A resume, honesty, and my last will and testament

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Dear friends:

 

I am still working on my last blog on 360, and I

have a bit of a way to go, but this material is close

to done.

 

Last night I worked on a big chunk of material, as far

as an addition goes. This addition is as follows:

 

 

 

About me... a resume of sorts... complete honesty...

and a will as well.

 

 

I am just a " humble little worker bee for God " .. and I

got real lucky, that's for sure.

 

The world has a hard time understanding the gift of

genius sometimes. (Don't thank me, you can thank my

parents for this, both were gifted, and out of seven

children my mother knew that I was the most gifted.)

Please don't hold " us " up to your standards, as " we "

are " different sometimes " . (I sure am.)

 

Unfortunately, there is probably no in between here.

Either " I am going to become famous " , or " I am going

to become dead " .

 

I never sought fame, nor do I want it. All I ever

really wanted to do was to help other people not

suffer as much as I did.

 

In regard to the point about my life ending, I smoke

cigarettes like a chimney, but it does not matter, as

far as my lifespan goes. I am very probably going to

end up dead. And I am not going to lose a month of

what little I have left in life trying to quit. What

would be the point? I would lose so many hours

writing, if I attempted to quit. Cigarettes are

indefensible, I know they are. They are one of the

worst things a person could do to themselves. But in

this case, they are justified. My life is nothing

compared to a month writing copy such as this (the

above).

 

No one can get away with what I am going to cost the

drug industry " scott free " . To say nothing of what I

am going to cost conventional doctors, who are going

to be heavily abandoned, and/or " sued to death " . And

to say nothing of what I am going to cost the food

industry, and other industries as well. I am talking

" REVOLUTION!!! " , and like many revolutionaries in

history, I am going to end up dead. I know this. I

might not make it another year, or another six months

even. (They simply cannot let me " make a lot more

Willy's " or make " a lot more depressed people off of

ECT and out of severe and longstanding depression in a

day " stories. They have to kill me, as what I know

threatens too many people's pocketbooks in a big way,

and money is God in this world far more than it should

be.)

 

I accept the risk of what I am doing, as my conscience

asks me to. What else can I say?

 

Please don't hold it against me that I often smoke pot

at night after I burn out my brain writing during the

day. I smoke pot to gain insight, and " to get a few

more hours work out of it " (work that will help

millions). Or I smoke pot " just to take a break " from

my mission to save the world from so much unnecessary

suffering, and so much unnecessary death. I need to

just laugh and get silly sometimes, and pot helps me

" to change channels " (from serious to silly) in my

head. Please remember that many bipolar persons

respond well to pot, and it helps them, despite what

the law says. And as far as bipolar goes, pot is often

much better for some bipolar persons than many psych

meds, and it has less adverse effect as well. Pot

should be legal. Those of us who smoke pot as a result

of its benefit to us should not have to hide from the

law, or from nonsmokers as well.

 

Yes, " I am different " . Please don't judge me

personally. It would be wiser to ignore all of my

personal attributes, and respect the fact that I have

worked hard for thirteen years " trying to save the

world from depression and manic depression, as well as

so much else " . Please remember that I discovered many

things of " great validity " , things that will

inevitably help millions some day. The pot and the

cigarettes are rather pale in comparison to the

contributions that I have made.

 

In regard to pot, if I am going down, I am " going down

honest " . (I am holding nothing back in this blog. I am

being as honest as it gets.)

 

I do hope to spend my last year with someone

compatible to me (and this means that they smoke pot,

at least sometimes), assuming they will take the risk

in regard to being close to me at this time. This is

admittedly a heck of a risk. (Hopefully, " they " will

get just " me " , and not " you " .)

 

To the person above, believe it our not, I know how to

" at will " within a week or so reach a level of

chemical wellness, where " no drug improves it " , not

even pot.

 

The same therapy as that which has been proposed above

would greatly help to resolve every addiction on

earth, to include alcohol, heroin, and any form of

cocaine. (Pot is easy to beat compared to these more

serious addictions.) Aminos, gut correction, diet

correction, detoxifying, etc. can achieve a much

higher level of wellness than ANY drug, including pot.

I know this for a fact.

 

How can the drug companies let me live? Almost

everything they treat with drugs collapses, when the

conceptual outline and Willy's baggie, as proposed

above, blooms... and it is inevitable that it will.

 

In all likelihood, I won't be here to collect the

Nobel Prize. To the committee that grants this, if

such is found justified, please give this prize to my

son Willy. He earned it, no doubt about it. The baggie

(the baggie = broad based nutrition taken all at once)

was his original idea... and he took the risk first

for all of us. Willy taught us so much by what he did,

as well as how easy it was. And Willy " proved " to the

world that self empowerment of even a learning

impaired thirteen year old child (who could not read)

can work.

 

As far as the prize money goes, if this is awarded to

me after my death, please divide it 50/50 between my

two sons Maxwell and William Darman. And Willy, if the

Nobel people won't do this, give Max his equal share

of whatever they award to " us " (do the right thing). I

want you to do this only under the firm agreement that

for Max to collect his portion, he has to agree to

take at least 90 days of baggies and probiotics under

your guidance. (Yes, Willy, please teach your brother

what I taught you.)

 

These 90 baggies taken can be taken over a period of

no more than six months, and Max, you can take these

in three months if you want to. Your money to be

released upon completion, of course.

 

I would like the aforementioned (above) to be amended

such that there is a one third split vs. the 50/50

outlined above, if my nephew Benjamin Miller, will

take baggies and use probiotics in the same timeframe

as is specified for Maxwell.

 

And lastly, I would like to amend all of the

aforementioned (above) amended for the woman who puts

me up, and is my buddy in what is probably the last

year of my life, if someone is " brave enough " to be

this, and " we click " (as great friends, that's all). I

would like there to be a 25/25/25/25 percent split of

any funds received from the Nobel committee for what

Willy and I did, if such ever occurs, or an equal

split for all participating parties, as is it clear

that I intend. Bravery should " be paid " , whether the

person involved is willing to take baggies or not.

 

Willy, please make sure the above is carried out, if

you can. I probably won't be there to collect " my

fifth " . You don't have to feel shorted here, I gave

you " what I would have taken " , as I promised you. So

many extra benefits will come your way, especially if

you are coached for a year or so (however long it

takes to learn from them) by Dr. Sherry Rogers, or by

Dr. Jim Mercola, and you abide by what they have to

say. As your father, I have the right to give you

" orders " , something that I have not done very much in

your life. These are my " orders " to you...You still

need to clean up your diet in a big way, and do a

number of other things, including some testing

(minerals, etc.) to see if it would help guide your

supplementation better " than flying totally blind " as

we have been doing for the past three years. (The two

doctors mentioned are both capable replacements for

what I would advise you to do. I " order " you to see

one or the other for a while, right after you get out

of high school if you can. I am telling you this

because I love you, and because I know what is best

for you in these regards.)

 

I hope that my ex-wife Pamela gets nothing from this.

Pam, you already took far more than was fair, and the

world paid for this, as a lack of adequate funds these

past five years has sure slowed my progress down. Pam,

please forgive me this " lack of forgiveness for what

you did to me " in my trying to cut you out of any

fiscal benefit from what I did, and be " as good a

mother as you can to our children " . You have more than

enough money to live comfortably for the rest of your

life, you don't need any more. And Max and Willy,

although I cannot forgive your mother, I ask that you

do. Forgive her for what she did to me, and love her

all that you can.

 

Consider the above my last will and testament... " just

in case " (a very probable case).

 

I love you to death Max. I love you to death Willy. I

love you both " no matter what " .

 

Benji, I love you too, " no matter what " . I just showed

you how much. I love you as much as my own sons. I am

very sorry that I did not get to spend that much time

with you.

 

Whomever may put me up, and give me what I need (a

supportive writing environment in what is probably the

last year of my life), and becomes my " best friend " , I

love you too, whether we ever share the bedroom or

not.

 

And Pam, despite what you did to me, I still love you

" no matter what " . I will never forget that without

you, I would not have two beautiful children. And

therefore without you, I would not have had the tools

to " crack the mystery of manic depression for the

whole world " .

 

Lastly, I offer " blanket forgiveness " to all those

that attacked me personally in the past ten years on

the Internet for what I was saying. You just did not

understand me, or perhaps " I just said things the

wrong way " . It's OK.

 

Sincerely,

 

Allen Darman

 

 

 

 

 

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