emotional detox: Feeling Deprived (WAS: Relearning to eat)

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Annette and ,

Oh! Thank Goodness I'm not the only one! I've been trying to stay on

the " raw wagon " for the past few months now, and I have the same

emotional rollercoaster ride you two are talking about. You can't

imagine how great it feels to know that there are others out there

who are feeling the same way I do. You don't read about this side

of raw. Everyone I've spoken to tells me how once you go raw

everything is wonderful and great...they tell you about detox and

the physical aspect of detoxing...they don't tell you about the

emotional detox you go through. In fact...writing this now I think

it will be easier for me to do the things I've been striving to do

now that I understand that my huge mood swings are not me going

nuts...it's part of the emotional detox that happens when you

physically detox as well.

 

When I first went raw I didn't have this kind of detox...I just

slipped easily into the raw lifestyle...but then I got a

boyfriend...and trying to stay raw when you're always out with

others is quite difficult. And unless you're raw, which none of my

friends are, you can't possibly understand.

 

Anyway, thanks gals for helping me understand I'm not the only one.

Now I can get past this and move on from my emotional troubles and

be my healthiest! Thanks

Ursula

rawfood , " Annette " <cloudriver> wrote:

> Whoa! If I hadn't seen 's name at the end of her post, I

> would've thought that I'd written it without knowing it.

> absolutely put into words what has happened to me with very little

> difference.

>

> In preparation for a fast, I was following suggestions on

preparing my

> body. My diet was extremely limited and included zero fat.

(Similar to

> Frederic's " cleanse. " ) I don't remember how long I lasted. A little

> over a week, I think. Then emotional stuff came up for me. Some was

> caused by familial circumstances and my current inability to deal

with

> them. Some was caused by my feelings of deprivation.

>

> The emotional breakdown resulted in me feeling like there wasn't

> enough food in the world for me. I would watch myself, even think

> about the horrible things I was doing to myself, and I couldn't

stop.

> I didn't even like the physical symptoms that appeared instantly

> (stiff joints, edema, " leaky " ears and eyes in the morning, etc.).

> Still, the fruits and veggies went to waste while I reached instead

> for refined sugars and carbs, and fats. Worst of all, I became

really

> depressed. I haven't left the house in two days (I've ignored my

pager

> calling me to a Search & Rescue mission), and have slept in until

10AM

> the last two mornings. (I usually *love* mornings and get up

early.)

>

> Today is my first day back to being all raw, and I've been eating

> almost constantly (bananas, apple/wheatgrass juice, watermelon,

and an

> enormous salad with olive oil). I'll probably have to go to bed

soon

> to save myself from any thinking of checking the cupboards for

> something else. I don't know what to do to keep the emotions at

bay. I

> considered taking my tent and sleeping bag, some bananas and

> watermelon, and going out into the woods for three days...

>

> There was a recurring thought through all this.... I learned in a

> class several years ago that our results tell the truth about us.

In

> other words, it doesn't matter how much I talk about how being

healthy

> is important to me. If I'm not healthy or working toward being

> healthy, then basically I'm telling a lie. So the angel sitting on

one

> shoulder was reminding me of how I want to be healthy, strong,

agile,

> and at the perfect weight for me. The devil on the other shoulder

was

> pointing out that my actions tell a different story.

>

> This is longer than I intended. Mostly I just want to thank

for

> putting my current feelings into words. I am truly miserable right

now.

>

> Annette

> (Washington State)

>

> rawfood , <down2earthspirit>

wrote:

> > Well, I was on my way to 80% raw when my inner child completely

> threw a tantrum about the lack of fat in my diet. That is why I

was so

> intrigued by these comments. Plus diebetes runs in the family and I

> have experienced hypoglycemia in my lifetime. I actually didn't

miss

> the sugar (surprise) as much as I thought, but I had an very strong

> emotional reaction to the lack of fat and was not able to continue

> eating so much raw. I may have had a physical reaction to but the

> emotional was so strong, couldn't tell. AND that was only after 2

> weeks. Now I feel panic everyt ime I think of going back to a

diet so

> high in raw. I can't even make myself eat the lettuce I have in

the

> fridge and I don't have the extra money to waste food.