentle with me! (:

As these tornados were doing their thing all these brillant little specks of

light in all different colors were flying out - flying out rapidly - swirling

energy major moving - so powerful freaky strange!(it is strange how i always see

these little sparkling lights flying out of my tunnel thing too and other

things...must have some significance i think?)

Well when I pushed off the blanket I felt in my stomach this one spot begin to

tighten and compress as if somebody was turning it - it became taut and it

wasn't pain just sensation. I did have that dream awhile back about two blocks

in my stomach (the dream was in) so I kinda think somehow in all this

weirdness those tornados were helping me. I just lay there and let it do its

thing. Then it moved ahem....up to the girls...(: first the right-then the left

.... i guess you could say they started the engines, turned the headlights on and

were off to the races... 'cuz then the energy moved to all different spots on my

body - my arm - my leg - one by one these places were visited (: - just a

feeling of something being turned and getting tight tighter and then nothing?

Although I did feel shakti stimulating my back too...

So I lay there in surrender and honestly it was quite beautiful my room with all

these lights flashing and colors zipping by and said thank you and sent love

along with reminding myself I'm not insane this is just a little kunda for my

lini or something I don't understand. Right???? People??? Someone??? Its just

that those 2 tornados were so big you know and moving so intensely with so much

power it was as if being a speck of sand in a hurricane...but i was brave for

me, although still have to work on questioning my sanity during those

times...(:...still seem to have to talk myself up a bit.

(my self-talk is quite amusing - like the little engine that could)

So I was really tired and watched this for close to an hour but then decided it

doesnt need me so I'm just gonna go to sleep...and I did.

When I woke up my friendly neighborly tornados were gone and after only a couple

hours of sleep felt incredibly good all day.

Can't tell you what that was about but I'm still here and have this feeling they

were helping me. (Do you call tornados " they? " )

I always wonder whats up ... I mean you read stories of people getting visited

my beautiful angels....I get visited by tornados...is their meaning in this I'm

missing? I mainly always see everything as energy...i still have that feeling of

a screwdriver turning in my forehead - sometimes it feels like a long drill bit

that goes through my head and out the back...that probably sounds like its

painful but its not its just the best way i can describe it...maybe it needs a

few more turns ... (:

Beside that everything is the same...whenever I focus on love a girls voice

sings to me over my head...

Please place your votes...say YAY for not insane -

(only looking for yays my friends!)

Wishing you all some more kunda in your lini! (;

Debs (:

October 25, 2009

yay, debs you're back

and YAY you ARE insane... in a very in- and very -sane yay way.

your posts always put me in such a yay mood,

yay for tornadoes,

yay yay yay!!

Lucia

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

> Please place your votes...say YAY for not insane -

> (only looking for yays my friends!)

>

> Wishing you all some more kunda in your lini! (;

>

> Debs (:

>

October 25, 2009

Oh God Lucia you are like a beautiful present! I wish I could wrap you up in a

big red bow and only allow the kindest people who completely adore you get

anywhere near you! Hope you are imagining me right now with red ribbons wrapping

you up and sending you out into the world! I just got this image of you walking

around like that ... I'm cracking up because I'm thinking about what all the

guys are gonna be thinking when they see you!!!!!!!!hahahahahaha (kinda like the

girl jumping out of the cake!hahaha)

Yes I know how to amuse myself!

And you know what Lucia Lucia Lucia????

I did assualt someone that day in the forest! How proud of me are you right now?

(:

I was in the forest with all this energy...(I think Curly (Craig) may have been

right about the energy of anxiety and enthusiasm...I was really high in anxiety

and it turned into crazy enthusiasm!)

Anyway I ran off some energy in the forest and came to this crossroads...these

paths that lead in different directions...Do I want to go to the pond? Do I want

to go where the Deer usually are? Do I want to go deep deep into the forest

where its dark and kinda scary yet magical too?

So I was standing there like a crazy person ready to burst with so much

energy...oh and btw I looked like one too...I had these high yellow rubber boots

on like a kid - and this crazy football black makeup under my eyes (i forgot i

had that on - sometimes i go to the pond and look around the sun and it helps

the reflection so I look like a little girl/wanna be football player?)

Anyway here comes this old old man. I see him there sometimes with his

great?grandchildren. He is so kind to them. God I love this man! He is soooooooo

sweet!!!!! He is so sweet to his greatgrandkids!

And you know what else is cute about him? (Say What Deb?) When he walks he

almost tips over in this beautiful way. That probably does not sound nice - I

don't wish him to topple over but he walks so slow and after each step kinda

tips to one side. God he is cute! Oh and he has this really great buddha belly

that sticks out - and we know how I love those ... so prepare for the assualt...

He sees me and asks whats wrong dear? I'm laughing (cuz I know its stupid ...

just pick a path!!!)

And I tell him I don't know which way to go...and he for the longest longest

time is thinking about this in deep thought - I'm wondering what there is to

think about? ha

He takes off his hat and starts rubbing his beautiful bald head! How cute is

that? And I'm in that assualting mood and just want to kiss that head! He slowly

(and I do mean slowly here) puts his hat back on and then with one hand is

scratching his forehead and with the other hand is rubbing his belly!!!!! His

belly!!! Rub - Rub!! Now I am just looking at that glorious belly! hahahahaha

And you know what he says? (after forever mind you!)

He says... " Dear, I think you should pick the path that makes you the happiest! "

NO kidding!!! I almost started to cry! Isn't he lovely!?!?!

So what did I do? Yes!!! You know it! I asked him if I could squeeze him and I

did! And I took his hat off and kissed that beautiful bald head -of course I

tried not to tip him over! And then I did the craziest thing...I asked him if I

could rub his belly!!! He laughed and said ...ok. So I rubbed that beautiful

buddha belly and gave it a big kiss and was starting to run off, said bye and

was laughing as I picked the path of the deer.

After a few steps ... he says so seriously... " Dear...if you are trying to make

yourself look scary (he points to under his eyes and then my eyes which I forgot

about that black makeup) I think you might need to try a little harder! "

I was almost peeing in my pants laughing so hard at that!

So I felt great!!! I ran by Curlys house and saw him lock up all the windows and

doors! Hey Curly - look outside you might see a beautiful girl with a red bow

wrapped on her! hahaha

Lucia Lucia Lucia hope you are well - you always make me happy too!

Much love!!! Thanks for the " Yay " my friend!

Debs (:

, " lari.lu " <lari.lu

wrote:

>

> yay, debs you're back

October 25, 2009

P.S. - woops - i wrote this very fast and left and then i thought about what I

wrote about sending you over by curlys in a red bow...so just to clarify

here...I DIDN " T mean it like that!!!

Honestly - lock me up!! hahaha

I just meant to spread your sunshine around! hahaha

Don't change your vote to a " Nay " okay Lucia? (:(

Much love my red ribboned friend! (:

Debs (:

October 25, 2009

wow that must have been intense, and I'll give you a YAY for not insane, lol.

Good way to handle it too, pushing the blanket away, letting down the armor, and

allowing yourself to be vulnerable.

IT's good to hear from you, I've missed the wackiness .

craig

, " flowerpowers7777 "

<flowerpowers7777 wrote:

>

> Hi my kunda friends (:

>

> Hope you are all well! I've been busy and have some challenging times with

work. Oh joy. (: ha

>

> Anyway had some strangeness the other night so strangeness coming at ya! Hope

you don't mind me sharing all this kunda in my lini...

>

> I was laying in bed after being up most of the night. So yes I was tired. It

was dark still but getting close to dawn. I lay there in my pitch black room ...

which turned out to be anything but...

>

> I was laying on my back and my room turned into all these lights flashing

through. Not that this is so strange for me (yes my strange barometer is high)

>

> So first there were flashes of light...just white light and shadows moving.

Then came streaking colors zipping around very beautiful with intense energy

moving quickly. Okay nothing too strange yet...(yeah hit me with a club)

>

> Here is the rather new strangeness...I see first shadow and light moving

moving rapidly swirling swirling ...it then becomes this hugh-a*s tornado in my

room. HUGE!!!! Couldnt see the top cuz it went up over the ceiling. As it was

swirling MASSIVE thing I'm laying there saying Deb...be calm you are not insane

(right???) just surrender and enjoy...well at first I admit admit admit I was a

bit anxious...it was very big and powerful and me...I'm just me...not so big and

powerful. (:

>

> So this one is just over me a bit to the right - while surprise surprise

another one appears to the left of me. Oh joy - (:(:

>

> Honestly they were so big and powerful I am still shocked that there was no

wind (well except that cold air in spots blowing through me but that i wickedly

admit i rather like) - I mean the entire room should have blown away but there I

am ... telling myself...surrender surrender this is all good. So I manage to

surrender (i mean hiding under covers like I mentioned before does not work

because I've tried so many times!)

>

> So I did something sorta brave for me! Drumroll please.....

>

> I took my cover - my lovely blanket I use as support like a child

....(whatever.(:..) and I pushed it (a bit meekishly) off most of my body and

said, " I surrender. " (this is brave for me - btw I do know it never matters

anyway if I have my blanket or not whatever is gonna happen...happens anyway so

its probably not really so brave...ha...it was more a " look i can surrender "

thing - as if the gods that be can appreciate that and be gentle with me! (:

>

> As these tornados were doing their thing all these brillant little specks of

light in all different colors were flying out - flying out rapidly - swirling

energy major moving - so powerful freaky strange!(it is strange how i always see

these little sparkling lights flying out of my tunnel thing too and other

things...must have some significance i think?)

>

> Well when I pushed off the blanket I felt in my stomach this one spot begin to