infection and depression and philosophy

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Hello Becky,

Thank you for your post, hard won truths, sad, strong, big in

understanding, beautiful in the spirit they are given!

I felt the presence of great love in your words, like the mariner

who, after a fearfull night of tempest on a lonely boat fighting

for his life, finally, the storm abated, at sunrise greets new

life, seeing himself alive, grateful, but wiser in recognition of

the perils passed, for life can be beautiful and terrible...but

the spirit; the spirit learns, consciousness learns, and is made

wise!

 

God bless,

Marcos

 

--- becky_celebration <bsalibrici escreveu:

 

> I have finally received antibiotics, for a cat scratch of all

> things. (My post-op abdomen looked far worse than my

> cat-scratched

> hand, but I'm glad the hand was treated at least..) I feel so

> much

> better all around. I have read that infection can cause

> depression,

> as it depresses the immune system..

>

> All I know is that I have not cried since I've physically begun

> to

> feel better, very recently. My hope is the antiobiotics have

> successfully kicked out any remaining bacteria/micro-organism

> in my

> entire body, post operatively and/or otherwise.

>

> My steps are quick again, and my motivation is returning (in

> spurts). My weight is normal again. I still get tired, and I

> still

> have much to do. Then, I have to keep at it so things stay in

> order. I had let everything go!

>

> Here's what I learned from all I've been thru (and I apologize

> to

> those who don't know what I'm talking about as I have deleted a

>

> number of my posts to the group, about my problems.)

>

> I've learned that you must love yourself. I've learned that

> knowing

> my parents love me, and having experienced this in my childhood

> and

> upwards, is a positive force in my life evermore. I've learned

> that

> even tho one 'knows' someone loves them, if they are far away

> in the

> midst of physical crisis, and their love is not 'tangible',

> *without

> loving yourself* I can understand how one could be brought to

> suicide. I never considered this, but I certainly understand a

>

> little better!

>

> I know that no matter what you know, or how right you are, if

> someone bigger than you stands to lose by what you know; you

> will

> always come out wrong..you can't win.

>

> I credit to my parents their love, sincerity and good genes

> (DEFINATELY) in my apparent recovery, tho not without permanent

> and

> chronic probems post-operatively. I credit my son with my

> reason

> for being at this point in time, as he would be devistated had

> I not

> survived this. When I felt my life was over, that I was a has

> been,

> that everything I ever was or ever hoped to be was gone.. it

> was for

> my son that I knew I needed to carry on.

>

> I learned that not one organization is generally good or bad (I

>

> speak in general terms).. but that good and bad are across the

> board. This has helped me remain sane!

>

> I learned that altho I cannot both survive and reject (drop out

> of)

> the big wheel of the system that owns the world containing me

> and

> mine.. I can disagree with it!! And, I Do!! I work too hard

> to be

> a drop out!! I learned that while much money is made on

> ignorance

> and the proliferation of ignorance and creating confusion to

> cause

> ignorance.. knowledge is still out there!! I learned that

> while I

> cannot save the world, I can try to save myself and my own. In

> this

> regard, let's keep the info out there!!

>

> One of the surgeons who started my grief said to me that there

> is a

> group of people working to get medical info off the web for

> non-

> medical people. He said this as I was presenting him with

> things I

> had learned in the hopes of enlightening him (little did I know

> at

> the time!!). Let us all work together to ensure that this does

> not

> happen!!

>

> I've learned that one can survive seemingly unsurmountable ills

> in

> the most unlucky situations..if your lucky (ironically).

>

> I've learned that a *true* friend would never do anything to

> put

> one's good reputation in jeopardy, *ever*. I've leared that

> one

> must protect oneself. If someone offers to you something that

> could

> put your good reputation in jeopardy, no matter how much you

> want

> what they are offering you, you must walk away. This is a

> world

> where people will sell their own mothers for money, sad but

> true..

> and I was not raised that way!!

>

> I've learned that being too sheltered, and then facing the

> horrible

> truth about certain things.. can create paranoia. Not knowing,

> and

> learning too fast can create paranoia without being a sick kind

> of

> paranoia. There's mind, emotion and *perspective*. There's

> nothing

> wrong with my perceptions!! Quite the contrary!

>

> I've learned that I can still be happy, even tho I thought I

> would

> never be happy again. Even tho I've been very much wronged

> (very

> much so!) I must put it aside and not think about it one more

> day at

> this time, in order to survive. I am barred from any legal

> recovery. So, I must put it aside and carry on; I have no

> choice.

>

> If I could trade places with the surgeons who put this on me,

> give

> them my pain and future problems and past GRIEF and financial

> losses

> from all of this.. If I could have their affluence and status

> and

> seemingly above-the-law status.. I would choose to be me. I

> wouldn't trade my perpective, and resolve, this called 'I', to

> be

> them, EVER!! I'd rather be ME any day of the year because I

> like

> who I am! So there!

>

>

> Blessings!

> Becky

>

 

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[Guest guest]

Marcos,

 

Thank you for your beautiful reply. I'm still struggling with these

truths. Things could have been different had I been dealt my same

cards with different players! Well, maybe we could all say

something similar. Yes, morning has broken in a sense, in this same

world. So in that respect, really, nothing has changed. I'm still

alone on my ship in the ocean, never guaranteed smooth sailing.

But, it helps to have kind ppl like you to give me the time of day:)

 

Thanks,

Becky

 

 

Chinese Traditional Medicine , marcos <ishk18 wrote:

>

> Hello Becky,

> Thank you for your post, hard won truths, sad, strong, big in

> understanding, beautiful in the spirit they are given!

> I felt the presence of great love in your words, like the mariner

> who, after a fearfull night of tempest on a lonely boat fighting

> for his life, finally, the storm abated, at sunrise greets new

> life, seeing himself alive, grateful, but wiser in recognition of

> the perils passed, for life can be beautiful and terrible...but

> the spirit; the spirit learns, consciousness learns, and is made

> wise!

>

> God bless,

> Marcos

>

> --- becky_celebration <bsalibrici escreveu:

>

> > I have finally received antibiotics, for a cat scratch of all

> > things. (My post-op abdomen looked far worse than my

> > cat-scratched

> > hand, but I'm glad the hand was treated at least..) I feel so

> > much

> > better all around. I have read that infection can cause

> > depression,

> > as it depresses the immune system..

> >

> > All I know is that I have not cried since I've physically begun

> > to

> > feel better, very recently. My hope is the antiobiotics have

> > successfully kicked out any remaining bacteria/micro-organism

> > in my

> > entire body, post operatively and/or otherwise.

> >

> > My steps are quick again, and my motivation is returning (in

> > spurts). My weight is normal again. I still get tired, and I

> > still

> > have much to do. Then, I have to keep at it so things stay in

> > order. I had let everything go!

> >

> > Here's what I learned from all I've been thru (and I apologize

> > to

> > those who don't know what I'm talking about as I have deleted a

> >

> > number of my posts to the group, about my problems.)

> >

> > I've learned that you must love yourself. I've learned that

> > knowing

> > my parents love me, and having experienced this in my childhood

> > and

> > upwards, is a positive force in my life evermore. I've learned

> > that

> > even tho one 'knows' someone loves them, if they are far away

> > in the

> > midst of physical crisis, and their love is not 'tangible',

> > *without

> > loving yourself* I can understand how one could be brought to

> > suicide. I never considered this, but I certainly understand a

> >

> > little better!

> >

> > I know that no matter what you know, or how right you are, if

> > someone bigger than you stands to lose by what you know; you

> > will

> > always come out wrong..you can't win.

> >

> > I credit to my parents their love, sincerity and good genes

> > (DEFINATELY) in my apparent recovery, tho not without permanent

> > and

> > chronic probems post-operatively. I credit my son with my

> > reason

> > for being at this point in time, as he would be devistated had

> > I not

> > survived this. When I felt my life was over, that I was a has

> > been,

> > that everything I ever was or ever hoped to be was gone.. it

> > was for

> > my son that I knew I needed to carry on.

> >

> > I learned that not one organization is generally good or bad (I

> >

> > speak in general terms).. but that good and bad are across the

> > board. This has helped me remain sane!

> >

> > I learned that altho I cannot both survive and reject (drop out

> > of)

> > the big wheel of the system that owns the world containing me

> > and

> > mine.. I can disagree with it!! And, I Do!! I work too hard

> > to be

> > a drop out!! I learned that while much money is made on

> > ignorance

> > and the proliferation of ignorance and creating confusion to

> > cause

> > ignorance.. knowledge is still out there!! I learned that

> > while I

> > cannot save the world, I can try to save myself and my own. In

> > this

> > regard, let's keep the info out there!!

> >

> > One of the surgeons who started my grief said to me that there

> > is a

> > group of people working to get medical info off the web for

> > non-

> > medical people. He said this as I was presenting him with

> > things I

> > had learned in the hopes of enlightening him (little did I know

> > at

> > the time!!). Let us all work together to ensure that this does

> > not

> > happen!!

> >

> > I've learned that one can survive seemingly unsurmountable ills

> > in

> > the most unlucky situations..if your lucky (ironically).

> >

> > I've learned that a *true* friend would never do anything to

> > put

> > one's good reputation in jeopardy, *ever*. I've leared that

> > one

> > must protect oneself. If someone offers to you something that

> > could

> > put your good reputation in jeopardy, no matter how much you

> > want

> > what they are offering you, you must walk away. This is a

> > world

> > where people will sell their own mothers for money, sad but

> > true..

> > and I was not raised that way!!

> >

> > I've learned that being too sheltered, and then facing the

> > horrible

> > truth about certain things.. can create paranoia. Not knowing,

> > and

> > learning too fast can create paranoia without being a sick kind

> > of

> > paranoia. There's mind, emotion and *perspective*. There's

> > nothing

> > wrong with my perceptions!! Quite the contrary!

> >

> > I've learned that I can still be happy, even tho I thought I

> > would

> > never be happy again. Even tho I've been very much wronged

> > (very

> > much so!) I must put it aside and not think about it one more

> > day at

> > this time, in order to survive. I am barred from any legal

> > recovery. So, I must put it aside and carry on; I have no

> > choice.

> >

> > If I could trade places with the surgeons who put this on me,

> > give

> > them my pain and future problems and past GRIEF and financial

> > losses

> > from all of this.. If I could have their affluence and status

> > and

> > seemingly above-the-law status.. I would choose to be me. I

> > wouldn't trade my perpective, and resolve, this called 'I', to

> > be

> > them, EVER!! I'd rather be ME any day of the year because I

> > like

> > who I am! So there!

> >

> >

> > Blessings!

> > Becky

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > Post message: Chinese Traditional Medicine

> > Subscribe: Chinese Traditional Medicine-

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> >