Guest guest Posted July 22, 2005 Report Share Posted July 22, 2005 Hello all, here I go again. I hope I make it this time. They had some kind of liquid, hot chocolate drink by Starbucks at some event the other day, and I passed it up. But they I started to obsess on it so badly that I went to Starbuck's and luckily they had it and I drank it. It tasted like liquid chocolate. But it really sends my head into a tizzy not to be raw. There have been other items in the recent past that I've gone ballistically obsessive on mentally and just had to eat, non-raw items that is. Well, nothing tastes all that great and I'm so much happier raw that I better just stay that way. It's easier to stay raw than it is to get raw again is what I'm learning. After I had a about two months raw last time I was raw, I wouldn't eat non-raw for anything and nothing could tempt me. I only lost my raw eating because I was upset about a non-eating issue. Well, I'm headed to some events tonight and throughout the weekend that will, of course, have a lot of non-raw items available. I pray I don't go there, I really want my raw life back. This relapse is almost two months old. There's a conference coming up at the end of the month that I want to be in good shape mentally for and the only way to do that is to have some raw time going into it. I like staying up late and getting up early naturally on my raw diet. I've been sleeping in, of course, non-raw, trying to reset mentally. I've also been drinking being non-raw, a very bad thing for an alcoholic, a lot of bad things have happened to me over this time. My mother said that if I make a ruckus while drinking at home again that I'm out of the house for good, and I really, truly, have absolutely no where to go; at least not anywhere that would be even one-fifth as nice considering my poor, unemployed status. And I can only imagine how much harder it would be to be raw if I didn't have this place to stay. I have other character defects that bother me too. Rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 23, 2005 Report Share Posted July 23, 2005 Ok I am sorry about all the angst you are going through but thanx for this line: Froggy <seconaphim wrote: I have other character defects that bother me too.Rich Don't we all???? And isn't part of growing learning to love ourselves JUST THE WAY WE ARE??? I am struggling with this also so I can really relate. Walking this path laughingly one step at a time, I AM Silon The Down to Earth Spiritual Healer and Intuitive http://down2earthspirit.com Sign up for monthly channeled articles and intuited information at Down2earthspiritstuff Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 24, 2005 Report Share Posted July 24, 2005 Hey, Rich, glad to see you posting. I'm sorry for the current struggles. The best I can offer this way is my thoughts and prayers, and I will keep you there daily. I check my email nearly every day, too, and I'll post as often as I can if you want that kind of support as well. Hanging in there with you....Valerie Froggy <seconaphim wrote: Hello all, here I go again. I hope I make it this time. They had some kind of liquid, hot chocolate drink by Starbucks at some event the other day, and I passed it up. But they I started to obsess on it so badly that I went to Starbuck's and luckily they had it and I drank it. It tasted like liquid chocolate. But it really sends my head into a tizzy not to be raw. There have been other items in the recent past that I've gone ballistically obsessive on mentally and just had to eat, non-raw items that is. Well, nothing tastes all that great and I'm so much happier raw that I better just stay that way. It's easier to stay raw than it is to get raw again is what I'm learning. After I had a about two months raw last time I was raw, I wouldn't eat non-raw for anything and nothing could tempt me. I only lost my raw eating because I was upset about a non-eating issue. Well, I'm headed to some events tonight and throughout the weekend that will, of course, have a lot of non-raw items available. I pray I don't go there, I really want my raw life back. This relapse is almost two months old. There's a conference coming up at the end of the month that I want to be in good shape mentally for and the only way to do that is to have some raw time going into it. I like staying up late and getting up early naturally on my raw diet. I've been sleeping in, of course, non-raw, trying to reset mentally. I've also been drinking being non-raw, a very bad thing for an alcoholic, a lot of bad things have happened to me over this time. My mother said that if I make a ruckus while drinking at home again that I'm out of the house for good, and I really, truly, have absolutely no where to go; at least not anywhere that would be even one-fifth as nice considering my poor, unemployed status. And I can only imagine how much harder it would be to be raw if I didn't have this place to stay. I have other character defects that bother me too. Rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 29, 2005 Report Share Posted July 29, 2005 you're welcome, i thought it was a very nice innocuous line even if i was referring to something specific about myself. i don't know about loving myself just the way i am, i'd rather be in a happy state of mind loving myself, it's hard i think to really love yourself when you're suffering a lot of angst. rich rawfood , <down2earthspirit> wrote: > Ok I am sorry about all the angst you are going through but thanx for this line: > > Froggy <seconaphim> wrote: I have other character defects that bother me too.Rich > > Don't we all???? And isn't part of growing learning to love ourselves JUST THE WAY WE ARE??? I am struggling with this also so I can really relate. > > > > > Walking this path laughingly one step at a time, > > I AM Silon > The Down to Earth Spiritual Healer and Intuitive > http://down2earthspirit.com > > Sign up for monthly channeled articles and intuited information at Down2earthspiritstuff > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 29, 2005 Report Share Posted July 29, 2005 i've been letting my e-mail slip because of my struggles but hopefully i can get it going daily again. i appreciate all posts. rich rawfood , Valerie Mills Daly <valdaly> wrote: > Hey, Rich, glad to see you posting. I'm sorry for the current struggles. The best I can offer this way is my thoughts and prayers, and I will keep you there daily. I check my email nearly every day, too, and I'll post as often as I can if you want that kind of support as well. > > Hanging in there with you....Valerie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 30, 2005 Report Share Posted July 30, 2005 But there is the beauty- when we love ourselves as we are the angst feels loved too and changes/heals. Froggy <seconaphim wrote:you're welcome, i thought it was a very nice innocuous line even if i was referring to something specific about myself. i don't know about loving myself just the way i am, i'd rather be in a happy state of mind loving myself, it's hard i think to really love yourself when you're suffering a lot of angst. rich rawfood , <down2earthspirit> wrote: > Ok I am sorry about all the angst you are going through but thanx for this line: > > Froggy <seconaphim> wrote: I have other character defects that bother me too.Rich > > Don't we all???? And isn't part of growing learning to love ourselves JUST THE WAY WE ARE??? I am struggling with this also so I can really relate. > > > > > Walking this path laughingly one step at a time, > > I AM Silon > The Down to Earth Spiritual Healer and Intuitive > http://down2earthspirit.com > > Sign up for monthly channeled articles and intuited information at Down2earthspiritstuff > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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