Guest guest Posted November 19, 2006 Report Share Posted November 19, 2006 Not many escape the ghetto, but some do, and they are notable for their courage and steadfastness. But you will always find behind those who made it, someone who loved and nurtured them – who kept the faith and vision alive and ever-present. There is another ghetto, a ghetto of the spirit and like its physical counterpart, it is a dangerous place. Not long ago I was notified I offended a person's sensibilities. So if you're looking for gilt-edged, aren't-we-wonderful posts, pass mine by, because some of them will be postmarked "The Ghetto". Chris and I were about to discuss a possible situation when he sent me here, saying this forum was better suited to it. He called it a "Tau split" and hasn't offered up much of anything about it. I'm guessing it's `my move'. I have, for all intents and purposes, been two people – lived two lives. First a life of material and social success (I think excess is a better word). Then there came a period when my life began to morally offend me. My conscience began to turn on everything that I was; like an auto-immune disease. I was controller of an oil company, and then a bottled water company. Sparing you the details (Yea!) one morning I went to the office, put my stuff in a box, the keys on the owner's desk and never looked back. I was a fallen angel, and believe me, I look on those poor souls with empathy now. I felt I was cast into the darkness where God's light does not shine, His love does not penetrate. I felt God had abandoned me and when even complete and total surrender did not deliver me back into His love and grace I decided that if God is not here in this wasteland, if His light will not shine in this darkness; lost though I am, I will be Love, I will be Forgiveness – whatever light I can muster I will shine for all who despair. And there was put in my heart the seed of compassion and it found fertile ground. So I don't know what a `Tau split' is, but if that's what happened then fine, I wouldn't re-write a day of my life. (?Ok, that DUI back in '82 could go. Well, no, come to think of it, that night in a cell with 30 offenders was pretty neat). I am strong and fearless today, ready to help. Ready to carry those who cannot carry themselves. Like I said earlier, get on my shoulders, it's a much better view. BTW, tell me what it looks like up there. I fell in to a burning ring of fire I went down, down, down and the flames went higher And it burned, burned, burned That ring of fire That ring of fire - Johnny Cash -richard Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2006 Report Share Posted November 19, 2006 =] Our posts crossed. Thank you for sharing more. The Ghetto is an interesting place. We are never abandoned but I've found the experience of the darkness to be like a seed in the ground...going from strength to strength through the Force that moves through us... that causes the acorn to grow into an oak. imho You're looking good! love, dhyana , " richard " <eyeoneblack wrote: > > > Not many escape the ghetto, but some do, and they are notable for their > courage and steadfastness. But you will always find behind those who > made it, someone who loved and nurtured them – who kept the faith > and vision alive and ever-present. > > There is another ghetto, a ghetto of the spirit and like its physical > counterpart, it is a dangerous place. > > Not long ago I was notified I offended a person's sensibilities. So > if you're looking for gilt-edged, aren't-we-wonderful posts, > pass mine by, because some of them will be postmarked " The > Ghetto " . > > > > Chris and I were about to discuss a possible situation when he sent me > here, saying this forum was better suited to it. He called it a > " Tau split " and hasn't offered up much of anything about it. > I'm guessing it's `my move'. > > I have, for all intents and purposes, been two people – lived two > lives. First a life of material and social success (I think excess is a > better word). Then there came a period when my life began to morally > offend me. My conscience began to turn on everything that I was; like > an auto-immune disease. I was controller of an oil company, and then a > bottled water company. Sparing you the details (Yea!) one morning I > went to the office, put my stuff in a box, the keys on the owner's > desk and never looked back. > > I was a fallen angel, and believe me, I look on those poor souls with > empathy now. I felt I was cast into the darkness where God's light > does not shine, His love does not penetrate. I felt God had abandoned > me and when even complete and total surrender did not deliver me back > into His love and grace I decided that if God is not here in this > wasteland, if His light will not shine in this darkness; lost though I > am, I will be Love, I will be Forgiveness – whatever light I can > muster I will shine for all who despair. And there was put in my heart > the seed of compassion and it found fertile ground. > > So I don't know what a `Tau split' is, but if that's > what happened then fine, I wouldn't re-write a day of my life. > (?Ok, that DUI back in '82 could go. Well, no, come to think of it, > that night in a cell with 30 offenders was pretty neat). I am strong > and fearless today, ready to help. Ready to carry those who cannot > carry themselves. Like I said earlier, get on my shoulders, it's a > much better view. BTW, tell me what it looks like up there. > > > > I fell in to a burning ring of fire > > I went down, down, down and the flames went higher > > And it burned, burned, burned > > That ring of fire > > That ring of fire > > - Johnny Cash > > > > -richard > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 19, 2006 Report Share Posted November 19, 2006 Dearest Richard, please forgive me for using the wrong word. I had lost the original post I was writing to you and hurried to pull one together before I had to rush off to work. I feel awful that you were left with such an awful experience of what I wrote. I am truly sorry. You're right...it is not an interesting experience...at least not while you're in it. In fact it is a heart, mind and gut wrenching experience. A damn nasty time. Its amazing anyone survives it. I remember waking up many mornings and crying because I had to live another day. Believe me, I know how dark it can get. I am not heartless...I just used the wrong word. Surely you can find it in your heart to forgive me? You are still Beloved Richard, and you're still Home. That hasn't changed. Love, dhyana --- richard <eyeoneblack wrote: > --- In > , > " novalees " > <Novalees wrote: > The ghetto is not an 'interesting' place. > kisses and hugs - richard > > > > ______________________________\ ____ Sponsored Link Mortgage rates near 39yr lows. $420k for $1,399/mo. Calculate new payment! www.LowerMyBills.com/lre Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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