Guest guest Posted May 24, 2005 Report Share Posted May 24, 2005 > > >Apparantely I upset some people with my - Just a journal entry. Not sure why my history and life changes would offend anyone but for whatever reason I appologize. > > Grats to Pony on all your wonderful life changes. Peace Deana > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 24, 2005 Report Share Posted May 24, 2005 Wow, you are brave, Deana... I see myself in you more than you think. I am also premature born, and had no kind human touch for 3 months. Everyone with some intelligence knows that a baby who go through no touch from its mother that long, do have something to battle. The fibromyalgia I have, is based on numerous traumas I have had in my life. Because basically it shows up as a symptom of that the body is in fight-and-flight mode all the time. I havent been able to relax since I was 11 years old, because of a terrible trauma I went through then. So, yes...thats why I got fibromyalgia when a car hit me in 1993. My body couldnt handle more of the traumas then. If people get upset about that we are strong figthers who never give up, well......whos problem is that? Not mine and not yours, at least. I am not a victim, and I will never be a victim. And I feel you are saying the same about yourself too. W9 herbal remedies , Deana Brown <squeekyme@c...> wrote: > > > > > >Apparantely I upset some people with my - Just a journal entry. Not sure why my history and life changes would offend anyone but for whatever reason I appologize. > > > > > > Grats to Pony on all your wonderful life changes. > > Peace > Deana > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 25, 2005 Report Share Posted May 25, 2005 Hi Deana, Did you get some private responses then? I never saw any posting on this list that indicated any offence taken by anyone! Don't worry about it if you have; you are free to communicate whatever you like within the rules of this list. That's what we're here for. love Lisa - Deana Brown herbal remedies Tuesday, May 24, 2005 10:16 PM Re: Herbal Remedies - Just a journal entry.>>Apparantely I upset some people with my - Just a journal entry. Not sure why my history and life changes would offend anyone but for whatever reason I appologize.>Grats to Pony on all your wonderful life changes.PeaceDeana Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 25, 2005 Report Share Posted May 25, 2005 Wow, you've had quite a life Deana. I agree with Irene: be kind to yourself. Take one step at a time. I would definitely begin with Total Nutrition!! This will make you more active, happier, and better able to deal with things. It will also give your body the necessary nutrients to start repairing itself. And by all means, if it helps you, keep posting :-) love Lisa - Deana Brown herbal remedies Tuesday, May 24, 2005 4:38 AM Herbal Remedies - Just a journal entry. Hi guys, I know I seem to be posting alot but its helping me figure this all out. I couldnt sleep tonight because It dawned on me to travel back to the beginning to find out where something went wrong. I think it did all start in the beginning and went from there. If interested in my story please read on. If not I wont be offended if you jsut delete this.Here is where I get the inclination that my immune system is completely and utterly shot. I look in the mirror I see a beautiful young lady but on the inside I feel 50 years old. It started all in the beginning....At 6months pregnancy my mother gave birth to me - weighing in at 2lbs I was embedded in a bag of infection that burst upon my delivery as well. I was in an incubator for 6 months before my mother was able to bring me home. (hence I am still very small)Formula fedVery poor disfunctional family, Physical abuse and not the right nutrition from birth to 12 years old. (My parents divorced when I was 5) I was physical beat to bloody pulps from the age of 6months on.... My mother left at 5years old and My father was my single abusive parent. I never saw my mother again till I was around 9yrs old and very little after that until 12 years old. 12 years old - my mother let me start smoking around her.13 years old - I became bulimic (full fledged daily)14 years old I became Anorexic (full fledged and mixed with bulimia) I hated food.!5 years old I was put into the hospital for Overdose of alcohol .40 blood level. and had been raped and left outside to die. 16 years old - pregnant (first one) still anorexic up to this point where my first health must of come on just from taking the prenatal vitamin religiously daily.17 years old - my mother moved away before I hit 18 while I was staying at the fathers family house for a weekend . They were going on a fishing trip up north, came back moved there stuff and told me I had to get my stuff out of the house. 18 - moved into my own low income housing where food stamps where never offered. So I spent $20 a week on groceries for me and the rest of the extra went all to baby food. I would starve for my baby.18 - moved my son to live with his fathers parents so I could go to college. 18- second teen pregnancy ( this man kicked me out of the house while I was 9months pregnant) and I was homeless. No choice but to give him up for adoption.18 - became exotic dancer and never hardly ate. Drank, did three types sometimes 4 types of drugs along with the alcohol each and every night for the next 5 years.19 - lost custody of my first son because I had no car to get to the court hearing for physical temporary placement of him in to the grandparents care till I finished college.19- new boyfriend I moved in with found another girl and kicked me out taking all my belongings and burning them. 20 - Still Anorexic and bulimic- Still using street drugs. 23- met (my now husband) as I was in 1year college program trying to turn my life around. Still Bulimic23 - pregnant with third child. Best I ever ate in my life. Became bulimic after her birth once again.24 - constant more chronic stress (relationship issues) for the next 3 years. Still Bulimic on a daily basis.25 - Finally became clean from all street drugs and alcohol. found out I had the thyroid problems after many years of them trying so many antidepressents. Went from size 4/5 to a size 12/14 in ONE year. found they had me on thyroid dose for a newborn not an adult.26 - Started eating meat (was always vegan before) and not healthy vegan at that. Found a endocrinologist who got me on the right dose of thyroid medicane.27 - Moved to this city now and began to learn about alternative health care, herbal care, how to help me help myself so to speak.28 - Endomitriosis removed.29 - 30 Struggled with trying to teach myself how to feed myself and my family properly and how to get all the drugs and bad stuff out of my body and how to rebuild my immune system which OBVIOUSLY had been hurt very very badly. ( I cant tell you how many times I stuffed and purged over all those years and used laxatives left and right)I am 30 years old now and now that I finally am getting a grasp on how to clean out my body and maybe rebuild my immune system. I am yet stuck again as to where to go. What path to journey on. No more pain, no more suffering is what I want. And yet when I try to explain my story of what I have done to my body over so many years and that there may be more underlying problems with my immune system. They say I am fine and its all in my head and that I just need to stay on my thyroid medicane.Sorry for the life detail, I just wanted to paint a picture not only for you but formyself as to how screwed up my insides must really really be. :-(Hugs and love to all. Hoping to find any info in Docs files on maybe repairing my Immune system before doing anything else. If this is the right step to take.Thanks in advance for any advise. (yes life is hard for me on a daily basis) but I try to make what I can of it. If God didnt let me die through all that crap and overdosing of Acid and alcohol - there must be a reason I am here.HugsDeana Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 26, 2005 Report Share Posted May 26, 2005 Hi Deana, I would recommend a flower essence combination to help with emotional and spiritual issues. I had written you a detailed formula and explanation but my online crashed and unfortunately the message didn't go through so this will be much shorter and not as detailed since I need to go to sleep soon: This formula will help you to deal with past trauma and abuse, recovering from addiction and eating disorders and is immunity boosting. It works on an emotional and energetic level which can help assist you bringing about the physical changes you'd like to make in your life. Combination formula: Star of Bethlehem 2 drops (helps with past shock of abuse) Walnut 2 drops (helps with transition) Chestnut Bud 2 drops (helps with not repeating past unhealthy behaviours) Self Heal 2 drops (helps assist healing process) YES Formula 4 drops (helps boost immunity) Mix in 30 ml dropper bottle with 1/3 to 1/2 dropper bottle of veggie glycerin and remainder of bottle filled with spring water. Take 4 drops in a glass of water or under tongue 4 times daily. Bottle will last 3 to 4 weeks. At this point, re-evaluate essences in your combination. For acute stress situations which could lead to repeating past behaviours such as addictions or eating disorders, take Rescue Remedy as needed 4 drops at a time. If you don't have ready access to or can't afford to buy these essences, I can prepare this for you and send it to you for free. You can contact me offline at the email below. I already have all these essences on hand and I'm more than happy to share them with you to help your healing process. Remember to nurture yourself and know that you are loved. kbowers > - > Deana Brown > herbal remedies > Tuesday, May 24, 2005 4:38 AM > Herbal Remedies - Just a journal entry. > > > Hi guys, I know I seem to be posting alot but its helping me figure > this all out. I couldnt sleep tonight because It dawned on me to travel > back to the beginning to find out where something went wrong. I think > it did all start in the beginning and went from there. If interested > in my story please read on. If not I wont be offended if you jsut > delete this. > > Here is where I get the inclination that my immune system is completely > and utterly shot. > > I look in the mirror I see a beautiful young lady but on the inside I > feel 50 years old. It started all in the beginning.... > > At 6months pregnancy my mother gave birth to me - weighing in at 2lbs I > was embedded in a bag of infection that burst upon my delivery as > well. I was in an incubator for 6 months before my mother was able to > bring me home. (hence I am still very small) > > Formula fed > > Very poor disfunctional family, Physical abuse and not the right > nutrition from birth to 12 years old. (My parents divorced when I was > 5) I was physical beat to bloody pulps from the age of 6months on.... > My mother left at 5years old and My father was my single abusive > parent. I never saw my mother again till I was around 9yrs old and very > little after that until 12 years old. > > 12 years old - my mother let me start smoking around her. > > 13 years old - I became bulimic (full fledged daily) > > 14 years old I became Anorexic (full fledged and mixed with bulimia) I > hated food. > > !5 years old I was put into the hospital for Overdose of alcohol .40 > blood level. and had been raped and left outside to die. > > 16 years old - pregnant (first one) still anorexic up to this point > where my first health must of come on just from taking the prenatal > vitamin religiously daily. > > 17 years old - my mother moved away before I hit 18 while I was staying > at the fathers family house for a weekend . They were going on a fishing > trip up north, came back moved there stuff and told me I had to get my > stuff out of the house. > > 18 - moved into my own low income housing where food stamps where never > offered. So I spent $20 a week on groceries for me and the rest of the > extra went all to baby food. I would starve for my baby. > > 18 - moved my son to live with his fathers parents so I could go to > college. > 18- second teen pregnancy ( this man kicked me out of the house while I > was 9months pregnant) and I was homeless. No choice but to give him up > for adoption. > 18 - became exotic dancer and never hardly ate. Drank, did three types > sometimes 4 types of drugs along with the alcohol each and every night > for the next 5 years. > > 19 - lost custody of my first son because I had no car to get to the > court hearing for physical temporary placement of him in to the > grandparents care till I finished college. > > 19- new boyfriend I moved in with found another girl and kicked me out > taking all my belongings and burning them. > > 20 - Still Anorexic and bulimic- Still using street drugs. > > 23- met (my now husband) as I was in 1year college program trying to > turn my life around. Still Bulimic > > 23 - pregnant with third child. Best I ever ate in my life. Became > bulimic after her birth once again. > > 24 - constant more chronic stress (relationship issues) for the next 3 > years. Still Bulimic on a daily basis. > > 25 - Finally became clean from all street drugs and alcohol. found out I > had the thyroid problems after many years of them trying so many > antidepressents. Went from size 4/5 to a size 12/14 in ONE year. found > they had me on thyroid dose for a newborn not an adult. > > 26 - Started eating meat (was always vegan before) and not healthy > vegan at that. Found a endocrinologist who got me on the right dose of > thyroid medicane. > > 27 - Moved to this city now and began to learn about alternative health > care, herbal care, how to help me help myself so to speak. > > 28 - Endomitriosis removed. > > 29 - 30 Struggled with trying to teach myself how to feed myself and my > family properly and how to get all the drugs and bad stuff out of my > body and how to rebuild my immune system which OBVIOUSLY had been hurt > very very badly. ( I cant tell you how many times I stuffed and purged > over all those years and used laxatives left and right) > > I am 30 years old now and now that I finally am getting a grasp on how > to clean out my body and maybe rebuild my immune system. I am yet stuck > again as to where to go. What path to journey on. No more pain, no > more suffering is what I want. And yet when I try to explain my story > of what I have done to my body over so many years and that there may be > more underlying problems with my immune system. They say I am fine and > its all in my head and that I just need to stay on my thyroid medicane. > > Sorry for the life detail, I just wanted to paint a picture not only for > you but formyself as to how screwed up my insides must really really be. > :-( > > Hugs and love to all. Hoping to find any info in Docs files on maybe > repairing my Immune system before doing anything else. If this is the > right step to take. > > Thanks in advance for any advise. (yes life is hard for me on a daily > basis) but I try to make what I can of it. If God didnt let me die > through all that crap and overdosing of Acid and alcohol - there must be > a reason I am here. > > Hugs > Deana > Federal Law requires that we warn you of the following: > 1. Natural methods can sometimes backfire. > 2. If you are pregnant, consult your physician before using any natural remedy. > 3. The Constitution guarantees you the right to be your own physician and to > prescribe for your own health. > We are not medical doctors although MDs are welcome to post here as long as > they behave themselves. > Any opinions put forth by the list members are exactly that, and any person > following the advice of anyone posting here does so at their own risk. > It is up to you to educate yourself. By accepting advice or products from list members, you are agreeing to > be fully responsible for your own health, and hold the List Owner and members free of any liability. > > Dr. Ian Shillington > Doctor of Naturopathy > Dr.IanShillington > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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