depression

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Hi Everyone,

 

I found it necessary to go off antidepressants. I had been taking them

for Obsessive compulsive disorder. Since going off of them about 2

months ago I have become extremely depressed. I have often been

depressed because I am disabled and have a very difficult life but I

have never experienced anything like this. This goes way beyond that

previous unhappiness. I beleive that withdrawal itself produced the

problem. But since it has been a little more than 2 months now I am

afraid that the drugs caused permanenet brain damage and that I will

never be O.k. again. I feel so empty inside. I force myself to

function but it doesn't releive the emptiness and I am unable to get

interested in anything. I have always loved to read for instance but I

can't read anymore,reading seems pointless. I think about killing

myself everyday and research methods to do so because when I am

planning suicide is the only time I feel some hope of controlling my

own fate and stopping the emptiness and the pain. Circumstances

prevent me from seeking counseling. Does anyone know anything that

might help?