woops, there goes another rubber tree

[Guest guest]

Just what makes that little old ant

Think hell move that rubber tree plant

Anyone knows an ant, cant

Move a rubber tree plant

 

But hes got high hopes, hes got high hopes

Hes got high apple pie, in the sky hopes

 

So any time your gettin low

stead of lettin go

Just remember that ant

Oops there goes another rubber tree plant

 

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Maybe I am not psychotic

Maybe I know that I am not really smarter than anyone else

Yes, I know

I am not better or smarter than anyone else

I am not a genius

My blood flows, my muscles convulse, my brain functions

Pretty much like ne1 else

 

But I do feel more aware

In fact, I am positive that

my perspective on aspects of life have extreme merit

Yet, I know that I am also not smarter than ne1 else

So this is how I explain my unique awareness

 

Look at ants

I look at ants

They scuttle around, and hunt for food

Some lone ant, crawling around my kitchen

Going where no ant has ever gone before

I see him and kill him

Oh sure, sometimes I do take the time to fly him first class far away

But most of the time, I forget my zen center and just kill him

I feel bad about it, but there are billions of them

And if I don't kill him

He will tell all his friends, family and neighbors

And then they will all come

 

.... I see one ant find some remote cache of decayed food

I know he will go home and tell everyone where it is

He is a hero

He is a genius

He found the holy grail

I wonder if he can retire now

I wonder if the girl ants all want to have sex with him

I wonder

Probably not, they don't have egos like we do

Or do they

Little ant egos

 

I am like an ant

I have gone where no man has gone before

Not because I am smarter

Its just a fluke

I just took an obscure side road that no other ant has seen before

I discovered the holy grail

But no one will check out my cache

Everyone laughs at me and says I am psychotic

Everyone tells me I am the one with the sick ego

No one cares what I have to say

 

I have been there

" I have touched the sky " (star trek quote)

Come, take a look

You can see it too

 

But no

I am the ant that no one trusts

Maybe I have gone too far

Maybe I smell too bad

Maybe I am too ugly

Maybe I am will always be ignored and alone

 

But I have seen what no one will

And I give up trying to show the promised land anymore

 

If I was really smart

I could've figured out how to communicate with others

Such that they are sufficiently motivated to explore what I have seen

So therefore I am positive

I am not smarter than other people

I am just the ant that happened upon the holy grail

 

Too bad I am not smart enough to communicate with others

In fact, I must be a stupid ant

Nevertheless, I have seen it

and you (most of you) will never get a clue

 

I was an iv heroin user for 6 years

I was morbidly obese at 300 lbs

I was crippled with herniated disks and excruciating sciatica

I was diagnosed with a terminal colon disease

Etc, yada yada, ad nauseum, choleterol, et.al. anon, blah blah blah ...

That was the obscure path I traveled

A path that no one goes and survives

 

All the people I have know have died

I was the only one who got out of the maze (temporarily)

You don't have to shoot dope to see it

You just have to give me a penny of trust

 

But I know I am pissing into the wind

 

I think that next time, I am coming back as an ant

They will listen to me

At least one of them will check it out

Yes, maybe I would rather be an ant

They have such a nice social life

 

|3etaman, firepriest

 

ps - be nice to me or i'll spoil your next picnic