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Well I am here because i am very depressed and for quite sometime. I

have had several deaths in the family, and illnesses in the family

that resulted in death. And I have lost all motivation to do

anything. I was put on antidepressants, and antianxiety medication

and those have not helped. In fact I do not feel anything most of the

time, because I think those pharmaceuticals mess with your sense of

reality and make you very listless, and detached from the world. I

dont really want to continue living a numb life, where i dont care

about anything, and stay home most of the time to avoid having to do

anything, sleep late, go to bed late, and do nothing with most of my

life.

 

I really would like to find a purpose in my life, and i have tried

some alternative treatments for depression but they have not worked.

I have tried different medications as well and they have not worked,

and read almost every positive thinking self help book known to man,

but those have not helped either.

 

I am lately in a funk and cant get myself to even do simple things

like grocery shopping, or chores around the house, i dont have a job,

and dont bother looking for one.

 

I just feel like my spirit has somehow been broken, and that I dont

care about life. I am not suicidal. But i just do not seem to care

about anything in my life. I am not social anymore and choose to be

alone most of the time.

 

I would like to chat with other members who feel this way or have

felt this way and see what they did to get out of the hole. It seems

the longer this goes on, the harder it is to get out of the habbit of

being in a funk like this.

 

I remember a time I was happy and not depressed, but after a lot of

horrible things happening in my life from 25- now 29 years old, I am

in a downward spiral, and would like some help.

 

I have gone to different therapists, and all we do is talk therapy

and honestly i am sick of talking to therapists about my life and

getting a one word answer. It doesnt work for me. And im quite sick

of going to psychiatrists, and getting on different medications which

make me tired, or supress my feelings completely, to where i feel

like i dont even exist. At first I remember the medication working,

then after many months it just stopped working, and made me more

unhappy, then they change me from medication to medication like an

experiment, and nothing has worked. After a while your brain

chemistry is completely changed and without the medication you feel

even worse. Almost as if the symptoms they are supposed to treat,

actually come back worse without them. I would like to find some

meaning in my life, and feel more positive, and there is really no

drug that does that, and nothing that i have found so far to do that.

 

I need help