Anger; some more positivity for tanya

March 12, 2003

" one who gazes into the vision of the chariot first descends and then

ascends, " (the Bahir); this might also help.... you are doing all this out

of gratitude and respect for the amazing gift given to you....your body.

nach

>Tanya Gunby <leeandtanya

>RawSeattle

><RawSeattle >

>Re: [RawSeattle] Re: Anger

>Sat, 01 Mar 2003 22:47:09 -0800

>

>Thank you, thank you! This is just what I needed! I was doing fine for

>the

>first few days (night time is really hard because everyone else in this

>family eats cooked) but right now I almost feel like I'm going off on the

>deep end. I'm doing pretty good about having a lot of fruit around and eat

>it when everyone else is eating what they do. It's been a bad 2 days.

>Thanks so much for the encouragement. I'm know I'll be ranting on and on

>real soon here.

>

>Is it ok to be fruitarian? I keep thinking if I'm just that, I'll die or

>something.

>

>Thank you Monte!

>

>Tanya

>

>on 3/1/03 10:10 PM, mavalkyrie <mavalkyrie at

>mavalkyrie wrote:

>

>Hi Tanya,

>

>Nothing I can say is going to make it any easier, but I really think

>it is worth it. I went through over a week of feeling super bad, I

>mean awful, so I can relate. I went from a horrible diet to basically

>mono fruitarian over night, and believe me I paid a price. But it is

>so worth it. Just try and remember you are doing something good for

>your body. And eating raw is normal, eating cooked is not normal, we

>have just been doing it for so long, we forgot. I really believe

>that. I still have hard days, it's been over 3 weeks. Stay raw,

>because it is so much easier to stay raw, than to give in and eat a

>cooked meal, and then to try and go back to 100% raw. One thing that

>has helped me is to try to think about the things I 'can' eat, a nice

>ripe mango, strawberries, etc instead of what I 'can't' eat. Also if

>something (cooked) catches my eye, I walk away, rather than looking

>at it and thinking about it and letting it torture me. I have ate

>cooked for over 30 years, I am not going to end that pattern over

>night, without any problems. About the 'condescending book', I bet I

>know which book that is, and I did throw it across the room! Then I

>read something more encouraging about the raw food style, and less

>harsh about not eating 100% raw. What types of things are you eating

>other than fruit? Right now if I eat raw brocolli or cauliflower, it

>also puts my insides in knots. But fruit and greens seem ok.

>Eventually my system will deal with other raw foods better. If you

>need someone to talk to, I am here, just email me or call me. If you

>don't have my phone number email me privately and I will send it to

>you.

>

>Hang in there!

>

>Monte

>

>RawSeattle , Tanya Gunby <leeandtanya@e...>

>wrote:

> > Right now, I'm feeling pretty angry about this whole raw food

>decision. I'm

> > mad because I still feel like sh**, I'm mad because I want " normal "

>food and

> > I'm mad because every time I turn around it seems like I'm

>thinking " Nooo, I

> > can't eat that because it's cooked. "

> >

> > I know this is a healthy way to go, it just doesn't stop the anger

>from

> > being there. I read all this information about how this is the

>best way and

> > another book is condescending towards those who don't choose this

>way (I

> > don't feel that way towards others in the slightest) and look at

>those

> > " other people " , they fall dead because " they " eat all cooked food.

>I just

> > want to throw the book across the room.

> >

> > Please someone tell me this gets better. The past two days have

>been awful.

> > I feel really bad physically. If I don't stick to fruit, I have

>major

> > digestion problems. Painful cramps. I'm doubled over in pain. To

>the

> > point where I wonder if this is worth it. I'm sure it is. I'm

>just having

> > problems thinking that right now.

> >

> > Maybe I'm just a whiner (ha)

> >

> > Tanya G

>

March 12, 2003

on 3/12/03 1:45 PM, nachman laufman at n_laufman wrote:

" one who gazes into the vision of the chariot first descends and then

ascends, " (the Bahir); this might also help.... you are doing all this out

of gratitude and respect for the amazing gift given to you....your body.

nach "

That's a great quote and something to always keep in mind. I'm printing some of these emails out and posting them all over the house. It does help to keep reading them. Actually I'm doing very well. We went to Spokane over the weekend because my husband had a tournament to run. In the hotel, I fell of the bed, broke my middle toe (not realizing that I had done that) then walked all over downtown Spokane with the baby. We were gone for about 3 1/2 hours and I wasn't even tired. I have Chronic fatigue and Fibromyalgia and haven't done that in a very long time. Usually I have to psych myself up for this kind of thing and I didn't even have to think about it. I just did it. I looked at my toe later that night and it was purple and looking pretty bad. The next day it actually looked pretty normal. It still hurts, but it's healing surprisingly fast. Anyway, blah blah blah!

Thanks!

Tanya